Bread or Love?
Bread... i need to be gan en tu bao. Although i m no longer happy like i used to be, but I learn many things there before.
Love... This morning, i received an sms from him, he says " feel our time tgt not enough, feel machiam I'm single lidat'...
" the thoughts of having u spurs me on...the thoughts of wanting to support u drives me on. But i really got to make it clear and truthful to u now, coz last night cant slp n kept thinking... realised I cant take it anymore.. I seriously dun mind if u have to work on weekends or have sth on, but i just feel we are seriously not spending enough time tgt... Maybe my fault, maybe your, i duno.. Just know I m having that very lonelyfeeling even on weekends."
I dont know how to tell u this. but, u think i like to work in weekends instead of accompanying u? U think i like to make u feel lonely? When u are not ard in weekdays becoz u have no choice, do u know how i felt, how time passed so slowly for me? U think I like to make our rs turn out this way?
Bread or love, they affect my future. Without u in my life, i felt sth is out of place. But, my career now determines my future. Not as in I m going to work there forever, but the testimonials and all.
U rmb, i told u before, before i work for this job, i gave u 2 options, the PR one, or the events one. u told me to choose for myself. I did, but now, u are giving me pressure on this.
Alvin, arent the relationship suppose to be compromising... I duno how to explain to u, how difficult this whole year has been for me? The weekends are just 2 days a week, the rest of the fives days, its difficult for me, very difficult.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
I shall be a good girl, to follow these steps to a healthy and prettier me, Sleep before 12 everyday! & maybe exercising 2-3 times a week, less late nights!!!, DIY facial once a week & exfoliating twice a week, body scrub once a week, dance class once a week....
Was praying and cursing those freaking slow boats. Luckily, after much anticipation for their return, i managed to clear all 17 boats before 6pm, thereafter, off duty for the week. Cabbed to Vin's hse from tanah merah mrt, $12.40. Darling, u say u will subsidise me, I will place it here to remind u.Hahaz, jkjk...
We went to have dinner, hokkien prawn mee, and chatted abt his 21st celebration with his dad n bro. After sending him to camp, i went to his god mum hse with his family, first time, without him ard.
Dear was happy, and i like the words he told me over the phone just now. Was nvr as deeply in love before. Thanks for being so sweet.
It was our 2 and a half year ytd. Lucky i was smart, i run to Don and tell him earlier. Now, its about off days competition. hahaz. Ytd is really special, my company gave me a surprise, little yet special. And boy and I tried the Billy Bombers at The Cathay. Although my tummy wasnt well dat day, but, i enjoyed the food and the service there.
After food, we went to PS to get our second pair of couple rings. Spent like $108 for the ring, with free engraving, and $25 worth of bears. i am starting to like soft toys, but, it is still a waste of space, but sometimes, when u got it from someone special, it is very different.
I will make his 21st an unforgettable one. I am alright with working with his Bro for this celebration, to make it a great one. But i hate it, when his father says" I give this project to u ok, den allen help u" Like wth, who u think u are?You are not engaging me, not paying me, and I am suppose to listen to u? F**K off la.
I will assist Allen, I dun care.Say what you want lor... Like i bother!
Was praying and cursing those freaking slow boats. Luckily, after much anticipation for their return, i managed to clear all 17 boats before 6pm, thereafter, off duty for the week. Cabbed to Vin's hse from tanah merah mrt, $12.40. Darling, u say u will subsidise me, I will place it here to remind u.Hahaz, jkjk...
We went to have dinner, hokkien prawn mee, and chatted abt his 21st celebration with his dad n bro. After sending him to camp, i went to his god mum hse with his family, first time, without him ard.
Dear was happy, and i like the words he told me over the phone just now. Was nvr as deeply in love before. Thanks for being so sweet.
It was our 2 and a half year ytd. Lucky i was smart, i run to Don and tell him earlier. Now, its about off days competition. hahaz. Ytd is really special, my company gave me a surprise, little yet special. And boy and I tried the Billy Bombers at The Cathay. Although my tummy wasnt well dat day, but, i enjoyed the food and the service there.
After food, we went to PS to get our second pair of couple rings. Spent like $108 for the ring, with free engraving, and $25 worth of bears. i am starting to like soft toys, but, it is still a waste of space, but sometimes, when u got it from someone special, it is very different.
I will make his 21st an unforgettable one. I am alright with working with his Bro for this celebration, to make it a great one. But i hate it, when his father says" I give this project to u ok, den allen help u" Like wth, who u think u are?You are not engaging me, not paying me, and I am suppose to listen to u? F**K off la.
