Shocked, by Elaine telling me she n jeff break le...

Den pj told me she at elaine's hse, and elaine is drunk and slping...

The next minute, elaine is awake and talking rubbish to me online.

Follow up is abt jeff coming over her hse to pass her items back.

Tonight is so exciting, wif exciting news, when kristen is not ard.

Went to far east for lunch wif baby n his mum n bro. had dat yummy chicken rice. Den went PS play archade, which i failed terribly.

Went to amk hub to collect my specs, look so studious now.

Elaine, i hope u can be better. Wat i told to the gers on cny gathering, 20% is cfm correct le. I hope the consequences will not be serious.

work has been quite alright...

Ytd after work, went to far east plaza to see that woman who did my hair. She wanted to refuse my idea to redo again, until baby showed up. He is so bravo!

I adores him... He looked damn powerful, like someone who can protect me and help me, someone whom i have been looking for, my boy. So, thx to him, i going back to the shop at 6pm on monday to get dem done.

We love the desserts at the shop call 'Eskimo', YUMMY! Esp the durain chendol.

Went to take neoprint too. Baby looks damn shuai in that. He wore formal for my sake, so i wun feel left out. Saw Faith there also.

Today i changed my seat. I am alright with the work load. Went to New York New York to eat today, love the BBQ ribs, nice! hahaz.

Saw Michelle and Xavier today at AMK hub. Unexpected

Excited!

About my new job tml... I pray dat i get the will to do well, be motivated.

Excited!
About having a new specs. baby paid for its first, so now in all, i owed him $250. Haha, will return u de la baby, i got work leh... Saved 40% on the frames, and another $40 on top of it. Value for money. Comes with multi coated guarantee for a year, and computer lens.

Excited!
About the new show Ninga Turtle and Mr bean, went to watch them today. I just enjoy his accompany with me.

A guy is actually very easy to coax, a good meal after a day is the best for them.

I suspect that maple-sherlin is still buzzing ard my baby. Haiz. Went to charles and keith to buy a pair of heels for my work tml, his mum helped my to choose too, professional view. Lol.

I am looking forward to working alrd, i hope i can perform well, sad that my mum dun allow me to go malaysia with baby tml. Sorry la boy, its not my fault. I love u.

We had swensens today, very yummy, i called for sth dats super chocolaty, i guess i m too afraid of chocolates now.... Baby is happy if he heard it. I have a sinful day. :( fatty me.

SUper duper happy eileen! Haha, happy 20th mth baby. Muackx.

1st happy thing: Rebond my hair. Went to far east to rebond my hair with kaiyan at far east plaza, we sat from 12.30 to 6.30pm. Gosh, full 6 hours. Apart from that, we chatted, slpt for a while when the whole process went through. We had our urgent needs, and i ended up rushing to the toliet with dat towel on my hair. Lucky we are on the 5th floor, if not i will be so embarrassing.

We are lucky, to b done by a handsome young chap. He is not the owner, but he is a generous young guy, with patience. He started with my hair first, and he straightened my hair with much strenght, dat explains y my hair is so flat now. The price is cheap, $98 for 2 treatments, cut and rebond. Dats very cheap, and the service is good.


2nd happy thing: I get to meet my boy, despite him telling me he wanted to treat me New York New York. Sad dat i missed it, but at least i get to see him,coz i dint expect it.

3rd happy thing: Spent $54.20 on a white coat and a black shirt for my work at VERGE, which has 50% off at AMK hub. Cheap deals, the quality is great, value for money, and i get to have 3 people attending to me and giving me good advice, and me trying on many pieces. Great service!

These happy things does beam up my life. Cheers to great service. Urgh, i cant wash my hair tml,so i shall not go out too much tml, i hate oily smelly hair. :(

ArGH, i m broke. Bought Triumph Deep Desire, 50% paid by boy, but tml i gg to rebond my hair wif kaiyan, i paying for her first, plus i need to buy my formal clothes. Gosh, i spent 1k a mth lor. Must really control myself le.

Tml is gg to be our 20th mth, i miss him utterly. Although i just came back... hee, cant blame me, coz i not gg to see him tml n the day after, wed i mayb gg in malaysia wif him, or mayb its Alvin's day. Den thurs i gg work. I am happy, coz he got car on wed to next monday, at least for thurs and fri got pple fetch me to work. Lol... So dependent on him.

