When i get to know what she has done, with a guy who has a gf... It reminds me of the time when u told me ur ex came to your hse. I rmb u telling me, " I m sorry dear... I m kidding you". When you said, " i m sorry" i knew sth was wrong. She told me, it is no pt going to find out what is going on, and i shld trust u. Sometimes i trust you, but my instinct and everything, makes me unsure.
Happy 26th mth.. when it is 26th of the mth. Sometimes i hope that, you can be by my side, as n when if you can. But when i know, ur cousins and ur bro has plans for u, i know i have to be understanding, not to be selfish. But when it comes to love, i m a very demanding and selfish ger.
I hope u can be happy. Faith is right.... She told me to be strong la do the right thing, really or if nt its nt fair to him. I told her what u told me abt u needing my support for NS, she told me, if its nt going to work then no point dragging on. You have to learn to deal w it..
I duno if i can make the best decision for you... But i will always rmb, there was a guy, who loves me and dotes me the most. I hope, when i am wif u, i wun feel so stress, and please make me a happier ger. I wish to put the smile on me everyday, just when i think of u, instead of me thinking of u, wishing that u can bring more smiles to me.
I wan to walk down with u more, but, please change, and prove to me, that you can be the guy who can give me security. I need security. Please...
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Saturday, September 22, 2007
FUNNNNNN!!!
It is nice to have the compansionship of your best fren, someone who will listens to you. I love this kind of life. Off day today, and i went to sentosa with Michelle. (am reach her house, we reach vivo at 11, and we reach the beach around 11 plus. We tan, and swim, den tan and swim, den again.... till 3pm. We dun look tan at all, except for our feet.
We suggested to go to the Fish Reflexology, but two idiots, walked damn far, to wait for a long time, for a short bath. Then we walked to New Zealnd ice cream for tirmisu Ice cream, yummy! We took the blue line, then came to Siloso Point, when we were actually tanning near the ben and jerry only!
Enquire on the price, $38, for the fishes and a manual massage, quite reasonable. Was told to come back at 5.45pm, so we went for our lunch cum high tea at delifrance. Then to the massage. Ur truly is not afriad of pain, but is terribly bad at itchiness... So i practically shake and hold on to michelle.
Its Michelle's virgin trip for feet massage. I was quite ok with their skill, but the ambience is nice. I realise the staffs wear crocs shoes! Mayb it is good for the legs?
After dat, we went to Vivo City for dinner, Carl's Jr. Initially we couldnt find a place, and intended to give up. Just when we are walking out, we spotted a place, near the entrance.
Mich and I felt hot on our shoulders, from the burnt, and carrying shoulder bags, esp big and heavy ones, are really painful....
The tan is quite uneven, but I enjoy myself today! Great company, great weather, great day, and fun!
It is nice to have the compansionship of your best fren, someone who will listens to you. I love this kind of life. Off day today, and i went to sentosa with Michelle. (am reach her house, we reach vivo at 11, and we reach the beach around 11 plus. We tan, and swim, den tan and swim, den again.... till 3pm. We dun look tan at all, except for our feet.
We suggested to go to the Fish Reflexology, but two idiots, walked damn far, to wait for a long time, for a short bath. Then we walked to New Zealnd ice cream for tirmisu Ice cream, yummy! We took the blue line, then came to Siloso Point, when we were actually tanning near the ben and jerry only!
Enquire on the price, $38, for the fishes and a manual massage, quite reasonable. Was told to come back at 5.45pm, so we went for our lunch cum high tea at delifrance. Then to the massage. Ur truly is not afriad of pain, but is terribly bad at itchiness... So i practically shake and hold on to michelle.
Its Michelle's virgin trip for feet massage. I was quite ok with their skill, but the ambience is nice. I realise the staffs wear crocs shoes! Mayb it is good for the legs?
After dat, we went to Vivo City for dinner, Carl's Jr. Initially we couldnt find a place, and intended to give up. Just when we are walking out, we spotted a place, near the entrance.
Mich and I felt hot on our shoulders, from the burnt, and carrying shoulder bags, esp big and heavy ones, are really painful....
The tan is quite uneven, but I enjoy myself today! Great company, great weather, great day, and fun!
Thursday, September 20, 2007
2nd day of MC...
He called me ytd night, he is having a sore throat, coz he tried to be a hero, shouting... Cool Yeah! Hey, drink more water, when u come back i make honey lemon water for u ok?