I will assist Allen, I dun care.Say what you want lor... Like i bother!
Friday, January 25, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Mr Chong is a great adviser... Thanks friend. He is an ex colleague of mine, in my current job. Thanks friend, for being there for me when i need help, listening ear and everything.
You are right. I can no longer think back, hoping things in the club to be back to before november. Since May to Nov 2007, it has been my happiest time there. The department was so close, everyone is happy with our own jobs and fun doing things dat seemed so difficult to us. The times that we had lunch together, movie outings, shoppings, working late at nights together, waiting for each other....
Although things are so different now, four of us had spilted so much, changed as much, but, we have to live life like tomorrow is just another new day, happy oso got to pass, unhappy oso got to pass.
I will do my part, my job with responsibility, other jobs are no my concern.
Mr Chong gave me a good advice, "What others say about you is not important, what you think about what they say about you is"...
After this mth, this current job is going to top my other jobs, in the jobs dat I had stayed on the longest. He advised me, to stay on as long as I can, at least 2 yrs. I will try my best. :)
He tell me a verse from the Bible " But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."
isiah 40:31
He advised, the LOrd can be something you believe in or it can even be yourself. Most importantly, if you have believe/trust in yourself or something, you will definitely suceed.
Thanks, he is really a well learned person. :) I m a happier person now.
You are right. I can no longer think back, hoping things in the club to be back to before november. Since May to Nov 2007, it has been my happiest time there. The department was so close, everyone is happy with our own jobs and fun doing things dat seemed so difficult to us. The times that we had lunch together, movie outings, shoppings, working late at nights together, waiting for each other....
Although things are so different now, four of us had spilted so much, changed as much, but, we have to live life like tomorrow is just another new day, happy oso got to pass, unhappy oso got to pass.
I will do my part, my job with responsibility, other jobs are no my concern.
Mr Chong gave me a good advice, "What others say about you is not important, what you think about what they say about you is"...
After this mth, this current job is going to top my other jobs, in the jobs dat I had stayed on the longest. He advised me, to stay on as long as I can, at least 2 yrs. I will try my best. :)
He tell me a verse from the Bible " But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."
isiah 40:31
He advised, the LOrd can be something you believe in or it can even be yourself. Most importantly, if you have believe/trust in yourself or something, you will definitely suceed.
Thanks, he is really a well learned person. :) I m a happier person now.
I just misses him... He haven been calling me for the past few days, becoz he is out for field camp. I cant wait for saturday to arrive...
Off tml, I will rest very well, to build up my energy for Sat n sunday...
My weight has been going up. But at night, i eat as little as just vegetables. Maybe its the lack of exercise. But Jamie n I always do our practices at least 10 mins a day. Duno y as well...
I miss going overseas with you. I hope to leave to further places the next time round. Saving up now, to go Japan with u.
Off tml, I will rest very well, to build up my energy for Sat n sunday...
My weight has been going up. But at night, i eat as little as just vegetables. Maybe its the lack of exercise. But Jamie n I always do our practices at least 10 mins a day. Duno y as well...
I miss going overseas with you. I hope to leave to further places the next time round. Saving up now, to go Japan with u.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
My dance class had been damn fun. Hai, too bad last week I cant attend. :(
Specially for Alvin:
I know how you are feeling right now, from the lack of slp, energy driaing trainings. I understand that you wanted to meet me as much as you can, and you want me by your side. I will try to do so as far as I can.
The timing between us, has always been unbalanced. When you truly madly love me, I m making you sad. When I love you so much, you hurt my feelings badly.
This time, when i promised you in sept 2007, that I will walk on with u in these 2 years, I will, no matter how difficult things has been between us.
You must jia you, and try your best. Dun nid to worry about me, i will be fine.You have my support, gambatte!
Take care dear, and smile always. :) Loves....
Specially for Alvin:
I know how you are feeling right now, from the lack of slp, energy driaing trainings. I understand that you wanted to meet me as much as you can, and you want me by your side. I will try to do so as far as I can.
The timing between us, has always been unbalanced. When you truly madly love me, I m making you sad. When I love you so much, you hurt my feelings badly.
This time, when i promised you in sept 2007, that I will walk on with u in these 2 years, I will, no matter how difficult things has been between us.
You must jia you, and try your best. Dun nid to worry about me, i will be fine.You have my support, gambatte!
Take care dear, and smile always. :) Loves....