His dad is happy, when i show him the POPTEEN mag i bought, on the shoes... Hehe, good job la, eileen.

I have started my second msn account, since like 8 years ago when i first started to use computer. Reason? Some pple says my current email add got my name alrd, good enuf for business purpose, however, it is also filled with junks. I want somethings dats totally new, for my new step into the world. Therefore, from today onwards, official things will be to the other msn account. Hehe.

Dang Dang.... I m 70% recovered from the flu virus. My family pple had seen me wif the tissue papers in my nose, blowing, sneezing like no tml.

Dint meet baby today, turn down my gym appointment wif kristen, as i woke up at 10am, felt tired and went back to slp, finally wake at 1pm... Damn pig, den felt my head giddy and very heavy.

I had been a good ger, drink orange and carrot juice, eating peach bread.

Shall go gym later.

Mummies are the greatest in the world. I see kaiyan save n scrimp for her daughter.

I have decided to join NDP, shall go sch tml for it. Sian la, this yr hold at NP. I m happy, coz i got my plans inline. But afriad i do not have much time for baby. Sorry boy.

My Plans for the coming days before next thursday:
- NDP tml
- Sunday go far east check for rebonding salon
- Monday interview at changi cargo
- Tues rebond hair cum shopping day
- Wed alvin day
- Thurs, start work.

You Are Medium Maintenance

You aren't as hard to deal with as some girls But you aren't the most laid back chick either You're easy to deal with 90% of the time, but watch out for that 10%! If the guy you are with has good intentions, then calm down a little But if he's really screwing up, don't waste your breath - move on :-)

Are You High Maintenance?

I want to cut off my nose.... Had been behaving like a loose tap, running freely. I am feeling tired with this sickness. :(

perservance

I will work hard, not to let down the other two persons in the company who wans to engage me, and let the one who do not look up on me to regret her decicions.

Got the job at SBF, being an admin officer, but my pay is freaking low, ard O level student standard. But i feel, as a beginner, and first timer in this industry, i will just swallow it first, for only 1 month mah.

Going to buy a pair of heels for work, den think of wat office wear i have. Have to wear formal...

happy ger today, i spend $21 on eyebrow trimming, actual price $52. Nice eyebrow shaping. Shall rebond my hair next week, with kaiyan. Hopefully she can do it. Going gym tml, if its not raining later, i go for a jog. I need to slim down a little to fit in to some of the office wear.

Baby is in malaysia again. :( Boo!

I will start work next thurs...

Considering

I am sorry for even thinking abt breaking up. I love u, but u hurt me oso. :(

I dressed up nicely today, giving boy n his family a shock. His dad asked me why i have a wrist guard on my wrist. Boy is gulity of his crimes, hahaz.

I m considering of going SBF for temp work, den change to perm. Freak, my laptop is crashing on me soon..

I m a happy ger ytd, bought a new bag. Happy.

Need a new job soon. Coz daddy is super nosiy these days.

I think quite true for this, however, dat was b4 i get to know my boy. After knowing him, i lose my bold n daring side, i m more tone down. I am also more of being a dreamer alrd, coz he is also not very realistic.

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul. Practical and down to earth, you're a doer not a dreamer. You rather get something done than think about it all day. Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

stand on my own feet at the same location, when i fell.

Thanks to the Aunty May who commented to boy dat i m a pretty ger if i doll up, i might consider going for a make over!

Happy birthday gor!

Other den dat, i must really say, my good day was a little damaged by boy.

I reached the chalet, and he is playing mahjong. 1st he say dat i tap his shoulders n head, causing him to lose the games, when he alrd had bad luck since the night before.

We went to play pool. I told dem dat i duno how to play, coz i really dint play pool for 3 years le, it was after my break up with royston, dat i dint play at all le. But i gave a try. They were amazed by some ways i play. Pls lah, if i really duno how to play, i sure duno how to position my hand la. The games was ok :)

Den we went roller blades, i dint wan to try on de, coz 2 years ago i tried wif xav n mich, i ended up falling on my butt before standing up, bad experience.

