I m a lucky ger, to have the company of wh, ken n vin, to watch transformers with me. I would rate it 4.5/5, given that i cant understand the ending. haha, nice 2.3 hr show, much better den king kong.

Watched the 9pm show, reached home ard 12pm. Thanx baby, for sending me home. Sweetheart, i love u. I know, u know, I m drifting apart. But i m giving both of us a chance, for us to work out better.

I rmbed the days, when i go to henderson park to find u, i will sacrifice everything for u, coz u r my everything. Today, u r still my everything, coz u make my world goes ard.

Like u say, u will love me no matter what. Unless there is someone who loves me like u do, if not u will nvr let me go.

Off day tml, shall skip tml morning, den study for my test, 3pm test, den slack till 8pm, den go for practical. I need the perseverance, and courage to drive the car again. I wan to go backpack tour, so i need my licence.

God bless, to grant me the courage, and perseverance, the energy and the patience, to do well in my test and the practical lesson tml.

Work update: Was slacking for the past 2 days, coz don was not ard, and its JULY, yes, july has only 6, so not much set up to do. I m loving it though. Hahaz. Cant imagine the days, to how i m gg to cope, without the pillars of the dept, when they leave me to go overseas. Nvm, i shall put myself though, to be a better person.

I shall slp earlier....

We broke up on 26th June, and patch back on 30th June. I love u. But so what, i feel our thinking are so different. My colleagues are saying, we get to interact wif more pple. I do agree that love makes things revolves ard our world. But, ever since i stepped into this society, though i love to be in love with u, and i know no one will love me like u do, however, we just have communication problem.

I just feel, i shld give both of us another chance, to work things out peacefully. This might be our last chance, for us to know, if we are really suitable. U r a great guy, the love of my life. I hope we can improve our communication problem.

Thx to my colleagues who had been wif me and accompanying me. I m glad some of u show concerns to me. I want to work harder, to do my best. :)

I love u, i really do. But since u want a break, I have to accept, dragging on might just make us more sad. I feel very upset, but wat to do?

Went to bedok wif don, huzaini and CY on sat, talked till 1am den Huzaini n CY send me home.

Just now went Isetan wif jamie to buy stuffs.

I hope we still can continue.

Thx baby, for pei me, going dinner wif my colleagues ytd.

Went to watch fantastic four today, wif don, cheeyang, clara. Sat between clara n cheeyang, they say go century watch, coz the seats are bigger, true, my first trip there.

Went to sea sports centre for the first time today, coz cheeyang borrowed car from Mr Don. hahaz. I hope to get my driving done soon. Hope can reschedlue everything soon.

I am happy wif my job so far. Learnt to be more responsible le. Baby's mum say i slimmed down alot. Dats great! Hahaz.

To Alvin

I will never know, if i will be able to find another person like u, showering me everything u have, although u have nth.

I rmb how i met u, in that bbq we had in east coast park.

I rmb the days, that we were not officially together, I go to ur hse to study wif u.

I rmb the day, of which u asked me to be ur girl.

I rmb the day, dat we break a week after officially together.

I rmb my 18th bdae, when u used all ur pay to buy me the phone i desired.

I rmb the days, that we go shopping, u gave me the encouragement to try new clothes.

I rmb the days, after my corn operation, the day dat u piggie back me across the overhead bridge of the poly at 6am in the morning on the first day of our exams. The days dat u walked with me slowly in school when i took 30 mins instead of the usual 10 mins.

I rmb the days, that I go to your hse in the wee hrs of 4am, to study wif u. The nice cup of coffee plus milo u make, studying econs and accts wif u, while u guide me to ensure i pass my modules.

I rmb the days, dat i go to bukit merah, to eat ur meals wif u during ur attachment.

I rmb the days, dat we go rehearsal together.

I rmb the days, i cried in ur shoulders.

I rmb the days, u cooked scallop porridge for me. The fried rice you cooked for 4 hrs.

I rmb the days, that we cook baked rice together.

I rmb how i cried, when i first know u have to go china trip.

I rmb how many times we quarrelled, how many times we laughed like mad.

I m glad i have u in my life. No matter wat happens in future, these are the memories we have together, something no one can take away from us.

I love u.

Today is an exciting day. Went to work, pack the store wif my colleague, we dint go for ops meeting. Den we saw the work tornado, and 3 of them. Hahaz.

Den went RSN to buy food, tried their fish noodle.

After dat, there was such a serious accident outside the work place, dat our off work was delayed from 6 to 8pm, reached home at 9 instead.

Happy day.

Although poor me still got to go rehearsal during my off day, but got my super 'nice' costume. Hahaz, guess it will be a good reason for me to go on extreme diet, if not i will nvr fit in to it.

Dear, thx. I am happy with my loot, 2 bras from la senza, 1 dress and 1 top, 6 pairs of socks and 1 jelly pump. Hahaz. Spent ard $100+ lor. We had yuki yaki at marina, yummy, i shall try the ice cream next time. Muz!

Baby helped me to carry my loots the whole day, xin ku le. Muackx.

Tml gg work again. I am so tired. :( nite nite

Happy Birthday to Chee Yang... I know he is sick of me always asking him the same qn, " is there anything for me to do?"

hahaz. Today lunch, went to changi village wif GM, jamie, Huzani and chee yang, den dinner we have don to join us as well at Bedok. Hahaz. Lunch was treated by Mr Sim, Dinner was treated by Chee yang, coz he claimed he passed his ippt wif $200.

I feel so bad today, caused so much trouble for Mr Don, abt Leonard's case and Stefanie's case. I hope i can do well. :( Stressed.

Jamie is a fun lady. hahaz. I kinda miss her when she took her 2 days of off.

I was very shocked, Chee yang can actually see thru wat i thinking, mayb he studies psychology

Ytd baby and i said our part, i cried for 2 hrs. I told him the reasons le, and we giving each other 3 more mths, starting on 6th june 2007. thx for understanding. Muackx.

Saturday my off day, i hope ndp will ends earlier....

The 40th Anniversary celebration was a success, all the preparations, staying up and working for 22 hrs non stop, was filled with fun. Jamie, Chee Yang and i slpt at the same room on 2nd june, hahaz, i kicked jamie's butt...

I slpt only 2 hrs dat day, b4 working again. I have been cancelling my driving classes, coz i m really too tired to go lehz.

He is in indonesia. He gave me his blog, of which, i read le, i noe he wans to tell me wat he is thinking, and how much gers he had let down, and he wun let me down. I appreciated it, thx. However, there are sth more to it.

Talked to kris and kaiyan, and mich, they told me, i shld give him up for a while, to see if we realli suits or not. I duno. I will wait for him to come back, den we shall sit down n talk.

I duno y, the feeling is not there.

Chee Yang and i worked today only, don is off, jamie too. Tml only me n jamie working, gosh, i pray tml dun hae much calls, if not i sure go bersak.

I lose 5kg in 3 weeks.

Dear, i need to feel the security from u, coz i still cant feel it, after almost 2 yrs. Pls prove me wrong.

I enjoyed my work.

Dear, happy 22nd mth. I have been very happy these mths, becoz of u.

My boy is jealous today, Dear dint like the idea of me gg overseas without him. Actually, if july, i would go overseas wif boy, coz our 2nd anniversary. I like backpack tour, but mayb its not appropriate to do so la.

Boy n I talked at TM today, abt our future. 2 years is not easy. I just started work for 2 weeks, and both weekends, i either complained i m having headache or very sick. I feel tired, coz the energy spent. I got sunburnt today.

It is such a relief to see, the decorations made by me, being sent to the breakwater, for the couples. The weather is nice.

Oh ya, I saw dat tornado ytd. We saw it at the cafe, nice view. Boss oso say his first time to see such a big one.

I hate it when u leave me.

I hate it when pple change their numbers without telling me, even though we were ex bf-gf or even normal frenz.

I get scared during my first driving lesson on tues. Although he was there to watch me.

I bought focus dailies contact lens. Supposedly to be $37/ box, i bought 2 boxes, and i get to buy at $58++. Hahaz, cheap, 50% discount, coz i told dem my previous job.

I m seriously lacking slp. I need more rest. My arms aches from all the moving of chairs, esp tml st enginnering coming. I hope i can do well in tml's driving.

Tata... slping time.

Thx baby. U make me a princess ytd. U say i am very soft spoken ytd, coz i was having headache. Hahaz...

Talking abt headache, i got it thru a wedding preparations on sat. Despite all our hard work, the rain decides to pour on the ceremony, ruin the first wedding i do. Although i saw the initial happy faces, i was glad i dint stay back and see the disappointed faces.

Baby bought a psp ytd, a black one. I shall buy one if i feel its better den nintendo. He hugs me and wishper to me. Love the nice feeling. However, i noe the feeling wun last de, coz u r leaving me again, to indonesia. :( Sadden.

Lucky i m preoccupied by my work, events and stuffs, and my driving sessions at night.

Ytd show. Ju shi hao B is nice, i was so tempted to have a kid too. Haha, but i know its just my temporary urge la.

I am looking forward to August, where everything will be over, and baby will be mine for a full mth, b4 he goes in to NS. Although he got his own money now, but i m not happy. Haiz, mayb dats wat pple meant by, the rich might not be happy, the poor might not be sad.

Mich's bdae coming soon. Argh, i nid to get my $1800 soon. God bless, dat i will not be shaken by the Great Singapore Sale. I wan to return the money by July. I want to get confirmed by my present company. I love working wif the colleagues. Today the whole management team leave on time, wahaha. Not becoz we have nth to do, but we need a rest. :)

Hope tml's driving lesson will be a success.

today is the 17th of may, my parents 21st anniversary.

