Happy 19th Birthday my dearest sister.... And happy advance bdae to mummy...

Ok, start of my rants... I have been coughing like mad... Seriously bad. i felt weak and all... But, due to my work nature, i got to go work as per normal with those viruses. i have never request for special cases, not even one, coz i will feel gulity abt it.

This week, though I had been sick, i still report to work, working OT. Yet, when i need to go for my dance class, it was rejected. nevermind. But, today, its my sister's bdae. i know saturday i might not be able to get off or go off early, so I only ask for today, for just normal office hours. isit so difficult?

Yes, my bf only comes out during the weekends, so i dun nid so much outside time during the weekdays. But since my weekends had been reserved for my bf, which means weekdays are for my family, friends and myself, not just work ok!

I m seriously pissed. Whats wrong sia. The colleague in Sembawang is here. I stay oso no point, coz i cant help, esp when i m coughing like mad. The other colleague can go off to meet his gf, y i cant celeb my sis bdae for her?

My colleagues can attend their classes, go for things they want to do, yet i cant. What logic is this? Why is it whenever I ask for something, it is always rejected? Becoz of my position? Ya right, both of them are higher ranks den them, arent they suppose to be more busy and work longer hrs den me? Jamie has always asked me, y another person can get what he request, yet I always cant. I had always been brushing her off, coz i put up with it, but now, i wont anymore.

I seriously dun understand la. Adel, my frenz, my family, my bf has been telling me, Eileen, wake up your idea, not worth it...

I thought, I am happy here. But this week, my sickness is not understood, my problems are not being heard, everything seemed so useless, dat i feel like slapping those who irritate me.

This is getting ridiculous... NB.... Cant blame me when i am returning to the attitude i used to have in secondary school. My temper has already gotten better ok...

What make me more angry is, some people can borrow things from me, when i tell her get it herself, i meant that she has to return after use. When i need the item badly, i got to walk ard the club to look for it, with my poor health. Yet, I was directed to the wrong place, until I called her, and she ask another person to pass to me. Like, WTH! So what if u are married, u can ask ur husband to come n talk to me, like i scared of u. Big F**K!

Darling, i dun mean to be harsh here.

Hai, I just want to have a simple n peaceful life. Y i cant get peace?

Yes, dear, i know when you see this, you will want to pacify me again...

Abt u, I was damn sad when you told me abt you considering to breakup, just becoz of the ns. Like, y? In Sept 07, u told me, u want me to walk on with u, coz i nvr know how it will be if i nvr try. The thing is, I know. You had known me for almost 3 yrs, u shld know, I have the ability to see the future, or maybe predict, which 90% are accurate. Dats y i know u will, but i trusted u then, to love u all over again. Now, u tell me this, making me unsure of whats going on. I m lost, u tell me how?