I curb my phobia by giving it a try again. I stand up without falling. Allan is a clever boy man, he can do skating well even when its his first try. However, me unlucky stupid ger, got scolded by my boy. Even after numerous attempts, i still couldnt get the hang of it.

At least I tried again, and gain some confidence in moving quite a distance. Dat boy keep saying me. I told him i dun wan to play le, coz i was alrd feeling back ache. I mean BACKACHE, not strains on the back. I duno if he understands the difference.

He scolded me for giving up. I dint wan to give up too. My fear, my aches on my back, my knees, my wrists... I tried my best. But to him, i m still a useless woman, who dun give a damn in trying once i fell down once.

So i proved to him, by skating, and falling. I fell, and i stand on my own feet myself. He tried to help me, i shouted, " u get lost!" Since u dun belief wat i had said, so y bother to help me? I skated a bit, and tried my best, fell 3 to 4 times, he tried to tell me wat to do, i shouted " u shut up" and i cover my ears.

I dun wan to hear, y should i, when u dun listen to me?

Mayb u meant good, wanting me to do the best i can, not knowing i have alrd tried my best le.

Allan n ur cousin heard our quarrels, i noe their face changes, but so what? Things have been different, if u attempt to understand my tryings.

My heart closes on u, i duno y. I teared on the bus back. I tried to understand u, by letting u skate wif ur cousin instead of sending me home, even if u really rmb dat u promised to send me home today.

I duno wat to tell u. Feel emo today. Sorry wh n ken, cant go ice skate wif u guys tml, coz i dun feel like. I think i will be gg for more skates again tml, instead of gg to the physican, coz i think its just my past injuries relapse only. Whatever. I m the type of ger, who will try to stand on my own feet at the same location, when i fell.

I have a phobia, of driving go kart. Baby, pls understand, twice, i almost flipped the car, and ur car accident, make me scared, my phobia.

I enjoyed today, going escape wif boy and his cousin. Den had barbeuce, i dint eat much of the food, coz very oily....

Dint exercise today, hopefully i have chance tml.

I aim to be a perfectionist!

Dying from my fats, i scare i will get depression again. I must motivate myself to work harder, stop finding excuses not to exercise, and stop planning for occasions and reasons to indulge in high calories food, like i did ytd.

I wan a curvvy figure... 33C, 22cm, 26cm... I hope i can achieve dat.

I need to remove my spare tyres, fat arms and giant tighs... Hopefully before i start work, i get a 42kg weight back. 8kg to shed. Shall go gym tml then. den to Escape.

Wonders

I wonder when will i get my job?
Should i study at Murdoch University?
Should i join NDP 2007?

So many wonders, and questions, but i duno when will i get my answer.

Spent lots of money today at compass point, went to meet Shu Ling and radience they all...

Gg Escape with baby and his cousins tml.. I need some fun!

Urgh, I M FAT!!! I think my weight shot up to 50kg alrd. I had been eating, eating, eating and eating. Dint exercise for ages, and had been slacking like crazy.

I need to cut down on the food i m eating... Had fish n co at glass house today, was yummy, with loads of lemon butter sauce, spend abt $177 for 7 person, which baby paid.

Play archade, and i checked my account balance, suppose to return boy the money for that KL trip.

Dad had been crazy, asking me abt my job everyday, its like, hello, i worked 6 days full time straight, den rushed to KL, den just back for 1 day only. Even if i apply, waiting for interview and before getting employed will need time too. Gosh, he is brainless at times. He spolit my perfect mood.

Baby's hse is gg thru renovating, finally, the brothers are getting a room to their own, no longer sharing with their parents, as the tenant moved out. I m looking forward to the good times then.

I m tired, duno y, pimples had been popping like siao, i think i need to detox soon.

Life is about learning new things... I learnt from the KL trip, that relationships are not just about love, or not some people, being together everyday or having sex.

Well, whether or not we did whatever, its none of others business, but on actual fact, most people say, long term rs requires close physical rs.

Looking at Ken n WH, when spending our room together in KL, i see the bond, and understanding between them, its amazing that they stayed tgt since secondary 4, feel with envy*.

I love him, really, even if at times we dun have feelings for each other, but our memories, when thought of, brings back fond memories and nice feelings, everything is better again.