It has been 2 days since i see him, tml i shall get my chance le.

I had been having fun. Well, my conclusion is i like to work wif guys. I noe baby is not happy if i am gg to tell him, but dats true. When i worked in my first n previous company, the management of females realy make the environment realli sux. But currently, i feel, thx to chee yang and don.

I love my job now, today starting to do set ups alrd. Love it. I hope i can do my best in it.

I cant wait to see u dear, muackies

I love u. Although u make me damn unhappy ytd... Sori i dint go for the course today, coz i was realli tired.

I have started work. I love the place, the scenery, the fun. Its so much different from my previous jobs. I hope i can do better. Don n chee yang are nice pple. :)

Thx baby, i hope u can be more understanding.

Special day

I bet baby is the happiest person ytd...

Ytd is mother's day. It has been ages since the whole family go out to eat, dad's first time to amk hub, had dinner at jubillie, we watched "spiderman 3" together. It has been so many years...

Den over the dinner, brother told mum n dad abt him having a gf, den i oso tell dem i got bf... After almost 2 years. Haha.

I love u pple.

Finally he is back... i had missed u utterly. I went to buget terminal, and figure out how to get there...

Baby is so happy to know mac launched his favourite double fish burger again. Hahaz. So we caught a bite there.

B4 dat i went to sch to repair my laptop. Well, my laptop decides to work well once i reached sch. Idiot. But i enjoyed the terriyaki butter rice with cold salad, yummy!

Staying over at his hse today, to pei him, but my dear prince has to go in malaysia now to settle somethings, I hope he comes back peacefully. Love u. I m hungry now, i hope u got telepathy n buy sth back...

Argh, 2 more days to ur return...

Baby, faster reply my email pls... I nid to know which job i should choose. I got so many advices...

Job A i got grace, kaiyan, kris, elaine (GV)...
Job B i got martin, rong, wahman, xinzi, ana...

Mayb those with more life experience, and full of enegery would wan me to take up job B... Coz xinzi, wahman, ana and me are all from marketing... Well, i would like to heed advices from more sincere frenz soon.

I nid to reply dem tml. I hope i make the right decision....

Tml i m gg for theory trial test wif kris, while she attends her driving session. Hahaz.

baby, pls check ur flight details, dun take the wrong flight woah. Muackx, look forward to ur return. Cant wait to spend the weekend wif u.

Oh ya, Mr Yik ('my cute mr yik' according to wahman) sent us an email, i was shocked. I guessed it shocked alot of the ex students too. Well, i m seriously looking forward to this degree course. Although np is not the only polytechnic wif business, but this degree is exclusive. I hope i can get the opportunity soon.

I need help to this qn:
If u have 2 jobs offers, which one will u choose? Job A --> PR job, normal very easy job no challenge, very difficult to travel to, mon to fri job, can pei bf n plenty of private time. Job B --> Events assistant, fun filled job, career advancement chance, easy to travel to, stressful environment, many responsibilities, no time for bf as have to work irregular hours.

2 more days to his return, and i m seriously looking forward to it...

Argh, i m dying for a job soon. I have mother's day, mich's bdae, our 2nd anniversary to save up n paid for. I wan to give baby a surprise, but 26th is on thurs, idiot, mayb discuss wif him see if can take time off.

Went for interviews these 2 days, i hope to get dat PR job, sounds nice. Praying hard.

Been gg interviews with kaiyan. Gg out wif her is cheaper, saves alot.

Considering to go to makeover with her, to keep my youth, but i wan to slim down first.

Counting down to 5 days later....

I finally completed reading thru my final theory book, and done my ib stuffs. Finally! Tml is TTT i hope i can pass, and i can do well, register for more practical lessons n pay for my final theory fee.

I spend $50 a day, always wif the gers, i will spend so much. Baby, arent u suppose to reimburse for me too? Coz while killing time without u, i spent time shopping with the gers. Bought a bright red hp pouch, did pedicure. Went to CP den to AMK den back to CP...

Happy to see pj, mich, kris n elaine. Although meet at different timing, but its happy to see them again.

Baby, faster come back. I m missing u like crazy alrd. My luck hasnt been gd. Ytd went to POC camp, dint stay over. Played dat 'flying fox', my palm kena 3 blisters, of which one burst.

*cross fingers. I hope whatever i do, i will b able to succeed. 5 more days....

It has been 5 days since i last saw u. Being wif u, since 26/7/2005, nvr have i been away from u this long. Ur calls from china, makes me happy, yet sad at the same time.

I m happy, that u have been doing well, learning is part n parcel of life, having a career of ur own.

I guess u muz be happy to hear i have registered for my driving. Daddy just transferred money to my acct, then i shall go to hougang mall lata, to do transferring. Argh, my IB device havnt arrive, if not i can transfer to my maybank acct. Hai...

I m bored to death, damn lazy to go out now. i completed my lesson 3 liaoz, today shall try complete lesson 4, but my freaking lappy sound system spolit le.

Camp starts tml.... 6pm at np canteen 2.

I spend a fortune today, alot alot. $290. I opened a new acct today, did my ibanking for 2 banks. Happy. But the $290 is spent in my driving. Booked for my advanced theory, den 3 sessions of practical lessons, all at night, followed wat my baby had done.

Baby, i miss u alot. I hope u r doing well over there, tc of urself pls. I bought a new organiser, to keep myself organised wif my driving scheldues, i dun wan b like boy boy, always forget to go for his classes.

Mummy accompanied me to do all thse things today. I wanted so much to tell her abt my bf, but she dint understand me. Baobei, i m sorry.

Ytd went out wif elaine n kris, after dat kel came. I see them so happy and xinfu, i feel happy for dem, coz they get to enjoy the times baby n i used to have.

Having a bf who is a GM is not easy, i have much more to put up wif, i muz b strong. I can no longer b dependent on him, b spolit by him or b loved by him as n when i wans. Dats the price to pay. But, i m contented wif wat i have and had.

Love is missing from me, it has followed my baby boy to China. Oh ya, i went for the course i saw my school mate, siying, the ger in my eyar 3 last sem class... Heard her story in the class room.

I went Compass point with mum, den meet elaine. She n kel quarrel, after dat ok le. So envy, at least got chance to quarrel.

Msg primers related pple, to tell dem alvin's matters to contact me, coz baby wun b able to appear so soon. I miss him.

I bought Jolin's music cd, impluse buying. But i also bought a new book, Rich Dad, Poor Dad. I think baby will be very happy to noe i nvr regret buying this book, and i m seriously reading this book now, unstanding the facts, esp after gg thru the money n u course.

Wh n ken is sooo sweet, i realli miss the times lidat. But nvm, my future is lidat le, so get used to it.

i m back from the 3 days course in JB, ' Money and U'. I am missing u like crazy now....

This is crazy, writing chinese words for 3 days, slping less den 4 hrs everyday, studying for more than 15 hrs each day, sick for 3 days with high fever, cough etc. Gosh, wats more crazy den this...

I wouldnt say i benefited much from the course, but i can always go back for revision.

But i benfit from gg for the course, whereby, baby knew i was sick, and he took special care for me. Thx dear. The little piggy inside him, dint let him slp, he took care of me for 2 nights, whenever i toss or move, he will wake up and us me " u ok?"... Sweet of u baby..

These 3 days have been very rush n tiring. I m finally back to the comfort zone of my parents. Daddy gg China tml.

Baby just reached china, i hope he can survive through, i love u darling. I hope to see the new u soon. I got his name card, Alvin Kok, General Manager. Sounds nice? He drives me ard in malaysia in the 6 seat car, woohoo.

After his china 8 days 7 nights trainings, with slp of less den 20 hrs in total, he will be sourcing for raw materials wif his dad, den come back spore, b4 gg to indonesia. Busi boy.

I hope he can do well. Oh ya, he got his NS letter, 15 Sept. I m happy, coz not too late, at least he can finish his NDP. I miss the days with him. 11 days without him, plus duno how many days, how to survive?

Where is my pigotong....

I miss u. Why u haven called me since this morning? Usually u will call me de, worried....

I went for 3 interviews today, first to somerset for loreal, den to tanjong pagar for tempserv, den to novena for the client's. Met kaiyan in tanjong pagar, wanted to meet her in tampines, but my interview took 1/2 hr, and i spoke to a prudential personel abt my plans to make investments...

On my way home, the rain was coming, i was lucky to avoid the heavy downpour. However, when i was walking home from bangkok mrt, the lightning and thunder scares me, coz beside me there is no one, but trees, gosh, what will happen to me if the lightning comes down?

2 more days to my course in JB. I hope i can learn well and benefit from it. I m nto sure if i shld go to POC camp. There is high elements n stuffs, sounds fun, sth i nvr ever tried b4. Considering......

Baby is uper sweet, to call me 4 times from malaysia... Thx dear, i really miss u.

I have been slacking at home today. Nice rest.

Life is abt going through ups and downs, setting a standard for ourselves, to conquer problems in front of us. Without training, life will not have shine.

Bill Gates wun earn millions overnight.

This is what i have learnt from the 11pm show on jade. One dun live for another, people die everyday, but its abt how we face it.

Poly life has ended, and i have play my life thru these few mths, accomplishing nth. My frenz have enrolled into uni, some have gone overseas to studies, the guys are gg NS, each of us living our lifes differently.