Monday, January 21, 2008
Annie's wedding
Ytd, 20th Jan, is my pretty cousin Annie and her husband Jian Fann wedding dinner. Initially, I had told Annie that I will be attending, yet my daddy told her we wont be going. Eventually, we still went, coz Annie taught me A Maths before, and she is such a nice lady, the best cousin that I had.
The first time, I see everyone reporting to a wedding dinner, we occupied like 8 tables woah.Was seating with parents, then as my aunts they want to have an adult sitting area, sis and I changed to sit with my little cousins.
For the whole night, those aunts came to ask me, if I have bf, when is my turn.... Den daddy says he wans to be grandfather.. idiot la, just becoz you see my aunt got a grandson?
Before the wedding dinner ytd night at Bukit Batok, I went to bf's hse ard 11am. Sit a while, den his dad says to go to pasir ris funfair to support bf's godma. Thereafter we came back, and nap for a while, before going for foot massage with bf, his mum and his bro. Using his mum's package, when asked what is our relationship with her, his mum says, 2 sons, den erm... 1/2 daughter. Hahaz. Nice to get recognised, but stressing also.
Wherelse can I get a bf, who help me put on the strap for my dress. Thanks dear. It is really a blessing to have you, who supports me in most areas. Good news for u dear, ytd night dinner, daddy asked y u dint come? Hahaz. So are u ready to see the family?
For my work wise, for now onwards, I will just do my own part, which is social events. Corporate I will only do when there is inbounce calls from my desk or from the manager. Other den dat, i feel, its not my problem. I will not bring work home, and will only do within my work timing, 9 to 6, unless of big events. Although my working pace is rather fast, unless necessary, other things not my problem I will not be bothered, my attitude will be, do my own part, the rest, its your own problem.
Ok, off to go for a sian day of work. Haiz....
The first time, I see everyone reporting to a wedding dinner, we occupied like 8 tables woah.Was seating with parents, then as my aunts they want to have an adult sitting area, sis and I changed to sit with my little cousins.
For the whole night, those aunts came to ask me, if I have bf, when is my turn.... Den daddy says he wans to be grandfather.. idiot la, just becoz you see my aunt got a grandson?
Before the wedding dinner ytd night at Bukit Batok, I went to bf's hse ard 11am. Sit a while, den his dad says to go to pasir ris funfair to support bf's godma. Thereafter we came back, and nap for a while, before going for foot massage with bf, his mum and his bro. Using his mum's package, when asked what is our relationship with her, his mum says, 2 sons, den erm... 1/2 daughter. Hahaz. Nice to get recognised, but stressing also.
Wherelse can I get a bf, who help me put on the strap for my dress. Thanks dear. It is really a blessing to have you, who supports me in most areas. Good news for u dear, ytd night dinner, daddy asked y u dint come? Hahaz. So are u ready to see the family?
For my work wise, for now onwards, I will just do my own part, which is social events. Corporate I will only do when there is inbounce calls from my desk or from the manager. Other den dat, i feel, its not my problem. I will not bring work home, and will only do within my work timing, 9 to 6, unless of big events. Although my working pace is rather fast, unless necessary, other things not my problem I will not be bothered, my attitude will be, do my own part, the rest, its your own problem.
Ok, off to go for a sian day of work. Haiz....
Friday, January 18, 2008
Mr Bf just booked out, but i m blogging from home le.... Finally, its friday today, the first time I am home straight from work. Damn tired, and tml is a long long day.
My hse is having world war now. Alamak. Tml is adeline's bdae, 21st. happy birthday, young lady, hope you will have lotsa babies soon.
I cant see my boy till sunday. We have plans to go Mandai Zoo. Dont ask me y, or question if we had childhood. Maybe its due to shopping is getting boring for us, and we want to do something just between us.
:) I hope to leave earlier tml... Cross fingers, or maybe not.
My hse is having world war now. Alamak. Tml is adeline's bdae, 21st. happy birthday, young lady, hope you will have lotsa babies soon.
I cant see my boy till sunday. We have plans to go Mandai Zoo. Dont ask me y, or question if we had childhood. Maybe its due to shopping is getting boring for us, and we want to do something just between us.
:) I hope to leave earlier tml... Cross fingers, or maybe not.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Happy 19th Birthday my dearest sister.... And happy advance bdae to mummy...
Ok, start of my rants... I have been coughing like mad... Seriously bad. i felt weak and all... But, due to my work nature, i got to go work as per normal with those viruses. i have never request for special cases, not even one, coz i will feel gulity abt it.
This week, though I had been sick, i still report to work, working OT. Yet, when i need to go for my dance class, it was rejected. nevermind. But, today, its my sister's bdae. i know saturday i might not be able to get off or go off early, so I only ask for today, for just normal office hours. isit so difficult?