He was worried abt my sickness, but he kept complaining that i m very workaholic.:( I know la. U oso mah!!! Not fair to say me only, u have to do some reflections too.
I have always heard from my mum, finding a bf or husband, he shld be someone who will side u, when problems arises, such as, when u have a tiff wif his family members. My baby apparently loves his family more den me, that i can understand, but he oso stands by dem! Umph! I m unhappy abt it. No security at all!
I guess I m not gg to stay at home the whole day today, coz i slp n do nth. I might go to the gym, or for swimming later.
For the first time, Pamela called me at night, and we have a short chat for around 10mins. Then i smsed my colleagues, to tell them not to touch aything on my desk.
Wake up at 9am. Wow, i can really slp. 9 hrs of slp, and i m still tired. Gosh! Don just called me on some work issues, sick osomust work!
I hope i can get well soon. I dun wan the pple ard to worry for me. Jia you!
He called me ytd night, he is having a sore throat, coz he tried to be a hero, shouting... Cool Yeah! Hey, drink more water, when u come back i make honey lemon water for u ok?
He was worried abt my sickness, but he kept complaining that i m very workaholic.:( I know la. U oso mah!!! Not fair to say me only, u have to do some reflections too.
I have always heard from my mum, finding a bf or husband, he shld be someone who will side u, when problems arises, such as, when u have a tiff wif his family members. My baby apparently loves his family more den me, that i can understand, but he oso stands by dem! Umph! I m unhappy abt it. No security at all!
I guess I m not gg to stay at home the whole day today, coz i slp n do nth. I might go to the gym, or for swimming later.
For the first time, Pamela called me at night, and we have a short chat for around 10mins. Then i smsed my colleagues, to tell them not to touch aything on my desk.
Wake up at 9am. Wow, i can really slp. 9 hrs of slp, and i m still tired. Gosh! Don just called me on some work issues, sick osomust work!
I hope i can get well soon. I dun wan the pple ard to worry for me. Jia you!
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Its almost one week he went in le... Ytd he dint call me. I was having diahorra the whole day ytd, dint eat anything, except for an apple and some porridge. My tummy goes flat in a day. Yeah!
On 2 days MC... Might consider to take time off instead, coz if take MC, I will lose the $100 incentive. Hmmz... considering....
I noe he arent going to be very happy if he gets to know abt it. I am looking at Fujitsu tablet PC, sony camera and a new mp3... Argh, can I strike a lottery? Hahaz...
I just helped him to send the email. Sorry Vin, haven do the hard disk yet. I will do so if i have the time.
On 2 days MC... Might consider to take time off instead, coz if take MC, I will lose the $100 incentive. Hmmz... considering....
I noe he arent going to be very happy if he gets to know abt it. I am looking at Fujitsu tablet PC, sony camera and a new mp3... Argh, can I strike a lottery? Hahaz...
I just helped him to send the email. Sorry Vin, haven do the hard disk yet. I will do so if i have the time.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Saturday, September 15, 2007
September 15
Today is September 15, 2007,the day here I first stepped on the SAF Ferry Terminal, and find myself on the ferry with Alvin, going through the 15 mins ride, and went on Tekong ISland wif his fmaily, sending him in....
I saw him walking through, taking the oath, it tells me, My Boy is going to be a Man. Dear, like i told u, i will try to walk wif u thru the NS days, just as I had promised you b4.... I hope I will be able to do so... And i look forward to loving you, feeling that you grow up 2 weeks later...
No matter how i bu she de, the law, the future... Everything as forced us to wake up from our dream, and to face that, we have to grow up, and treasure those people and things around us, and that we are having. Once we have learnt how to treasure, we will be the richest people in the world, not with just monetary, but the mental and other support that we have...
The day he will go botak, and go thru all the courses that will treach him to be, the MAN.
I saw him walking through, taking the oath, it tells me, My Boy is going to be a Man. Dear, like i told u, i will try to walk wif u thru the NS days, just as I had promised you b4.... I hope I will be able to do so... And i look forward to loving you, feeling that you grow up 2 weeks later...
No matter how i bu she de, the law, the future... Everything as forced us to wake up from our dream, and to face that, we have to grow up, and treasure those people and things around us, and that we are having. Once we have learnt how to treasure, we will be the richest people in the world, not with just monetary, but the mental and other support that we have...