Happy + Disappointed

What does it mean?
I am a happy ger, to enjoy indulging in my baby's arms every night during the trip in KL, enjoying his hugs and kisses, caring and handsome smile... I love him, coz he tolerate with my anger, bad temperness, as period had not arrive, and after arrival. We had numerous of quarrels, he tried to talk sense to me, yet i m very stubborn. Sorry boy,thx for the pretty gifts.

Baby bought for me a belt. a hello kitty coin purse, Kate eyeliner (why malaysia got Kate and we dun have???), top. I love them all! Even though i so much wanted to buy bags, but i feel nth is worth the price stated or the qualtiy is not up to my standard.

We stayed at Ferderal Hotel, its a damn nice hotel, comfy bed for up to 3 pillows, can accomdate 4 people, cool yeah! Had buffet breakfast for the first day, den check in and slp, as we arrived at KL at 5am in the morning. After dat we go jalan, but only bought a top. The place that sold the top sold some fake nails, with pretty designs, and its just stick on, no glue required. Its called click now if i rmb correctly.

Second day we went for a swim in the hotel, while waiting for those two giants to arrive. After which we went to shop, walk almost the whole day, boy bought 2 shirts for himself. At night, except wh, all of uswere hyper, so we went down to Quick and Easy store (7-11 there), to buy some food. Ken ended up getting drunk, and we fell aslp after a few round of dai di.

3rd day, my period came, so we couldnt swim n rollar skates. We went shopping, while ken n wh went to another mall to get a jacket. for 3 days, we had been eating the KFC, the chicken are very tender and nice, wh loves the bread alot, so we ended up buying 10 breads for her to eat on the train (she sat on the breads when on train).

We surf the internet cafe, to know our results. Well, not so bad.

CURRENT SEMESTER GRADE POINT AVERAGE: 3.0417
RESULT: PASSED AND COMPLETED THE DIPLOMA COURSE
GRADUATING GPA: 2.4478

I got my AD for IB only. Alright la... Was hoping to get the book prize award. 4 Bs and 2 Cs. Was utterly disappointed with myself for SMM and BPC for the B, but surprised for the BB's C, i was thinking i would get a D.

Like wat Faith had said, unless we get a GPA of 3.5 and above, its relatively hard for us to get in to the local uni, mayb working and be a tai tai will be my life? Baby, u sees it? Haha. I am happy to hit the GPA of 3, but disappointed with myself for not doing better in overall. :(

R.I.P my dear catcus. This pretty catcus was given to me by my baby during 2007 vdae. But i duno y, i just went for KL for 4 days, and it died. It became soggy and slimmy alrd. Sorry baby, its not my fault, i think its the ants that attacked this defenseless plant.

Much thx to all my fellow great frenz... esp to Faith, Mildred, Huiping, Adelaide etc... U guys had been a great help to advicing me to my decision. I believe in my 1st instinct, and those great frenz common opinions.

Baby asked his dad too, like most of u had told me, mayb i should take up the 2 mths job, take it as my 1st marketing job, better den nth on my resume dats related to marketing. I can always find sth better in future, the grass is greener on the other side. As a perm job, pay is an important too.

Jia you!

I shall tell adele my decision tml.

Excited...

Gosh, i m only ard 24 hrs away, to the KL trip. cant explain my excitment. Was out to sch for the NP BB primers AGM, this yr combined wif Tri Elite, T&F and Fencing...

The AGM was a success, but sad Mr Edmund no longer our advisor. It time for us to step down too. Was talking to Daniel n Jabin about bf n frenz who are gg NS soon, yet interested to join the NDP 2007, shall ait for their news soon, after we r back from KL. Jabin was asking bf n me to b trainers for the motivators, but i think not really nice, coz got some pple they are more senior den us. Shall consider?

Many have given me comments to work for the 2 mths temp, one said to go for the full time... I admit the temp would definately give me more time to go for the NDP... Hai, which decision should i make?

Nvm, everything shall be settled after i come back from KL? Loves, and excited. Shall update 4 days later!

Dilenma

I m thinking... Whether i should wait for the rest to reply me, or go for the temp 2 mths marketing executive? Gosh, i m spoilt for decisions to be made.