Yes, my bf only comes out during the weekends, so i dun nid so much outside time during the weekdays. But since my weekends had been reserved for my bf, which means weekdays are for my family, friends and myself, not just work ok!
I m seriously pissed. Whats wrong sia. The colleague in Sembawang is here. I stay oso no point, coz i cant help, esp when i m coughing like mad. The other colleague can go off to meet his gf, y i cant celeb my sis bdae for her?
My colleagues can attend their classes, go for things they want to do, yet i cant. What logic is this? Why is it whenever I ask for something, it is always rejected? Becoz of my position? Ya right, both of them are higher ranks den them, arent they suppose to be more busy and work longer hrs den me? Jamie has always asked me, y another person can get what he request, yet I always cant. I had always been brushing her off, coz i put up with it, but now, i wont anymore.
I seriously dun understand la. Adel, my frenz, my family, my bf has been telling me, Eileen, wake up your idea, not worth it...
I thought, I am happy here. But this week, my sickness is not understood, my problems are not being heard, everything seemed so useless, dat i feel like slapping those who irritate me.
This is getting ridiculous... NB.... Cant blame me when i am returning to the attitude i used to have in secondary school. My temper has already gotten better ok...
What make me more angry is, some people can borrow things from me, when i tell her get it herself, i meant that she has to return after use. When i need the item badly, i got to walk ard the club to look for it, with my poor health. Yet, I was directed to the wrong place, until I called her, and she ask another person to pass to me. Like, WTH! So what if u are married, u can ask ur husband to come n talk to me, like i scared of u. Big F**K!
Darling, i dun mean to be harsh here.
Hai, I just want to have a simple n peaceful life. Y i cant get peace?
Yes, dear, i know when you see this, you will want to pacify me again...
Abt u, I was damn sad when you told me abt you considering to breakup, just becoz of the ns. Like, y? In Sept 07, u told me, u want me to walk on with u, coz i nvr know how it will be if i nvr try. The thing is, I know. You had known me for almost 3 yrs, u shld know, I have the ability to see the future, or maybe predict, which 90% are accurate. Dats y i know u will, but i trusted u then, to love u all over again. Now, u tell me this, making me unsure of whats going on. I m lost, u tell me how?
Ok, start of my rants... I have been coughing like mad... Seriously bad. i felt weak and all... But, due to my work nature, i got to go work as per normal with those viruses. i have never request for special cases, not even one, coz i will feel gulity abt it.
This week, though I had been sick, i still report to work, working OT. Yet, when i need to go for my dance class, it was rejected. nevermind. But, today, its my sister's bdae. i know saturday i might not be able to get off or go off early, so I only ask for today, for just normal office hours. isit so difficult?
Yes, my bf only comes out during the weekends, so i dun nid so much outside time during the weekdays. But since my weekends had been reserved for my bf, which means weekdays are for my family, friends and myself, not just work ok!
I m seriously pissed. Whats wrong sia. The colleague in Sembawang is here. I stay oso no point, coz i cant help, esp when i m coughing like mad. The other colleague can go off to meet his gf, y i cant celeb my sis bdae for her?
My colleagues can attend their classes, go for things they want to do, yet i cant. What logic is this? Why is it whenever I ask for something, it is always rejected? Becoz of my position? Ya right, both of them are higher ranks den them, arent they suppose to be more busy and work longer hrs den me? Jamie has always asked me, y another person can get what he request, yet I always cant. I had always been brushing her off, coz i put up with it, but now, i wont anymore.
I seriously dun understand la. Adel, my frenz, my family, my bf has been telling me, Eileen, wake up your idea, not worth it...
I thought, I am happy here. But this week, my sickness is not understood, my problems are not being heard, everything seemed so useless, dat i feel like slapping those who irritate me.
This is getting ridiculous... NB.... Cant blame me when i am returning to the attitude i used to have in secondary school. My temper has already gotten better ok...
What make me more angry is, some people can borrow things from me, when i tell her get it herself, i meant that she has to return after use. When i need the item badly, i got to walk ard the club to look for it, with my poor health. Yet, I was directed to the wrong place, until I called her, and she ask another person to pass to me. Like, WTH! So what if u are married, u can ask ur husband to come n talk to me, like i scared of u. Big F**K!
Darling, i dun mean to be harsh here.
Hai, I just want to have a simple n peaceful life. Y i cant get peace?
Yes, dear, i know when you see this, you will want to pacify me again...