Nobody is similar, all of us are unique, so is our life. I shall make my life different from others, if others can accomplish sth, I will make mine special.

Interviews this week, i hope to get a job i can make my mark, or at least i love the job and can do well in it... God, bless me, and watch over my boy in malaysia.Amen.

I need a perm job soon. Argh! Sorry linclon, i cant help u work tml coz i m realli very tired.

Baby, thx for everything. U are super sweet to bring jacket for me and buying me dinner, despite of u slippering. I love u, thx.

I think i shall start a new acct to safe up. I pray that mummy will allow me to go for the money and u course this weekend, i dun wish to disappoint my baby.

What is Love?

Is relationship abt getting everyone's approval? Or isit a matter between 2 person?

Will love last long, and couples will build trust forever between them?

I duno what i wan. I got a nice loving bf, but i feeling something is lacking between us.

Went to SBF today to get clariz to sign my timesheet, went cityhall to submit timesheet and trim my eyebrow, den went to orchard, waited for faith for 1 hr while i comb the whole ngee ann city.

Well, today's walking is so much, after meeting my sec sch gers, we walk from orchard to doby guaght, with much walking in between. I feel so happy, coz i means i get more exercise and towards my goal to slimming.

We took neoprint, and had fun talking abt relationship problems. Kristen is a poor case, she n sam... Hai... I hope elaine n her soon to be bf can work. God, please watch over them.

I hope to see my bf tml, coz its sat finally....

Missing u like mad...

Finally, i m gg for my off day tml, need to settle my pay wif sbf and go eyebrow trimming tml at penisula plaza. Den mayb meet faith or my secondary sch gers...

I wish baby can come back tml, den i wun miss him so much le.

Work has been fun, though no sales, no comission. Only getting basic. But i love to speak to my dear frenz promoters, mei xian and jay lloyd. Haha, jay lloyd is a crapper, little boy boy. He is taller den us, but he is 2 yrs younger den me, full of craps boy. Nice fren to know. Mei xian is a pretty ger oso.

Baby, faster come back, ur ger ger missing u.... haiz.

umph

I gonna miss him for days... Argh, i miss poly life, when i can attend lectures wif him, meet for lunch, den go his hse ton.... He is mine for hours...

But now? His dad's factory is in malaysia, so he has to go there to help, from mon to fri, meaning i got no means to contact him, den sat is ndp day, leaving sunday for him only. I dun like this, this is worse den NS, and i am having like pre NS training?

He should b in the army le. My dearest boy.

Work has been alright for me, i hope sales can be better tml, so i can earn more $. I need to save up, and i wan to go bintan wif my gers, and japan wif my baby. I wan dat burberry shawl. Gosh, so many things to buy, and i m saving nth so far. Shall curb my tempations.

Had the first foot massage ytd. Nice massage, and i drank lots of water after dat. Tata, shall slp earlier

My nasty cough is not bringing me anywhere... Argh, i have been coughing for like 1 week? Now i seem to have adam's apple, coz the throat is so tight, even when i swallow my saliva.

Finished my work wif sbf last friday, had been working wif freshkon on sat till today... Ok la, hit a sky high results on sat, 175 boxes, yeah! And 116 boxes on sunday. Today was very bad.

Watever the case, i n happy to know a few frenz over the weekends, in sbf i noe louis, gillian etc.... And in bugis roadshow, i noe uncle gary, mango, sebestian and some b n l pple. Today i noe j&J's Daniel, another cute guy from NAPFA (i forget his name alrd), Nichalos Foo, Mei Xian... They are damn nice pple...

Went dinner after work wif Nic and Mei Xian, with their senior from their agency, had fun talking abt Jes, n her habits of touching guys. Gosh, she even ask Nic to b her bf. WoW! Nice to know these frenz.

I pray freshkon wun gimme so much pressure, and i get to have an off day tml. Coz i m serious sick n i need to rest... Praying hard.

Loves***

I love my baby. Got back the feeling again, just by getting hug by him.

I love the pepper lunch at AMK hub. Great service, and nice food. My first time dining at Pepper lunch, tried the curry pepper lunch. The service staff is nice, to help us do the cooking. And she is so polite. When boy went to buy desserts for me, another staff came over and help us clear our desk, and even ask abt how we found the food!

Well, other then the part that the price do not include gst, their service is way better den those places that requires me to pay service charges yet providing sucking services.

Today is fun filled day, just dislike my work. Counting down to 2 more days.... Might be getting MC tml for my cough, coz i not feeling well. But come again, i get lesser $. :(

Dear, i m sorry. I read your sms to me, ytd night, "i wanna meet ur parents".

So far, wif my ex bfs, i have nvr show them to my parents, or make known to them i m attached.

I will pluck up my courage to tell dem asap. I noe u wan to find ur ego back.

I have been growing my butt in the office... Friday faster come.... Faster...

I need a new job soon.

Sick!! Argh, i feel so dehydrated of water. Its good to drink lots of water, but not when u feel heaty, and sore throat.

:( Thx to my gers frenz and my baby boy. All of them are sick, and spread them to me. Baby dint pei me today, he made me go down vivo after work, and make me walk ard wif his dad's frenz.

Well, i wouldnt mind, if u dun mention dat i shld cross my arms, i shouldnt let him carry my handbag coz his mum says so....I shouldnt...

Shldnt a guy help his beloved carry her handbag? Does carrying it make him turn into a sissy? So i assume if dats the case, den there aren't any more gentlemen in this world as all of them turned into gays?

I just dun understand...

My work is so tedious, i m tired, just to meet u, i endured my tiredness, yet i getting nth but sadness out of my effort. I seriously dun understand wats in ur brains.

Argh, I hate weekdays. Baby went in to malaysia, i m going to work again. :(

Ytd was fun wif the gers, we met at 3.30 at PS, went to kfc for tea, den to cafe cartel for dinner, and caught Meet the Robinsons. Nice show. " Keep Moving Foward".

Went to baby's hse just now, had a shock, after 1 day of renovation, the hse became an office. Lol, sian, next time i go there i cant watch tv le. Boo!

I m looking forward to u coming out. Muacks. I hope tml workload will be lesser and they can let me leave the company asap.

I am super amazed by this website. http://jpoptrash.nihon-fr.com/chirurgiens/chirurgiens.htm

A person's looks, determines how the public will look at them, and it will impact on the self-confidence. I am quite inspired to do a make over, mayb not plastic surgery, as i m afraid of operations and doctors, and its a hassle to look after the wounds.

Emo today...

We had a quarrel. After tons of work, and resignation, i went to agency to hand in my timesheet. Called him to meet for dinner, but lazy pig wans to nua at home, as he says he had been walking ard his dad's factory until he very tired.

I am oso tired woah, 8 persons workload. Well, how unfair can they be. They are going to replace 2 persons to overtake me. Haiz. No choice.

Then i decided to buy MOS burger for him at AMK hub, i ran all the way, wif a starving stomach, den to find the cash on me is insufficient. So i practically ran ard the mall to look for a freaking ATM. Haiz.

When i reached his hse, i felt fainty and i dint spoken a word. He says i dao him, and make him angry. Well, i m kind to buy dinner for u woah.

A meal with u is all i asked for, and we had serious miscommunication resulted. What else can i say?

Lucky we solve the problem calmly. :) And he sent me home again.
I hope we can speak our thoughts next time...

Mayb i m not ready to earn for my own keep. I am a bad saver, spending lots.

i quited my job at SBF alrd. I felt so outcasted as a temp there, and my workload is just 3 of the ex temp staffs. Now, there is another temp staff leaving again, and he work is actually 3 persons job, now loaded on top of me liaoz...

Wif such kns pay, i think i m seriously underpaid. Haiz. so i told my supervisor i m quiting alrd. By right i can leave on monday, but i decided to leave on friday instead, to let them have a chance to get someone to settle for them.

Freshkon... Mayb i wan to consider.... Hopefully i get the job i want soon...

Sometimes i noe u are aware, both of us cant forget our ex... But the love between us, does exist, but mayb not as fresh or new like our first love.

I read the book of our past to present, and abt royston and me, those are history. I love the past u, and oso the present u. I hope u will improve to be better...

卓文宣&黃鴻升(小鬼) - 爱的主旋律 (full mv)是你在那個雨季 闖進我生命帶著一點任性和迷路的表情是你在那個雨季 趕走了孤寂溫暖的手融化還我僅有的堅定天上億萬顆星星 我卻只看見妳要說這是幸運 還是不可思議身邊有太多風景 我卻停在這裡說我傻的可以 還不是因為你是妳的聲音 帶給我勇氣戀愛的頻率 直達我心底如果妳願意 是的我願意來做我幸福的主旋律從前都是謎 現在我相信天空會放晴 愛會更甜蜜如果妳願意 是的我願意愛的主旋律 永遠唱下 卓文宣&黃鴻升(小鬼) - 爱的主旋律 (full mv)是你在那個雨季 闖進我生命帶著一點任性和迷路的表情是你在那個雨季 趕走了孤寂溫暖的手融化還我僅有的堅定天上億萬顆星星 我卻只看見妳要說這是幸運 還是不可思議身邊有太多風景 我卻停在這裡說我傻的可以 還不是因為你是妳的聲音 帶給我勇氣戀愛的頻率 直達我心底如果妳願意 是的我願意來做我幸福的主旋律從前都是謎 現在我相信天空會放晴 愛會更甜蜜如果妳願意 是的我願意愛的主旋律 永遠唱下去啦啦啦 ( more ) ( less )

Shocked, by Elaine telling me she n jeff break le...

