Saturday, September 01, 2007

I feel so lost, so helpless. 2 years ago, when i picked myself up from the failed rs, i found u. I gave u my everything, and u are my everything. My love, my smile, my happiness. U left me, all alone to face everything, everyone. I almost fainted so many times, yet u r nvr beside me, not even once. When we talk on the phone or in face, we always quarrel. Time is always not on our side, and the distance between us r getting bigger.

I know, u r thinking abt our future. However, how can we continue, if we cant spend time tgt. I have not had any new memories with u for so long. I only want love to get redeveloped between us again. I have been living on our past memories these few mths since Feburary, and all these cant work anymore, coz they r getting stale. I know its hard for u, and i understand y u r doing this, but i really cant take it anymore.

I want more time wif u, but NS is coming, and u have ur dad. Please dun blame me in the decision I will make. Its not dat i dont wish to walk down the future wif u, but i m not strong enuf to go thru so many tough obstacles u r putting me in. I want to love u for as long as we can, but, u r not giving me any love, and i cant feel it anymore from u.

The words u told me, dat i m selfish, and I m materalistic. Do u know, when u r not ard, I have to protect myself, and time wif u r so precious that i cant afford to let pple ard us to waste it, dats y i m selfish. Do you know, I have to shop and buy things to make myself happy, to rekindle the love we had in the past. You think i realli like it? I rather spend my time wif u, loving u and only u.

How many times u hurt me, with ur actions and ur words, I kept quiet. I realli felt so hurt from someone whom i love so much, who picked me up from the mess i was in, and also the same person who said such things to make me so hurt in my heart.

The tears dat was dropped, pierced into my heart. U told me i dint keep my promise to go for your course, i am sorry. I dun wish to explain much, becoz i feel so useless.

I ever told u b4, when i lose u, i will be single, mayb forever. Becoz i realli love u so much, dat i cant continue further. U r a nice guy, and u deserve a better lady for u.

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