Abt u, I was damn sad when you told me abt you considering to breakup, just becoz of the ns. Like, y? In Sept 07, u told me, u want me to walk on with u, coz i nvr know how it will be if i nvr try. The thing is, I know. You had known me for almost 3 yrs, u shld know, I have the ability to see the future, or maybe predict, which 90% are accurate. Dats y i know u will, but i trusted u then, to love u all over again. Now, u tell me this, making me unsure of whats going on. I m lost, u tell me how?
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Truly Madly in Love...
13th Jan, Justin's last day in the club. This gentleman, is a damn bully la... Don asked me to contact him ytd, regarding a social event. I asked to meet him outside, he says he going back changi today. Alamak, of all days, the day dat i m not ard. Good la... He says, i can call him, but not after 1800 hrs, coz he will charge me at his consultation rate after dat. idiot.
Slpt late ytd, den wake ard 7 plus go the boy's hse, only to find all of his family members at home, except him. When I was waiting for bus 74 to go his hse, there is this girl, who was standing at the bus stop, i walked past her, and she gave me a freaking stupid attitude and face, which i felt like giving her a slap right in her face sia...
haha, i realise, his slowness is inherited from his mum... Wahaha. His dad asked me to help him to put the thread in the needle, coz he cant see.
We were discussing out the boy's 21st party, i suggest NSRCC, den eventually, we are considering SAFYC liaoz... Duno la. He machiam bo chup de...
He reached home ard 9am, den we slp till 2 plus, wake up for the nice lunch his mum bought, den went back slp till 5.30pm... Den its time for him to book in. I sent him to JP, and we had sushi again. The rain was damn so big today, so we cabbed there. Well, i dint spent money today, except for the vitamin C today.
He is a very sweet boy today. I snugger up to him while slping. When we are at JP, he ask me, I want to buy flowers for u. I was like, for what reason? He says, coz u are extremely sexy and pretty today. Maybe due to the weightloss and my ultra short shorts today la... He just made me xin hua nu fang, truly madly in love....
With the whole day of slp... now i m too energetic to slp now... gd sia...
Slpt late ytd, den wake ard 7 plus go the boy's hse, only to find all of his family members at home, except him. When I was waiting for bus 74 to go his hse, there is this girl, who was standing at the bus stop, i walked past her, and she gave me a freaking stupid attitude and face, which i felt like giving her a slap right in her face sia...
haha, i realise, his slowness is inherited from his mum... Wahaha. His dad asked me to help him to put the thread in the needle, coz he cant see.
We were discussing out the boy's 21st party, i suggest NSRCC, den eventually, we are considering SAFYC liaoz... Duno la. He machiam bo chup de...
He reached home ard 9am, den we slp till 2 plus, wake up for the nice lunch his mum bought, den went back slp till 5.30pm... Den its time for him to book in. I sent him to JP, and we had sushi again. The rain was damn so big today, so we cabbed there. Well, i dint spent money today, except for the vitamin C today.
He is a very sweet boy today. I snugger up to him while slping. When we are at JP, he ask me, I want to buy flowers for u. I was like, for what reason? He says, coz u are extremely sexy and pretty today. Maybe due to the weightloss and my ultra short shorts today la... He just made me xin hua nu fang, truly madly in love....
With the whole day of slp... now i m too energetic to slp now... gd sia...
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Retail Thearpy works big time! Ok, i spent alot ytd. Was out shopping in town after driving (u-turn class) with my dearest little girl, Adel. Junie came to join us after dat. These gers just came back from Bangkok, each spending $1k sing there. Wow...
I should have gone there instead of KL la, but oso, i wasnt able to leave for so long den.... Haiz...
I cut my hair at far east, $36, cheaper den kimage... I think the stylist is good, and i trust him to deal with my hair:) I bought a URS shoes. I must be mad, thinking boy's dad manufacture URS shoes de... hahaz, maybe i just like to get served in the retail shops?
Great time spent shopping. I bought a tank top for just $5, dats damn cheap ok. Being with dem, i realise, its time for me to take care of my skin, coz i m really aging so damn fast. Heeren is selling those items dat we can buy from sprees, but thats gd also, no waiting time, and people to service.
Argh, 15th i cant go for my class... :( sad la... Its so fun and enriching.
Bf will be doing guard duty tonight, so, i can only accompany him tml. We had planned to slack at his hse tml... Heez.... We are slackers alright.
Had been looking out for new year clothes, but nth interest me... Haiz...
New year coming again, and he is going to pop the same qn again. haiz... Sometimes, i hope u can understand me. Its really a bliss to have you, but, sometimes when u say, makes me feel, i am very tired... Dont know..