My results will be released in a few days time, and i will be away in KL. think i shall go to one of the lan shop there to see my results. Praying hard, that i can pass, and with flying colours, this is my last sem please!

Dear Lord, please help me to excel, and give me the strength to carry on, Amen.

Baby is sweet to accompany me to Bugis to meet Adele. Glad that i had spoken my mind about my concern to the company's image, regarding Jeslyn. Serene and me realli loves to see that bitch gets a clearer picture of the situation, and of the damages she had done.

Gor and his gf quarrel today. She smsed me as early as 8am, when i was sound in bed. I duno the current situation. I realli hope they can be better.

Elain n jeff broke up le. I duno if this is good or not, mayb for us gers, we had been hoping they would break, but i still feel, its their issue tosettle themselves, Elaine's rs had been controlled by us numerous of times, i hope this time she will b mature enuf to make her own real decisive decision.

Enuf of those sad things, i hope our KL trip will be a success. I had been quarrelling wif baby these 2 days too. Hope things will be better.

Offically 3 days away to the KL trip!

Treasure the ones in front of u. I love u baby. Sorri for our quarrel today. I was a bit heated. Sadly to say, dats my habit, but hor, i will try to change, since i have changed so much for u, i believe i had did so much for u. Muackx.

Went to Golden Mill today... To book coach tickets, instead of taking train. I love him, looking forward to the trip, wif 2 couples. Baby will be paying for me 1st, den i return him after i get my pay.

After watching my show, i shall start a little bit of packing...

Yippee.... My 6 days promotions are over... Quite good pay for just 6 days, but the working hrs are freaking long... But i m very happy, to know friends like Sher, Serene, Jay Loyd, Shu Ling, Michelle, Fred, thx guys for the nice 6 days...

We may belong to different brands, but we help each other, to provide the best for the customers needs. :) Its fun, rewarding, and enjoyable. I going some trial lenses for BL and Acu... Shall get from CV soon. These names are actually in short forms, to prevent some problems.

I am going to meet Ade tml, a freshkon person, for duno wat. She called me to meet her tml. Lol.

Baby, me, Ken n Wh planning to go for a short 4 day getaway to KL. I hope it will be a safe n nice journey. Muackx baby, cant wait.

Working n working = super tired.

Baby, thx for coming all the way down from sch to tm to fetch me to thomson for prata. We saw Sherman n clara, and some other NP pple there on our way back.

Tonight roads are filled with white tigers, 2 on TPE and 2 on SLE, at ard 10am? Dats far too early. Hahaz. Lucky baby was driving on the safe mode.

My work sux today, i feel i m just wasting time. Tml is better, y? Coz my customers are coming down tml to collect their stocks. I hope to do better tml.

I need a FT job soon... Praying hard.

Happy

I m so glad i took up this time's roadshow, instead of backing out n wander about wif baby....

I enjoyed getting pampered, having boy to buy dinners for me (which usually becomes my suppers), and him driving me home. Thx dear, u r very sweet.

I enjoyed earning close to $300 in 3 days, hopefully i will do better for my next 3 days alone, hitting targets. Praying hard... I wan to earn another $300 to get my new digi cam...

Dear, love u. I know ur relatives have been asking u about us, but u know dat i feel that it is far too early for us to get married, further more u have not had ur NS, mayb after ur NS den we see how ok? Muackx

Excitment

Loves... My current life. But good things will comes an end tml. I am starting my 6 days work tml, until next wed, meaning no more shopping...

I love him. Thx for the treat of dinner at Swensens, love the banana crumpler, ice mocha, and curry bake rice... Yummy, especially with someone i love so much.

Went to United Square after going to some govt company there, and velocity, coz boy needs to settle sth for his business.

I bought my sunscreen and bio essence deep exolifying gel. Had been wanting these items. Happy girl.

Baby bought a new game, and his maple cards. He is oso a happy guy.

Tml starts work, Eileen, do ur best woah, earn the commission.

The sad thing i heard today, is abt a ger, her abortion... haiz... Its ur decision, its ur boy's fault for not being responsible, and u not being sensible. However, wats done is done, do justice to your daughter. No one will understand the pain of a mother losing their child, Kaiyan, i finally understand the pain u had twice.

I love you.