The day he will go botak, and go thru all the courses that will treach him to be, the MAN.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I duno if u r reading this right now, but i would like to tell u, Thank You!These 2 days, the smiles on your face, the blissful feeling u gave me, brightens up my life. I m really happy. Thankfully, i can get this wonderful memory, a good memory to remember.
Just staying in the resort room, enjoying good food (which makes me gain 4kg), and great accompany, I m a happy ger alrd. What I want, is just your accompany. Loving it. I m hoping, i can see u tml. But, if i really cant, i hope, i and i wish, that you can dun go malaysia on thurs or friday, but to enjoy ur last few days.
The neoprints we took today, is so cute. :) U r a great bf, and i hope u can do well in NS. No matter wat happens in future, i m really glad, i have this chalet stay with you, and only you... U know what, its going to be one of the best memories...
I did my waxing for the first time in my life ytd. I love the pain sensation. Hahaz....
I went for the pre-employment checkup, gosh i m only 1.55m high, and i weigh 47kg... what a fat ass! Time to check what I m consuming ger....
Boy went for his strentous exercsing with his bro just now. i hope, he can do well for his NS. Good Luck, Jia you!
Just staying in the resort room, enjoying good food (which makes me gain 4kg), and great accompany, I m a happy ger alrd. What I want, is just your accompany. Loving it. I m hoping, i can see u tml. But, if i really cant, i hope, i and i wish, that you can dun go malaysia on thurs or friday, but to enjoy ur last few days.
The neoprints we took today, is so cute. :) U r a great bf, and i hope u can do well in NS. No matter wat happens in future, i m really glad, i have this chalet stay with you, and only you... U know what, its going to be one of the best memories...
I did my waxing for the first time in my life ytd. I love the pain sensation. Hahaz....
I went for the pre-employment checkup, gosh i m only 1.55m high, and i weigh 47kg... what a fat ass! Time to check what I m consuming ger....
Boy went for his strentous exercsing with his bro just now. i hope, he can do well for his NS. Good Luck, Jia you!
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Thankfully, he landed peacefully. When he hugs me, i can feel his love for him. I m glad he is still a piece. I know he had been trying to make me happy ytd. One of his first words when he landed, is that "xin ku ni le".
We had dinner at amk hub wif jeannie (his cousin). Then he send me home, where we talk at my hse void deck. We realised, we are both struggling to keep ourselves to each other, to maintain this rs. Is it going to worth all these effort?
I hope i can enjoy myself next week in the resort.
We had dinner at amk hub wif jeannie (his cousin). Then he send me home, where we talk at my hse void deck. We realised, we are both struggling to keep ourselves to each other, to maintain this rs. Is it going to worth all these effort?
I hope i can enjoy myself next week in the resort.
Friday, September 07, 2007
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
I felt myself sipping into depression these few days. I have been crying everyday these few days for no reason, and when i start, I will begin to think of him, the way he treats me, the gd n bad.... The heartaches and pain comes again. I haven seen him for almost 2 weeks, and for the past few mths, we had been quarrelling, yet he gg NS soon. I guess, its time i make a decision soon.
I am happy at work today. Don dint work today, but have fun discussing sth wif CY. Well, it can be fun at times without the boss. Hahaz.Jia Rui's birthday today, happy bdae boy. I went to work, den meet my family at PS, den had dinner at Ajisen, den watch Rush hour 3.
Vin is landing on 7th, at 14.50pm, flight number tr987, budget terminal. Then I thinking to either go overseas with him for 2 days, or to stay in a resort room to relax.
I need a break. I break from all the worries and unhappiness....
I am happy at work today. Don dint work today, but have fun discussing sth wif CY. Well, it can be fun at times without the boss. Hahaz.Jia Rui's birthday today, happy bdae boy. I went to work, den meet my family at PS, den had dinner at Ajisen, den watch Rush hour 3.
Vin is landing on 7th, at 14.50pm, flight number tr987, budget terminal. Then I thinking to either go overseas with him for 2 days, or to stay in a resort room to relax.
I need a break. I break from all the worries and unhappiness....
Monday, September 03, 2007
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Went to watch 881 last thrus, wif Nories, Alice, jamie, CY, Don, GM.... Nice show, i almost cried.
I m crossing my finger, hoping dat i wun be going to sembawang.. Justin, dun quit la. Hai. If i realli have to go there, i might as well quit.