I should have gone there instead of KL la, but oso, i wasnt able to leave for so long den.... Haiz...
I cut my hair at far east, $36, cheaper den kimage... I think the stylist is good, and i trust him to deal with my hair:) I bought a URS shoes. I must be mad, thinking boy's dad manufacture URS shoes de... hahaz, maybe i just like to get served in the retail shops?
Great time spent shopping. I bought a tank top for just $5, dats damn cheap ok. Being with dem, i realise, its time for me to take care of my skin, coz i m really aging so damn fast. Heeren is selling those items dat we can buy from sprees, but thats gd also, no waiting time, and people to service.
Argh, 15th i cant go for my class... :( sad la... Its so fun and enriching.
Bf will be doing guard duty tonight, so, i can only accompany him tml. We had planned to slack at his hse tml... Heez.... We are slackers alright.
Had been looking out for new year clothes, but nth interest me... Haiz...
New year coming again, and he is going to pop the same qn again. haiz... Sometimes, i hope u can understand me. Its really a bliss to have you, but, sometimes when u say, makes me feel, i am very tired... Dont know..
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Miss you dear... I feel so weak. Wake up this morning, took an early bus to work, yet i m still late, have to resort to taking a cab in sia. Alamak! Thanks to dat accident that caused the jam up to an hour.
I am having flu, cough, slight fever, headache, period cramps now... Crossing my fingures that i wun faint tml. tml is my driving class again, after 1 month of rest.
Ended work earlier today, coz wasnt feeling well. Went to Singpost to renew my Provisional License. My nose is crying sooo badly... Argh.
Hai 15th i got to work late, but i got class lehx... What to do sia. Maybe shall skip one class, but i scared i cant catch up. How how how?
I sucks in managing my stress lah... I need my listening ear. After speaking with my doctor ytd, the period came today. I m indeed under great stress.
Was speaking to Gracie just now, the gentle nice lady intro this hair stylist to me from "Toni & Guys"... I shall try it soon.
I am having flu, cough, slight fever, headache, period cramps now... Crossing my fingures that i wun faint tml. tml is my driving class again, after 1 month of rest.
Ended work earlier today, coz wasnt feeling well. Went to Singpost to renew my Provisional License. My nose is crying sooo badly... Argh.
Hai 15th i got to work late, but i got class lehx... What to do sia. Maybe shall skip one class, but i scared i cant catch up. How how how?
I sucks in managing my stress lah... I need my listening ear. After speaking with my doctor ytd, the period came today. I m indeed under great stress.
Was speaking to Gracie just now, the gentle nice lady intro this hair stylist to me from "Toni & Guys"... I shall try it soon.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Tired, sick, stressed... I have nvr felt so weak before la...
Took time off today, and went AMK for doctor. My period has not been here, due to hormones problem.
Now the doctor tells me, my stress I am having is too big, mentally and physically. Boy is nice enuf to understand my condition to rest more instead of going Boonlay today for his Nights Out.
I spent $65 on the medicine on flu and cough. Idiot la.... I hope those medication will work.
After work yesterday, Jamie and I meet Chris, and had dinner at Suntec, den we went for our lesson. Fun la, but my muscles are aching like hell. I must really exercise regularly.
Now i m running a fever... Maybe i should go doctor to get medication to relieve my super stress... Headache!
Dear i dun want to work liaoz... I want to enjoy life... So u earn for me ok?
I want to buy my new year clothes, but we have no time to go shopping. I need retail threapy..
Took time off today, and went AMK for doctor. My period has not been here, due to hormones problem.
Now the doctor tells me, my stress I am having is too big, mentally and physically. Boy is nice enuf to understand my condition to rest more instead of going Boonlay today for his Nights Out.
I spent $65 on the medicine on flu and cough. Idiot la.... I hope those medication will work.
After work yesterday, Jamie and I meet Chris, and had dinner at Suntec, den we went for our lesson. Fun la, but my muscles are aching like hell. I must really exercise regularly.
Now i m running a fever... Maybe i should go doctor to get medication to relieve my super stress... Headache!
Dear i dun want to work liaoz... I want to enjoy life... So u earn for me ok?
I want to buy my new year clothes, but we have no time to go shopping. I need retail threapy..
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Mummy is agreeable to my plan. Alright, eileen will complete her driving course by end feb 2008. While waiting for the driving test, I will erol for CFP, this course will be a night class, module 1 to 6, for all 12 to 18 mths...
In the meanwhile, i will keep a look out to UniSim enrollment. Due to that rule of 21 years and above, i got to wait a while more. But its alright, CFP will keep me occupied.