Den pj told me she at elaine's hse, and elaine is drunk and slping...

The next minute, elaine is awake and talking rubbish to me online.

Follow up is abt jeff coming over her hse to pass her items back.

Tonight is so exciting, wif exciting news, when kristen is not ard.

Went to far east for lunch wif baby n his mum n bro. had dat yummy chicken rice. Den went PS play archade, which i failed terribly.

Went to amk hub to collect my specs, look so studious now.

Elaine, i hope u can be better. Wat i told to the gers on cny gathering, 20% is cfm correct le. I hope the consequences will not be serious.

work has been quite alright...

Ytd after work, went to far east plaza to see that woman who did my hair. She wanted to refuse my idea to redo again, until baby showed up. He is so bravo!

I adores him... He looked damn powerful, like someone who can protect me and help me, someone whom i have been looking for, my boy. So, thx to him, i going back to the shop at 6pm on monday to get dem done.

We love the desserts at the shop call 'Eskimo', YUMMY! Esp the durain chendol.

Went to take neoprint too. Baby looks damn shuai in that. He wore formal for my sake, so i wun feel left out. Saw Faith there also.

Today i changed my seat. I am alright with the work load. Went to New York New York to eat today, love the BBQ ribs, nice! hahaz.

Saw Michelle and Xavier today at AMK hub. Unexpected

Excited!

About my new job tml... I pray dat i get the will to do well, be motivated.

Excited!
About having a new specs. baby paid for its first, so now in all, i owed him $250. Haha, will return u de la baby, i got work leh... Saved 40% on the frames, and another $40 on top of it. Value for money. Comes with multi coated guarantee for a year, and computer lens.

Excited!
About the new show Ninga Turtle and Mr bean, went to watch them today. I just enjoy his accompany with me.

A guy is actually very easy to coax, a good meal after a day is the best for them.

I suspect that maple-sherlin is still buzzing ard my baby. Haiz. Went to charles and keith to buy a pair of heels for my work tml, his mum helped my to choose too, professional view. Lol.

I am looking forward to working alrd, i hope i can perform well, sad that my mum dun allow me to go malaysia with baby tml. Sorry la boy, its not my fault. I love u.

We had swensens today, very yummy, i called for sth dats super chocolaty, i guess i m too afraid of chocolates now.... Baby is happy if he heard it. I have a sinful day. :( fatty me.

SUper duper happy eileen! Haha, happy 20th mth baby. Muackx.

1st happy thing: Rebond my hair. Went to far east to rebond my hair with kaiyan at far east plaza, we sat from 12.30 to 6.30pm. Gosh, full 6 hours. Apart from that, we chatted, slpt for a while when the whole process went through. We had our urgent needs, and i ended up rushing to the toliet with dat towel on my hair. Lucky we are on the 5th floor, if not i will be so embarrassing.

We are lucky, to b done by a handsome young chap. He is not the owner, but he is a generous young guy, with patience. He started with my hair first, and he straightened my hair with much strenght, dat explains y my hair is so flat now. The price is cheap, $98 for 2 treatments, cut and rebond. Dats very cheap, and the service is good.


2nd happy thing: I get to meet my boy, despite him telling me he wanted to treat me New York New York. Sad dat i missed it, but at least i get to see him,coz i dint expect it.

3rd happy thing: Spent $54.20 on a white coat and a black shirt for my work at VERGE, which has 50% off at AMK hub. Cheap deals, the quality is great, value for money, and i get to have 3 people attending to me and giving me good advice, and me trying on many pieces. Great service!

These happy things does beam up my life. Cheers to great service. Urgh, i cant wash my hair tml,so i shall not go out too much tml, i hate oily smelly hair. :(

ArGH, i m broke. Bought Triumph Deep Desire, 50% paid by boy, but tml i gg to rebond my hair wif kaiyan, i paying for her first, plus i need to buy my formal clothes. Gosh, i spent 1k a mth lor. Must really control myself le.

Tml is gg to be our 20th mth, i miss him utterly. Although i just came back... hee, cant blame me, coz i not gg to see him tml n the day after, wed i mayb gg in malaysia wif him, or mayb its Alvin's day. Den thurs i gg work. I am happy, coz he got car on wed to next monday, at least for thurs and fri got pple fetch me to work. Lol... So dependent on him.

His dad is happy, when i show him the POPTEEN mag i bought, on the shoes... Hehe, good job la, eileen.

I have started my second msn account, since like 8 years ago when i first started to use computer. Reason? Some pple says my current email add got my name alrd, good enuf for business purpose, however, it is also filled with junks. I want somethings dats totally new, for my new step into the world. Therefore, from today onwards, official things will be to the other msn account. Hehe.

Dang Dang.... I m 70% recovered from the flu virus. My family pple had seen me wif the tissue papers in my nose, blowing, sneezing like no tml.

Dint meet baby today, turn down my gym appointment wif kristen, as i woke up at 10am, felt tired and went back to slp, finally wake at 1pm... Damn pig, den felt my head giddy and very heavy.

I had been a good ger, drink orange and carrot juice, eating peach bread.

Shall go gym later.

Mummies are the greatest in the world. I see kaiyan save n scrimp for her daughter.

I have decided to join NDP, shall go sch tml for it. Sian la, this yr hold at NP. I m happy, coz i got my plans inline. But afriad i do not have much time for baby. Sorry boy.

My Plans for the coming days before next thursday:
- NDP tml
- Sunday go far east check for rebonding salon
- Monday interview at changi cargo
- Tues rebond hair cum shopping day
- Wed alvin day
- Thurs, start work.

You Are Medium Maintenance

You aren't as hard to deal with as some girls But you aren't the most laid back chick either You're easy to deal with 90% of the time, but watch out for that 10%! If the guy you are with has good intentions, then calm down a little But if he's really screwing up, don't waste your breath - move on :-)

Are You High Maintenance?

I want to cut off my nose.... Had been behaving like a loose tap, running freely. I am feeling tired with this sickness. :(

perservance

I will work hard, not to let down the other two persons in the company who wans to engage me, and let the one who do not look up on me to regret her decicions.

Got the job at SBF, being an admin officer, but my pay is freaking low, ard O level student standard. But i feel, as a beginner, and first timer in this industry, i will just swallow it first, for only 1 month mah.

Going to buy a pair of heels for work, den think of wat office wear i have. Have to wear formal...

happy ger today, i spend $21 on eyebrow trimming, actual price $52. Nice eyebrow shaping. Shall rebond my hair next week, with kaiyan. Hopefully she can do it. Going gym tml, if its not raining later, i go for a jog. I need to slim down a little to fit in to some of the office wear.

Baby is in malaysia again. :( Boo!

I will start work next thurs...

Considering

I am sorry for even thinking abt breaking up. I love u, but u hurt me oso. :(

I dressed up nicely today, giving boy n his family a shock. His dad asked me why i have a wrist guard on my wrist. Boy is gulity of his crimes, hahaz.

I m considering of going SBF for temp work, den change to perm. Freak, my laptop is crashing on me soon..

I m a happy ger ytd, bought a new bag. Happy.

Need a new job soon. Coz daddy is super nosiy these days.

I think quite true for this, however, dat was b4 i get to know my boy. After knowing him, i lose my bold n daring side, i m more tone down. I am also more of being a dreamer alrd, coz he is also not very realistic.

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul. Practical and down to earth, you're a doer not a dreamer. You rather get something done than think about it all day. Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

stand on my own feet at the same location, when i fell.

Thanks to the Aunty May who commented to boy dat i m a pretty ger if i doll up, i might consider going for a make over!

Happy birthday gor!

Other den dat, i must really say, my good day was a little damaged by boy.

I reached the chalet, and he is playing mahjong. 1st he say dat i tap his shoulders n head, causing him to lose the games, when he alrd had bad luck since the night before.

We went to play pool. I told dem dat i duno how to play, coz i really dint play pool for 3 years le, it was after my break up with royston, dat i dint play at all le. But i gave a try. They were amazed by some ways i play. Pls lah, if i really duno how to play, i sure duno how to position my hand la. The games was ok :)

Den we went roller blades, i dint wan to try on de, coz 2 years ago i tried wif xav n mich, i ended up falling on my butt before standing up, bad experience.

I curb my phobia by giving it a try again. I stand up without falling. Allan is a clever boy man, he can do skating well even when its his first try. However, me unlucky stupid ger, got scolded by my boy. Even after numerous attempts, i still couldnt get the hang of it.

At least I tried again, and gain some confidence in moving quite a distance. Dat boy keep saying me. I told him i dun wan to play le, coz i was alrd feeling back ache. I mean BACKACHE, not strains on the back. I duno if he understands the difference.

He scolded me for giving up. I dint wan to give up too. My fear, my aches on my back, my knees, my wrists... I tried my best. But to him, i m still a useless woman, who dun give a damn in trying once i fell down once.

So i proved to him, by skating, and falling. I fell, and i stand on my own feet myself. He tried to help me, i shouted, " u get lost!" Since u dun belief wat i had said, so y bother to help me? I skated a bit, and tried my best, fell 3 to 4 times, he tried to tell me wat to do, i shouted " u shut up" and i cover my ears.

I dun wan to hear, y should i, when u dun listen to me?

Mayb u meant good, wanting me to do the best i can, not knowing i have alrd tried my best le.

Allan n ur cousin heard our quarrels, i noe their face changes, but so what? Things have been different, if u attempt to understand my tryings.