I m tired, seriously tired. I m happy mich n xav make up le.I hope they can en en ai ai. I am talking to bee bee's bro now. He is saying that boy has been waiting for me, n my work is more impt den him. Dear, if u want me to quit, i will. U just say it, and u have to promise me, no horrible mths like these few mths i have to go thru ever again.
I love u, yes i do.... Will u love me back like i did? I just want to be a happy ger again. U will have no idea, how much tears is dropped from m eyes these few days, wif the thought u r leaving me for NS.....
I m crossing my finger, hoping dat i wun be going to sembawang.. Justin, dun quit la. Hai. If i realli have to go there, i might as well quit.
I m tired, seriously tired. I m happy mich n xav make up le.I hope they can en en ai ai. I am talking to bee bee's bro now. He is saying that boy has been waiting for me, n my work is more impt den him. Dear, if u want me to quit, i will. U just say it, and u have to promise me, no horrible mths like these few mths i have to go thru ever again.
I love u, yes i do.... Will u love me back like i did? I just want to be a happy ger again. U will have no idea, how much tears is dropped from m eyes these few days, wif the thought u r leaving me for NS.....
Saturday, September 01, 2007
I feel so lost, so helpless. 2 years ago, when i picked myself up from the failed rs, i found u. I gave u my everything, and u are my everything. My love, my smile, my happiness. U left me, all alone to face everything, everyone. I almost fainted so many times, yet u r nvr beside me, not even once. When we talk on the phone or in face, we always quarrel. Time is always not on our side, and the distance between us r getting bigger.
I know, u r thinking abt our future. However, how can we continue, if we cant spend time tgt. I have not had any new memories with u for so long. I only want love to get redeveloped between us again. I have been living on our past memories these few mths since Feburary, and all these cant work anymore, coz they r getting stale. I know its hard for u, and i understand y u r doing this, but i really cant take it anymore.
I want more time wif u, but NS is coming, and u have ur dad. Please dun blame me in the decision I will make. Its not dat i dont wish to walk down the future wif u, but i m not strong enuf to go thru so many tough obstacles u r putting me in. I want to love u for as long as we can, but, u r not giving me any love, and i cant feel it anymore from u.
The words u told me, dat i m selfish, and I m materalistic. Do u know, when u r not ard, I have to protect myself, and time wif u r so precious that i cant afford to let pple ard us to waste it, dats y i m selfish. Do you know, I have to shop and buy things to make myself happy, to rekindle the love we had in the past. You think i realli like it? I rather spend my time wif u, loving u and only u.
How many times u hurt me, with ur actions and ur words, I kept quiet. I realli felt so hurt from someone whom i love so much, who picked me up from the mess i was in, and also the same person who said such things to make me so hurt in my heart.
The tears dat was dropped, pierced into my heart. U told me i dint keep my promise to go for your course, i am sorry. I dun wish to explain much, becoz i feel so useless.
I ever told u b4, when i lose u, i will be single, mayb forever. Becoz i realli love u so much, dat i cant continue further. U r a nice guy, and u deserve a better lady for u.
I know, u r thinking abt our future. However, how can we continue, if we cant spend time tgt. I have not had any new memories with u for so long. I only want love to get redeveloped between us again. I have been living on our past memories these few mths since Feburary, and all these cant work anymore, coz they r getting stale. I know its hard for u, and i understand y u r doing this, but i really cant take it anymore.
I want more time wif u, but NS is coming, and u have ur dad. Please dun blame me in the decision I will make. Its not dat i dont wish to walk down the future wif u, but i m not strong enuf to go thru so many tough obstacles u r putting me in. I want to love u for as long as we can, but, u r not giving me any love, and i cant feel it anymore from u.
The words u told me, dat i m selfish, and I m materalistic. Do u know, when u r not ard, I have to protect myself, and time wif u r so precious that i cant afford to let pple ard us to waste it, dats y i m selfish. Do you know, I have to shop and buy things to make myself happy, to rekindle the love we had in the past. You think i realli like it? I rather spend my time wif u, loving u and only u.
How many times u hurt me, with ur actions and ur words, I kept quiet. I realli felt so hurt from someone whom i love so much, who picked me up from the mess i was in, and also the same person who said such things to make me so hurt in my heart.
The tears dat was dropped, pierced into my heart. U told me i dint keep my promise to go for your course, i am sorry. I dun wish to explain much, becoz i feel so useless.
I ever told u b4, when i lose u, i will be single, mayb forever. Becoz i realli love u so much, dat i cant continue further. U r a nice guy, and u deserve a better lady for u.
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