No more lazing ard le. I have woke up. Working doesnt mean giving everything in. Its just part of your daily life, but there are other parts of the daily life, with more interesting and fulfilling things to input. So, I will keep myself occupied with studies, while my boy can be my proud Army Man.
I m proud of him ok! Dear, just want to tell u, you will never know how proud i was of u, when u told me you can do your first pull ups. You told me its my encouragement. But, u did it! Jia you... Will support u in whatever your decision is.
My resolution in year 2008:
- Get my car license
- Study my CFP
- Enrol in Uni by the end of the year
- have a special 21st birthday
In the meanwhile, i will keep a look out to UniSim enrollment. Due to that rule of 21 years and above, i got to wait a while more. But its alright, CFP will keep me occupied.
No more lazing ard le. I have woke up. Working doesnt mean giving everything in. Its just part of your daily life, but there are other parts of the daily life, with more interesting and fulfilling things to input. So, I will keep myself occupied with studies, while my boy can be my proud Army Man.
I m proud of him ok! Dear, just want to tell u, you will never know how proud i was of u, when u told me you can do your first pull ups. You told me its my encouragement. But, u did it! Jia you... Will support u in whatever your decision is.
My resolution in year 2008:
- Get my car license
- Study my CFP
- Enrol in Uni by the end of the year
- have a special 21st birthday
He just booked in... And i m missing him alot alot .... This feeling has nvr been with me for so long.
I had not been very happy. Was at his hse ytd after work, he ignored me, den i felt so sad and cried. He felt so gulity... But i was weeping alot. Coz of work. I felt so much like resigning alrd. Everything is so tiring for me. Mich they all, ade, kaiyan, my parents, everyone is asking me to reconsider my work since the start. I stayed, becoz i m happy...
These few days, i felt unbearable stress. Everything is throw to me. :( Having 6 meetings with clients a week is crazy, when on average, the most I only have 2 meetings a month. Of the 6 meetings, 4 of them are not mine. This is damn crazy la. Its like, I duno... i was damn busy, yet the other departments are giving me more stuffs...
I am unhappy.... Darling says, he loves me so much that he will support me to my decision, but he wun support me if I am going to let the matter rest.
Dont know what to do.... He told me, to go back to school , as what his grandmother said... So, i had been looking at CFP and UniSim le... waiting for their reply, and maybe.... lets see.
Went to eat Ichiban with his mum n bro for lunch today. Yummy! I m getting fat by my darling's feedings...
missing....
I had not been very happy. Was at his hse ytd after work, he ignored me, den i felt so sad and cried. He felt so gulity... But i was weeping alot. Coz of work. I felt so much like resigning alrd. Everything is so tiring for me. Mich they all, ade, kaiyan, my parents, everyone is asking me to reconsider my work since the start. I stayed, becoz i m happy...
These few days, i felt unbearable stress. Everything is throw to me. :( Having 6 meetings with clients a week is crazy, when on average, the most I only have 2 meetings a month. Of the 6 meetings, 4 of them are not mine. This is damn crazy la. Its like, I duno... i was damn busy, yet the other departments are giving me more stuffs...
I am unhappy.... Darling says, he loves me so much that he will support me to my decision, but he wun support me if I am going to let the matter rest.
Dont know what to do.... He told me, to go back to school , as what his grandmother said... So, i had been looking at CFP and UniSim le... waiting for their reply, and maybe.... lets see.
Went to eat Ichiban with his mum n bro for lunch today. Yummy! I m getting fat by my darling's feedings...
missing....
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Yeah! I m not the only one who is drunk ytd.....Clara was drunk too! Hahaz...
After his soccer, he came to fetch me. So coincidentally, he stopped behind my dad's lorry, and my siblings and mum just alighted. So he kinda "meet" my family today. the boy so smiling the whole afternoon sia...
boy just booked in... Miss u. I finally got back the feeling. Hope it can last.
We went to have ichiban sushi. Nice food. Darling ate sooo much. This is our one and only meal for the day.
After his soccer, he came to fetch me. So coincidentally, he stopped behind my dad's lorry, and my siblings and mum just alighted. So he kinda "meet" my family today. the boy so smiling the whole afternoon sia...
boy just booked in... Miss u. I finally got back the feeling. Hope it can last.
We went to have ichiban sushi. Nice food. Darling ate sooo much. This is our one and only meal for the day.
Drunk!
Darling was given a long weekend off, plus he got the car, so he sent me everywhere i want to go. Thanks.