My heart closes on u, i duno y. I teared on the bus back. I tried to understand u, by letting u skate wif ur cousin instead of sending me home, even if u really rmb dat u promised to send me home today.

I duno wat to tell u. Feel emo today. Sorry wh n ken, cant go ice skate wif u guys tml, coz i dun feel like. I think i will be gg for more skates again tml, instead of gg to the physican, coz i think its just my past injuries relapse only. Whatever. I m the type of ger, who will try to stand on my own feet at the same location, when i fell.

I have a phobia, of driving go kart. Baby, pls understand, twice, i almost flipped the car, and ur car accident, make me scared, my phobia.

I enjoyed today, going escape wif boy and his cousin. Den had barbeuce, i dint eat much of the food, coz very oily....

Dint exercise today, hopefully i have chance tml.

I aim to be a perfectionist!

Dying from my fats, i scare i will get depression again. I must motivate myself to work harder, stop finding excuses not to exercise, and stop planning for occasions and reasons to indulge in high calories food, like i did ytd.

I wan a curvvy figure... 33C, 22cm, 26cm... I hope i can achieve dat.

I need to remove my spare tyres, fat arms and giant tighs... Hopefully before i start work, i get a 42kg weight back. 8kg to shed. Shall go gym tml then. den to Escape.

Wonders

I wonder when will i get my job?
Should i study at Murdoch University?
Should i join NDP 2007?

So many wonders, and questions, but i duno when will i get my answer.

Spent lots of money today at compass point, went to meet Shu Ling and radience they all...

Gg Escape with baby and his cousins tml.. I need some fun!

Urgh, I M FAT!!! I think my weight shot up to 50kg alrd. I had been eating, eating, eating and eating. Dint exercise for ages, and had been slacking like crazy.

I need to cut down on the food i m eating... Had fish n co at glass house today, was yummy, with loads of lemon butter sauce, spend abt $177 for 7 person, which baby paid.

Play archade, and i checked my account balance, suppose to return boy the money for that KL trip.

Dad had been crazy, asking me abt my job everyday, its like, hello, i worked 6 days full time straight, den rushed to KL, den just back for 1 day only. Even if i apply, waiting for interview and before getting employed will need time too. Gosh, he is brainless at times. He spolit my perfect mood.

Baby's hse is gg thru renovating, finally, the brothers are getting a room to their own, no longer sharing with their parents, as the tenant moved out. I m looking forward to the good times then.

I m tired, duno y, pimples had been popping like siao, i think i need to detox soon.

Life is about learning new things... I learnt from the KL trip, that relationships are not just about love, or not some people, being together everyday or having sex.

Well, whether or not we did whatever, its none of others business, but on actual fact, most people say, long term rs requires close physical rs.

Looking at Ken n WH, when spending our room together in KL, i see the bond, and understanding between them, its amazing that they stayed tgt since secondary 4, feel with envy*.

I love him, really, even if at times we dun have feelings for each other, but our memories, when thought of, brings back fond memories and nice feelings, everything is better again.

Happy + Disappointed

What does it mean?
I am a happy ger, to enjoy indulging in my baby's arms every night during the trip in KL, enjoying his hugs and kisses, caring and handsome smile... I love him, coz he tolerate with my anger, bad temperness, as period had not arrive, and after arrival. We had numerous of quarrels, he tried to talk sense to me, yet i m very stubborn. Sorry boy,thx for the pretty gifts.

Baby bought for me a belt. a hello kitty coin purse, Kate eyeliner (why malaysia got Kate and we dun have???), top. I love them all! Even though i so much wanted to buy bags, but i feel nth is worth the price stated or the qualtiy is not up to my standard.

We stayed at Ferderal Hotel, its a damn nice hotel, comfy bed for up to 3 pillows, can accomdate 4 people, cool yeah! Had buffet breakfast for the first day, den check in and slp, as we arrived at KL at 5am in the morning. After dat we go jalan, but only bought a top. The place that sold the top sold some fake nails, with pretty designs, and its just stick on, no glue required. Its called click now if i rmb correctly.

Second day we went for a swim in the hotel, while waiting for those two giants to arrive. After which we went to shop, walk almost the whole day, boy bought 2 shirts for himself. At night, except wh, all of uswere hyper, so we went down to Quick and Easy store (7-11 there), to buy some food. Ken ended up getting drunk, and we fell aslp after a few round of dai di.

3rd day, my period came, so we couldnt swim n rollar skates. We went shopping, while ken n wh went to another mall to get a jacket. for 3 days, we had been eating the KFC, the chicken are very tender and nice, wh loves the bread alot, so we ended up buying 10 breads for her to eat on the train (she sat on the breads when on train).

We surf the internet cafe, to know our results. Well, not so bad.

CURRENT SEMESTER GRADE POINT AVERAGE: 3.0417
RESULT: PASSED AND COMPLETED THE DIPLOMA COURSE
GRADUATING GPA: 2.4478

I got my AD for IB only. Alright la... Was hoping to get the book prize award. 4 Bs and 2 Cs. Was utterly disappointed with myself for SMM and BPC for the B, but surprised for the BB's C, i was thinking i would get a D.

Like wat Faith had said, unless we get a GPA of 3.5 and above, its relatively hard for us to get in to the local uni, mayb working and be a tai tai will be my life? Baby, u sees it? Haha. I am happy to hit the GPA of 3, but disappointed with myself for not doing better in overall. :(

R.I.P my dear catcus. This pretty catcus was given to me by my baby during 2007 vdae. But i duno y, i just went for KL for 4 days, and it died. It became soggy and slimmy alrd. Sorry baby, its not my fault, i think its the ants that attacked this defenseless plant.

Much thx to all my fellow great frenz... esp to Faith, Mildred, Huiping, Adelaide etc... U guys had been a great help to advicing me to my decision. I believe in my 1st instinct, and those great frenz common opinions.

Baby asked his dad too, like most of u had told me, mayb i should take up the 2 mths job, take it as my 1st marketing job, better den nth on my resume dats related to marketing. I can always find sth better in future, the grass is greener on the other side. As a perm job, pay is an important too.

Jia you!

I shall tell adele my decision tml.

Excited...

Gosh, i m only ard 24 hrs away, to the KL trip. cant explain my excitment. Was out to sch for the NP BB primers AGM, this yr combined wif Tri Elite, T&F and Fencing...

The AGM was a success, but sad Mr Edmund no longer our advisor. It time for us to step down too. Was talking to Daniel n Jabin about bf n frenz who are gg NS soon, yet interested to join the NDP 2007, shall ait for their news soon, after we r back from KL. Jabin was asking bf n me to b trainers for the motivators, but i think not really nice, coz got some pple they are more senior den us. Shall consider?

Many have given me comments to work for the 2 mths temp, one said to go for the full time... I admit the temp would definately give me more time to go for the NDP... Hai, which decision should i make?

Nvm, everything shall be settled after i come back from KL? Loves, and excited. Shall update 4 days later!

Dilenma

I m thinking... Whether i should wait for the rest to reply me, or go for the temp 2 mths marketing executive? Gosh, i m spoilt for decisions to be made.

My results will be released in a few days time, and i will be away in KL. think i shall go to one of the lan shop there to see my results. Praying hard, that i can pass, and with flying colours, this is my last sem please!

Dear Lord, please help me to excel, and give me the strength to carry on, Amen.

Baby is sweet to accompany me to Bugis to meet Adele. Glad that i had spoken my mind about my concern to the company's image, regarding Jeslyn. Serene and me realli loves to see that bitch gets a clearer picture of the situation, and of the damages she had done.

Gor and his gf quarrel today. She smsed me as early as 8am, when i was sound in bed. I duno the current situation. I realli hope they can be better.

Elain n jeff broke up le. I duno if this is good or not, mayb for us gers, we had been hoping they would break, but i still feel, its their issue tosettle themselves, Elaine's rs had been controlled by us numerous of times, i hope this time she will b mature enuf to make her own real decisive decision.

Enuf of those sad things, i hope our KL trip will be a success. I had been quarrelling wif baby these 2 days too. Hope things will be better.

Offically 3 days away to the KL trip!

Treasure the ones in front of u. I love u baby. Sorri for our quarrel today. I was a bit heated. Sadly to say, dats my habit, but hor, i will try to change, since i have changed so much for u, i believe i had did so much for u. Muackx.

Went to Golden Mill today... To book coach tickets, instead of taking train. I love him, looking forward to the trip, wif 2 couples. Baby will be paying for me 1st, den i return him after i get my pay.

After watching my show, i shall start a little bit of packing...

Yippee.... My 6 days promotions are over... Quite good pay for just 6 days, but the working hrs are freaking long... But i m very happy, to know friends like Sher, Serene, Jay Loyd, Shu Ling, Michelle, Fred, thx guys for the nice 6 days...

We may belong to different brands, but we help each other, to provide the best for the customers needs. :) Its fun, rewarding, and enjoyable. I going some trial lenses for BL and Acu... Shall get from CV soon. These names are actually in short forms, to prevent some problems.

I am going to meet Ade tml, a freshkon person, for duno wat. She called me to meet her tml. Lol.

Baby, me, Ken n Wh planning to go for a short 4 day getaway to KL. I hope it will be a safe n nice journey. Muackx baby, cant wait.

Working n working = super tired.

Baby, thx for coming all the way down from sch to tm to fetch me to thomson for prata. We saw Sherman n clara, and some other NP pple there on our way back.

Tonight roads are filled with white tigers, 2 on TPE and 2 on SLE, at ard 10am? Dats far too early. Hahaz. Lucky baby was driving on the safe mode.

My work sux today, i feel i m just wasting time. Tml is better, y? Coz my customers are coming down tml to collect their stocks. I hope to do better tml.

I need a FT job soon... Praying hard.

Happy

I m so glad i took up this time's roadshow, instead of backing out n wander about wif baby....

I enjoyed getting pampered, having boy to buy dinners for me (which usually becomes my suppers), and him driving me home. Thx dear, u r very sweet.

I enjoyed earning close to $300 in 3 days, hopefully i will do better for my next 3 days alone, hitting targets. Praying hard... I wan to earn another $300 to get my new digi cam...

Dear, love u. I know ur relatives have been asking u about us, but u know dat i feel that it is far too early for us to get married, further more u have not had ur NS, mayb after ur NS den we see how ok? Muackx

Excitment

Loves... My current life. But good things will comes an end tml. I am starting my 6 days work tml, until next wed, meaning no more shopping...

I love him. Thx for the treat of dinner at Swensens, love the banana crumpler, ice mocha, and curry bake rice... Yummy, especially with someone i love so much.

Went to United Square after going to some govt company there, and velocity, coz boy needs to settle sth for his business.

I bought my sunscreen and bio essence deep exolifying gel. Had been wanting these items. Happy girl.

Baby bought a new game, and his maple cards. He is oso a happy guy.

Tml starts work, Eileen, do ur best woah, earn the commission.

The sad thing i heard today, is abt a ger, her abortion... haiz... Its ur decision, its ur boy's fault for not being responsible, and u not being sensible. However, wats done is done, do justice to your daughter. No one will understand the pain of a mother losing their child, Kaiyan, i finally understand the pain u had twice.

I love you.

Special Day

Today is a very happy day... Baby n i fulfilled our wishes... I feel lonely without u, nvr enuf time wif u...

I think i have enuf exercise today, i shall go gym tml though. I need to work out, to achieve the curvy figure i had 3 yrs ago. Tml mummy gg to work, no one to nag me again.

Valerie's issue is making me sad, another ger going for abortion. Haiz.

Time is alway not rite, his dad gg to bangkok for 5 days, yet i m not going to have time to pei baby, coz of work. I noe i m gg to lose him soon, if he is gg to malaysia after his dad is back, den i m being left alone again.

Argh, i dun like it, but i need to work, coz i need $, to go overseas to play. Baby, pls bear wif it...

I love u.

The perfect

Waiting... is what i have been doing...
Lazing... is my current hobby....
Munching... is my favourite pastime

Life has been good for me today, behaving like a pig in this gold pig year, eat, sleep, play... Hahaz... Well, my good life only comes in the evening, when my boy comes out from malaysia.

Waited for him from 8am to 6pm, after which the boy called to tell me he is back but stranded in Bukit Merah, coz he refuses to go in to malaysia again...

Meet him, wif kendrick n wh... Got dem to come down to AMK Hub. Ken claimed dat it is boring, coz mostly are ladies stuffs? Four of us had subway for dinner, great fill for fast food. Talked about how we have, and our plans to go to malaysia in April... However, lets hope i can have some off days? Hahaz...

We went to archade to play a while, den walked to baby's hse to catch " Angels Of Mission", we watched le den go home. During commercials, ken n wh keep distrubing the poor hamsters of baby's bro. lol. I m timid towards rats, and hamesters...

Missing my baby... Melts my heart when i recall his slping look on my lap ytd on his dad's car, so shuai! First the 1st time in 19 months den i realised my boy can b so handsome.

Gosh, tml plans? Wat can i do... Mayb shall meet up wif kaiyan, n her daughter jorin for a swim? See how bahx. Sori boy,i hope to stay over at ur hse tonight, but cant. Love u alot alot. Thank God, for giving you, in my life!

Happy 19th mth

Forgetting today is the 26th... until baby told me it it 26th today. Happy 19th mth. Love ya.

No contribution in the morning, just slacked, and waited for the stupid mattress to b delivered, my dad ordered a new king koll mattress for themselves. Waited from 10am to 2pm, freaking hell long la. But nvm...

Was in time to go pei boy, den we go for a business seminar. We dint go gym today, coz too late le. The seminar is held at mediacorp, had a great session there, with all the big bosses of SMEs. Thx uncle for giving me an apportunity.

Shall go for the talk by the NTU lecturer next sat... hope to learn more...

Mayb

Maybe she is the only ger i ever seen, who is so strong in facing setbacks... This nice ger was my polymate, someone who leave a deep impression in me.

Mayb I will never meet another boy, who love me dat much as him. He dotes me n understands me, caring for me even if i cut a little bit of my finger, this boy is my treasure boyfriend.

Mayb i will nvr meet frenz like, adelaide, mich,kris, elaine, peijin, huiping, mildred... All those frenz alrd me, are my ger treasures...

Mayb i will nvr meet such understanding guy frenz, like Derrick n Royston... The frenz who are my sisters and understands me, giving me consultation when i need...

Mayb i will nvr meet such good family again, my cute sister, and cool brother, nice parents who supports me...

Life is about treasuring the treasures ard u, as many people tend to walk past n ignore, without knowing the best is actually just around u. This is what i enlightened, this year. I may b late, but its better den nvr.

Baby's 20th Birthday

I hope u r happy... Sent him a special email ytd night....

Went to interview in the morning, den went to buy my sunscreen lotion at bugis, den to AMK emicake collect that birthday boy's cake. Den went his hse, den go lunch, n to movie with his parents, "Portege". hahahz... 1st time, but nice. Den had dinner at ECP and went his hse cut cake. Busy yet fulfilling day.

I hope dat interview I had today will go through. I want to work soon. God, please help me!

Tml my cousins coming in, but i wan to accompany my boy. Time is nvr enuf for us... I need a stable job soon.

Wonders.....

I wonder:

What did i do to deserve such a good boyfriend?
What did i do to deserve such a nice bunch of friends?
What did i do to get such good treatment from everyone?

I am happy today. Got interview with Metro, supposedly to be a supervisor, the HR asked me a position to b an admin merchandiser! Haha, i hope i can get the job?

Tml going for interview with SBF, second interview. Now i m stuck, with the option of Metro or SBF? Hahaz... see how bahx...

Tml my baby's bdae, today went to watch movie with him n his mum, so we went to bishan n watch " Just follow Rules". I learnt sth today, I m no longer a student, i m stepping out into the society, so I have to wake up n be responsible with watever i m saying, a SORRY will not work anymore!

Baby says, he is touched with my preparation for his bdae, i will make it the best for him, coz i had sacrifise my slping time during exams period to do preparation n research leh... Hahaz...

I shall go bugis to buy the sunkiller lotion, i need to prevent more freckles.

Busi busi... preparation for the big day for him....

Lucky Ger

Tell me, Eileen u r a lucky ger! Haha, yes i m. i realise how lucky i m to have such great frenz ard...

Went to bai nian wif kristen, mich and peijin. The year dat all of us are attached. Went to bai nian den we went to kbox. I was late when meeting dem. Kbox was fun, went to amk one, and enjoyed ourselves. Sang wif our horrible voices... Sang songs like 'Frenz'... We enjoyed ourselves, thx gers, u pple r great!

Rushed to baby's hse for dinner, and noe some of his secrets from his mum when he is young. His bro called me regarding his bdae this friday, sorri allan, cant help u. But i think ur bro will understand de la...

Tml interview, hope I can do well. :) Praying hard.

Learning Lessons

Ytd was fun! Saw my cousin's son. My uncle is soooo fortunate, his daughter n daughter in law gave birth in the same mth... Lol. My little newphew is sooo cute, wif so much hair. My grandfather's next successor.

After dat went to baby's grandparents hse. Got so many ang baos, his relatives are sooo many. But there is th his uncle joke abt dat i dun realli like, "u every year change one ar?"

Today go out wif baby again. I cried, coz his dad wants him to go him to malaysia. :( i wan to pei him. His bdae is coming, n i nid to do preparations. I miss u baby. I noe ur problems, and ur wishes, but ur dad just dun allow. Forgive me, if ur dad dun like wat i would say, but dats me, and u noe my character.

Tml going to find the gers, den thurs interview, fri interview n baby's bdae... My week is packed. I wan a job soon! Think i will go jogging tml, or gym in the morning before pei the gers, too sad elaine got revision class tml, jia you ger, hope u do well for ur exams!

Loves

Its Chinese New Year! A joyous occasion where people goes visiting, unmarried getting their bonus. I am so engrossed in collecting my ang baos, i think i wouldnt wan to get married so early, coz cny is a gd time to get ang baos... Hehe

Wake at 8.30am today, dress and make up, den went to the temple at Bishan to pray to my grandparents. Saw Joel there, my Tb11 polymate. The guy whom I got misunderstanding about him, but he is a nice chap after all, better den some guys dat i met b4...

Den we go back to Hougang to my aunt's house. Reached there first, den slowly people came n stuffs. I wonder something, y my cousin keep looking at me? Did i change dat much? Lol, dat cousin is a guy la... My aunts got amused wif the heels i am wearing, bought by my baby. My cousins were so shocked dat i will wear such sexy heels. hahaz, mum will kill me if she noes my heels is 5 inches high!

Everyone keep asking us today, " Where is ur mum?" Den the 3 of us will answer, " Thailand..." They will ask, " Go alone? For wat?" Those nvr ending qns abt my mum. Isnt the tension good dat she is not ard? Lol.