Ytd, for the first time, I got to work during a New Year. Gosh, and somemore, its like 9am to 1am, on 31st Dec. Very gladful, that everyone enjoyed, and this is a very successful event. Great to see the members and boaters being so happy, joining us in our elephant dance. The staffs, like ping, jamie, me, Sim, clara, rose, huz, went on stage for a short dance. I had great fun that night.
Everyone was anticipating on Cheeyang's gf arrival. Hahaz. She is damn cute. Everyone is damn funny, once they arrive, we siam. Hahaz, the rest of the staffs who saw us doing that, asked y we so auto. hahaz, pple lovely dovy mah, oso must understand, they live so far apart, its not easy to spend time together.
I was the bunny girl for the whole night. Haiz. Damn upset abt it. But nvm, its in 2007. I m in 2008. Shld forgive them.
Boy refuses to join me at the party. He says he is an unsociable person, shy etc... hahaz. I was missing him damn dearly the whole nights, hoping he will come. But he went to his cousin hse and meeting Pamela and Tian Chai. Haiz....... I was damn unhappy and sad for the whole night hor dear.
After the Party, while waiting for Mr Kok, and clara was waiting for Jackson, we had a drink with huz, aza and don. Hahaz. Don idea of making clara and myself to bottoms up. I won. but due to drinking with an empty stomach and some gastric, and my unhappines, my head starts spinning in no time. By the time Alvin arrives in 1/2 hr later, and I m 1/4 drunk.
Its the first time in my life that I was drunk. We even went to Bedok for supper. Vin called a roti John for me, but after drinking his teh tarik, i vomited. So, i ended up having a small piece of the food, and 1/2 glass of lime. Feeling damn awful, and the guys were laughing at me for my drunking look. :(
Darling got to hold me when I walk. Usually, when i drink, the most I will get tipsy. Its the first time i got to the extent of vomit. Haiz......Went to his hse after dat for the night. I have no idea what he did la, coz i was so drunk. Once i stepped into the hse, i go to the bedroom and knock out. Reached there ard 4am le. Middle of the slp, i wanted to go toliet, i was staggering and knocking into things, with the sevre headache.
Woke up at 7 plus, we rot till 9am on the bed. Den the boy sent me home while he go for soccer with his bro and the bro friends.
Meeting him later.... tata.
Ytd, for the first time, I got to work during a New Year. Gosh, and somemore, its like 9am to 1am, on 31st Dec. Very gladful, that everyone enjoyed, and this is a very successful event. Great to see the members and boaters being so happy, joining us in our elephant dance. The staffs, like ping, jamie, me, Sim, clara, rose, huz, went on stage for a short dance. I had great fun that night.
Everyone was anticipating on Cheeyang's gf arrival. Hahaz. She is damn cute. Everyone is damn funny, once they arrive, we siam. Hahaz, the rest of the staffs who saw us doing that, asked y we so auto. hahaz, pple lovely dovy mah, oso must understand, they live so far apart, its not easy to spend time together.
I was the bunny girl for the whole night. Haiz. Damn upset abt it. But nvm, its in 2007. I m in 2008. Shld forgive them.
Boy refuses to join me at the party. He says he is an unsociable person, shy etc... hahaz. I was missing him damn dearly the whole nights, hoping he will come. But he went to his cousin hse and meeting Pamela and Tian Chai. Haiz....... I was damn unhappy and sad for the whole night hor dear.
After the Party, while waiting for Mr Kok, and clara was waiting for Jackson, we had a drink with huz, aza and don. Hahaz. Don idea of making clara and myself to bottoms up. I won. but due to drinking with an empty stomach and some gastric, and my unhappines, my head starts spinning in no time. By the time Alvin arrives in 1/2 hr later, and I m 1/4 drunk.
Its the first time in my life that I was drunk. We even went to Bedok for supper. Vin called a roti John for me, but after drinking his teh tarik, i vomited. So, i ended up having a small piece of the food, and 1/2 glass of lime. Feeling damn awful, and the guys were laughing at me for my drunking look. :(
Darling got to hold me when I walk. Usually, when i drink, the most I will get tipsy. Its the first time i got to the extent of vomit. Haiz......Went to his hse after dat for the night. I have no idea what he did la, coz i was so drunk. Once i stepped into the hse, i go to the bedroom and knock out. Reached there ard 4am le. Middle of the slp, i wanted to go toliet, i was staggering and knocking into things, with the sevre headache.
Woke up at 7 plus, we rot till 9am on the bed. Den the boy sent me home while he go for soccer with his bro and the bro friends.
Meeting him later.... tata.
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