Tml we are going to my mum's side. Den thur to my gers' houses, annual affair. Baby's granny asked me over for dinner. I duno if i shld, coz catherine is going in the afternoon, den if i go in the nite, like super out of place? Baby says there is alot people ard for ang baos, i was like, " dear, i m not married to u yet?" I assume his granny tot we r married alrd, coz i always go over their hse for dinner, or go out wif dem. Haiz... see how bahx.I rather go wif catherine... so i wun feel so out of plce, being the only gf there...

I am enjoying my unmarried life.... But wif a nice boy to love me, i believe is alot more den i love him. Miss u dear, hope to see u tml. Argh to my pimples, popping like bean sprouts, growing fast!

Missing u

The horscope states that my lucky number would be number 9, my lucky color will be white, and my important people is those whose zodic signs are monkey and horse... Haha, my bro and my mum!

And its a good year for me to invest in property, but i have to avoid kuo she zi zhan ( tongue slashing fights), and dun be too chiang cuo tuo (outstanding).... Point taken here, so i wun forget... hehe...

Baby, I miss u alot... life suddenly seem so meaningless... Watching Magic kitchen, and the person says abt the story of frog and scorpion, that one's habit will be hard to change. And finding someone u love, is hard, but when u found him, treasure him.

There are many people out there, still looking for the one they love, and find bliss. To me, bliss is around me, just by having so many pple who cares ard me.

My wish for the new year, will be everyone to have good health, and i get good results and a great job. :) I love him.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone.... Pig pig year... Dear, u r pigotong woah. Haha!

Miss u loads... Went to buy a bag for new year, and a clip for myself. Went shopping wif my sis, fun. But dint see boy today.

Did spring cleaning for my wardrobe... got 5 dresses, 3 tops, 4 jackets are new.... bought within 3 months, my shoes have 1 shoe, 2 slippers, 4 heels,4 boots... Gosh! i only have a pair of leg woah. Actualli, out of which 2 heels, 2 dresses, 3 jackets, 2 bags and a pair of shoes are bought by my baby over the last 6 months... Imagine how much he spent on me...

I wan his bdae to be the best for him. He asked me if i can go in malaysia tml or sth, hahaz, i need my bonus leh... Lol. He say his parents wan to show others that i m his gf... Like, dotz! I m not yet married to u, and we are still far from it.

Mummy has gone to thailand alrd... Ytd coz wan to accompany her, dint go n pei Ray, for her 21st bdae. She invited me and Yvonne to Music Underground. Haiz... Sorry ger, i told Yvonne next time we will go club after this week, hopefully Ray can make it...

This thurs I got bai nian wif my secondary school gers, den i wan to go shopping wif Mildred and huiping... hahaz 3 groups of gers... Miss u guys loads, hope to catch up soon.

EXCITED!!!

Tell me about it, I am due to graduate soon... Had my final paper today, 9am to 11am, Buyer's Behavior. Freaking stupid paper, which i m bound to fail, but unlikely to fail overall. Stunned at the paper during the reading time, and crap myself through. Hopefully a C... No D please...

Went to AMK Hub to find sth for my baby's bdae, my toes hurt from the freaking heels... And gt a call from boy, dat he is back from malaysia, so got him to meet me...

Waited for dat nice boy for 1 hr, I showed him bad attitude, making him sad. I was like," do u noe how long i waited? Its freaking hot here, and my toes hurt from the walking while waiting.."

We comb the shoe shops in AMK Hub and a bit in the neighbouring shops, finally i bought a nice slippers from Shoe *, and a pair of sexy dolly heels from Mondo.

The heels my baby pay for me, hee, coz i feel i dun realli see the need for me to get this heels, as is just too classy and pretty for my ugly foot. He insisted...

Dear I love u... Sorry for my attitude, i m very tired, and the papers getting screwed up makes me feel sad, and the weather makes me uncomfortable...Dun worry, u r my baby...

I am happy.... So happy... Got an interview on the 21st and on 23rd. Sorry boy, 23rd ur bdae, i noe, let me just go there for 2 hrs isit ok? I will be there to love u after dat. Hee... Wish me luck... Coz the 23rd interview is my second interview...

Argh, I miss Mildred and Huiping....

Excited!!!

Oh man, i hate it when i cant get to u when i wan to, coz i so much relied on u...

Primers adventure camp, should i go? Its the freaking $20 for 4 days wif tons of activities, sounds nice, but $20 is just the application fees, yet to add in the additional cost we might incur on our own? And i m freaking broke this mth, though some might tell me its CNY, y m i still broke? Coz my dearest's bday is this mth!

I bought that tamagotchi is supposed to be part of his bday presents... there will b more surpises, tml i shall go do the preparations, hope u dun come back so early? Though i half wished to go out n celebrate wif u, coz IT'S THE LAST PAPER TML!

SMM is surprisingly manageable, even though its 7chapters to study in less den 12 hrs, and could b easy if i got more time to study, apparently dat RM took up 100% of my time after the ib paper for me to prepare.

Freak, there goes my AD for SMM, i hope not, probably an A?

Tml is BB, saw Dehong in sch today, and he was telling me how he dread failing BB, coz Mr Yow dun like him. Well, no choice... I hope Mr Yow can gimme full marks for the 25% project, or mayb 22%, hahaz, fat hope! Den mayb a 10% out of 15% for my participation, my individual is alrd 6.1% out of 10%... Doing the maths, dat would mean that i still need 23.8 marks out of 100 for tml paper to pass! BUT to get my dear AD, I need 86 marks out of 100!!! Tell me, how to get?

Work hard... Perserve... Its just the last paper tml, AND I WILL BE FINALLY OUT OF THE POLYTECHNIC! After the 3 yrs of hardship.... I finally noe what is call studying...

Studying is not abt dead memorising.... But for u to read and understand, apply and u can recap what u have read before.... Only got enlightened at this finally exam period, but its better than achieving nothing from my 13 years of education. Good luck to myself... to strive for it, coz its now, or never!

Valentine's day

Happy Valentine Day to baby!

Thx for the nice lil pot of catcus u gave me. Pple in sch and on the street will b holding to flowers, yet u gave me sth special, sth beyond my expectations, and understanding me deeply --> the catcus do not require much care, so i can slack, dun nid to give so much care to it...

Lol... Although it was just a mere 3 hr of vdae dinner wif u at Thai Express, thx for making the effort to Q in dat ultra long waiting pple while waiting for me to come....

I had celebrated vdae wf my Retail Management coursemates, sitting for a paper dat seemed endless, and super tough! Well, wats over is over, shal put it behind me, and wait for the results in March, now i m revising my SMM, which will b due at 9am in ard 4 hrs time...

Gosh! Although i had revised b4, but my STM is taking on me... Slpt from 12 to 3am just now, woke n bathe till 4am, den just started revising! I want to get AD for this module, coz i calculated, I m alrd getting ard 45% of my results le, so to get the AD, which is 90 to 100 mark, i am ard 70 marks, which is not very difficult, if i study hard...

Still have 2 more chapts to my completion of my 1st round of revision... but going out soon, going sch to mug... Good luck to me, and God Bless me...

Ultra Stress + Overdose of Cafferine + Maths + Insufficient sleep = Super headache

This formula is wat i m feeling now...

Its valentine day tml, and i m going to spend my bdae wif my dearest RM coursemates! Finally, i understand the RM calculations, left the concepts... I hope i can get AD for RM oso.

Baby wished me to get AD oso, thx, i will do well wif ur blessing. I m tired, but baby say, I should work hard, for the last 100m away.

Love u boy....

Tell me to Love u, n i will

Haiz... my boy its gg in malaysia today, but he will b back by wednesday...

Today had my 1st paper, IB, manageable, hope can do well n achieve my target! The whole day is ok, until we went to see Mrs Koh, poor mildred kena her saliva splashed over her face!

" Did you guys study? Do u know ur exams are less than 48 hours away?"

Lol, she is a woman, whom I see in my 20 years, and 13 years of education, the 1st teacher who teach students by scolding, and teaching me like my mum does...

Got my results for SMM project 2, 80%, not bad la... at least an A, though i hope for more... Hee, not satisfied wif my current situation, therefore I need to work hard, for my RM, SMM n BB....

Gonna miss u boy, badly. My heart went down after hearing u say u r gg in, though i noe u will go in, but my heart do not want to accept the fact. Miss u!

Thx adel, for the nice creative christmas present, of the shell... Uploadin pictures some other days to b in memories of this nice present.

Thx to catherine, for the two bracelet u gave me... :) though dint noe u well, but u r a sweet ger.

Studying soon le... or mayb i going to slp, and prepare for battle. Duno if i should go see Mrs Koh tml or not, but i shall see again, coz eileen is very tired after the IB paper... God bless me, for my RM paper, I need to get my A, which is tons much harder den IB.... Bless me!

Study Study

I love to study wif Huiping n Mildred! Went to sch n study wif them on sat, den at KAP today!

We had fun, gossiping, giving each other summaries on topics, which part we have to take note on and learn better wif each other companisonship.

I want to score AD for all my modules, yes, i will do it. Baby is nice to pei me, although he was dotaing beside me. We bought tamagotic, haha, childish? Its my idea, our couple little pets, can infra n play games!

Sad, he is gg to malaysia tml, but he is coming back on vdae. I m happy coz at least gt huping n mildred to accompany me until after wed, due to RM oso.

We shall work hard, and we are going to have retail therapy after dat. I love to have frenz like them, make my life filled wif colours other den my Baby.

Good luck for my papers: IB, RM, SMM, BB...

Envy

I was talking to gracie about her newly put on red braces for cny, i m so envy of her!

Talking about braces, many of my frenz had been asking me the same qn:" have u tot of putting on braces to make ur smile more beautiful?"

And my answer to them is," I am very interested, but i have many restrictions"

Yes, my restrictions are, my parents disapproval, my family doctor disapproval, my jaw being short, so have to undergo surgery b4 i can put braces ( if not no diff oso), no spare cash, unwilling to wait n queue for my turn.... and so on. My baby did not like the idea of me putting on braces too, dats our lil secret.

But, recently my upper gums had been hurting. Mummy says is coz heaty, but i say its coz the food i ate hurt my teeth n gum. I need braces soon, i have been having unhealthy gums for 9 years alrd!

Gracie says she went private, costing her a mere 4k, excluding follow up consultation fees, and she gt to have it put on straight away! This news excites me, therefore, i have to find my job, work hard and save 5k to put on the braces!

I m envy of baby, for finishing his report, FINALLY! after me bugging him for days to bring me to town, he is finally done wif it! But, i have to start mugging seriously!

Oh ya, talking abt it, Happy 21st Birthday to Sarah, and welcome back to Singapore from ur attachment!

I am gg to mug in sch tml wif Mildred and Huiping, study my IB, and a bit of RM... Jia you bahx.... nite nite.

Brain Block

Study IB is supposedly to b fun, but i ended up trying to memorise it... OMG, can my brain cells just release itself from the tension, n just read the stupid book like a story book? Dat will be easier for me...

Had my 1st offical interview in my life, wif SBF, nice pple, had a panel interview, for an hr long. I bet the other candidates will be thinking, what the hell did i do inside? lol, they ask almost every qn about me! I feel so bare in front of them now.

I love him, for loving me. Someone who understands me, torlerate me, makes me smile, making me the happiest ger, loving me for whom i m, n not becoz of who i m, or what i have for him! thx baby!

I still have 4 more chapters to go, and my paper is on the monday! OMG. How i wish holidays are here, how i wish everything can stop here...

These few days, i can see u r very happy, so m i. We study hard tgt, u do ur project, i study. We can do it together!

Best memories

Today is like any other day, but its my special day too

there are days, where u ignored me, letting me open the door n leaving u quietly...

Today, u bring smiles, and laughters, and happiness into me...

My baby, thx... For going downstairs to get me eyedrop, although u r in the midst of rushing ur report, thx for helping me photocopy my certs, and thx for caring for me, and helping me to put on the plasters for my poor leg...

Simple things like this, make me a happy little princess! Thx dear :)

I hope u will like the bdae i will plan for u... Hope everyting will b in time, and in place, argh, quite hard, due to $ shortage, those pple who owe me $, better pay up la... n oso his bdae near cny, sian lor... coz everything muz preorder..

No matter wat, i will study hard, for mine n ur sake, for us to b officially together in the eyes of my parents, and plan hard n gif u a memorable bdae! Muackx

Aim

For this mth.... My goals that i need to achieve are:

- Score my ADs, score my ADs, score my ADs, score my ADs.....
- Lose my fats, and achieve 42kg asap
- Get lots of ang pow
- Prepare the best 20th bdae for him

Why 42kg? coz i did a test, and given my height, the best weight is 42kg, so i have a couple of fats to lose.

If u duno, 35000kcal is equal to 1kg... had been recording wat i have eaten recently, ensuring i eat healthier and balanced food.

Lidat, I have more energy to study, and wun gain much weight. Wanted to exercise, but my period came, not realli good mood for exercising.

Starting to study IB, one of the module i have most confidence in gaining my AD, allocated 1 chapter for each day... Eileen, jia you! God, pls bless me, for the motivation, and will to study hard, so i wont disappoint my family and myself.

happy day

I love him... enjoy myself wif baby, n thx to his mum to cook nice food for me.

Had been mugging RM tml, but cant seemed to finish, haiz... shall start IB tml, in case i cant finish.

Found sth nice here:

http://www.sosimplegoodies.blogspot.com/

Its the blog of the DJ in Yes 9.33, about 'So Simple', played on every tues 9.30pm, after the 'In nu huang'. I watched last episode, and its a valuable lesson to learn on makeup tips, and the blog tells me more about DIY masks, and easy to preapre healthy food. Shall try some of them out after exams.

Gt interview this thurs, lots of preparations for me to do, i nid to take passprt size photo, prepare my certs, print dat extra resume... Hope i can get that job? Or may just take it as an experience todo better for my next interview.

Poly is ending... my frenz are sending their applications for further studies, and some are like me, sending resumes for job. Today news start that "Poly grads get higher salaries, land jobs within 6 mths" at http://sg.news.yahoo.com/070206/5/singapore256768.html, about $1700, not bad, although its just a $50 increase from last year, but the job industry is good. Hope to get a good career for me to work, and gain experience...

I must study hard now, to get more As, n hope can do well, no C or D pls... Dear, i nid ur blessing... Love u

Tell me...

Tell me I am a stupid ger, who gets angry over things like:

- Baby got my ass up in the morning, juz to go his hse n watch him slp, making me wan to slp when i m suppose to mug.
- Baby ignored me n continued his nice dreams, despite me whining and complaining abt being hungry, and want to get out of his hse
- He made me have gastric, den treat me to MOS
- He had stupid frenz who wanted a lift from Funan to AMK, whereby they could have taken MRT to bugis, to save us the trouble from getting stuck in the jam.
- Without the jams, i couldnt have almost burst my bladder due to the water I drank at MOS.
- Went to Serangoon for Primers meeting, paid $5 to drink fruit juices there, when there are plenty of food, and getting hungry after we left.
- Almost screamed my head off in front of the primers pple, as Alex n Pamela tries to drive baby's car, when they have no license.

I was very mad, so mad that i wan to slap the two of them. I literally clunch my fist, having the urge to pull dem out of the car n give them a punch in their face, for being so insensible.

Pls, u guys are older den me. I dun understand y baby allows them to do this. The place is a narrow private lane, wif expensive cars on the road sides, and mistakes not only lies in ur car, but also the bomb in ur family's expenses. And also the lives of two other frenz.

I was having the urge to study, but baby's slowness, and their attitude, make me damn fucked up, dats y i screamed in front of emily's father. Sorry if i made a joke out of myself, but, it is seriously not my problem.

I can be a very nice ger. I can understand situations, if u have the ability to make things clear to me wif reasonable answers, and u can b resonsible and accountable if anything happens. If u cant, den u better noe wat u are doing, b4 trying anything, as these kind of things arent funny.

I can get furious at times, but i will only scold pple, explain to me if u can. But if u tries to ignore my anger, den dun blame me when i bash u up. I dun care whats ur reasons after dat, as i had given u the chance. I fight ok, n i m fierce, so dun take me as any ordinary ger who only hides behind my bf in front of u, i supports him to do well in it only.

Those pple, realli spolit my mood, make me have splitting headache, scolded baby for the second time in a day,and no mood to study. I told baby, if my stupid cousin is gg to appear on cny, n start scolding my siblings n i in front of other cousins, well, den we shall see who will win it.

Please measure ur abilities, and strengthes, noe ur weakness as well, not just ur opponents', b4 u try anything funny wif me. DONT MESS ARD WIF ME!

Colour My Life

18 mths togther = 1 and a half year....

Wow, dint noe we had been together for so long, and dat oso symbolises how long i have been accumulating all these fats. Hahaz, ever since i was wif him, both of us grow in size, not in height.

Saw xinzi today went for jog on the tracks, her hard core control in her meals intake, i look at myself....

3 yrs ago, i was a fighter n a fencer, i exercise 3 times a week for 1 and a half hours each day. I ate a lot, a bowl of rice for each meal.

Today, I dont exercise at all, drink less water, eating snacks as n when i like, fast food is my fave, no fruits intake... Dats explains my current weight! Argh...

I need the perserverance like Xinzi... She is damn pro, good in studies, determine in putting in 100% in the things she does, responsible, and have the will to carry on her goal in life! Wow, she is a miracle ger arent she?

Well, tml i shall hit the gym or tracks wif baby, will drag him along... den start my studies OFFICIALLY! All my plans for revision are screwed up by those stupid projects, but thank God, everything is over, except that I have to hand in BPC on Monday.

I shall find a place to mug, wif a good partner. Baby used to b a great partner, but he is now a great partner for relaxation. Coz he finished his attachment today! Yeah, no more Bukit Merah trips....n no more waiting for him.

Completed BB presentation today, and i realli see everyone's committment. Thankx pals!

My scheldue for tml:
Exercise
Study SMM and RM (Crunch those numbers)
Primers steamboat dinner at Sentosa tml night!

Exams are just a week away! So i shall start getting awake and started!

2 Projects down

Finally, BPC is over. I completed the individual report, and will be handing up on friday.

BB is on the way to completion. Going to consult Robert Yow tml.

I am a sad ger, coz baby is going in malaysia to help his dad next week! OMG! Haiz...

Tired... I am so tired, Haven so my revision. I need some oxygen for my brain to start working. Mayb go to gym tml after sch meetings.

Peer evaluation has its pros n cons, coz it reflects the work an inidividual does, and also just the negative side of the person is reflected, in which background preparation work should also be included as effort.

Going to slp le. Good Nite!