I m missing you! Went for driving class today. My instructor today looks so much like my taekwondo instructor, Mr Lee. He was very a very fierce instructor, who trains us like men in army. But, he is a very nice instructor, who taught us life details.

This driving instructor, i forget his name, he says i drive like a bus. Lol. Coz i sux at controlling my hand when i am doing the clutch. Hahaz. He is the only instructor who corrected all my mistakes, let me try all the circuits things.

Went gyming with sis after the lesson. A short workout session, for ard 30 mins. But, better den slacking my butt ard and whining of being fat. Wednesday another session. Yippee...

My dearest is so cute. We went to the a restaurant with his parents ytd after my work. Nice food, but, some pple dun appreciate.

I miss him. Its our 2 yr n 8th mth tml. Muackies...

I was reading the famous blogger's blog just now. What I can say is, I want to have a room like hers next time, when i have my own hse I want a private room of myself, sometimes, hard to say when couples quarrel mahx. Admire that Elizabeth can get her own hse.

I fear of going to work tomorrow. So tired. i dont know if I should go driving on 25th, should i cancel?

I miss him. Was damn happy to see him, go out with his frenz to Muthu Curry for dinner. One of his bunk mates is David, a guy who has rs with girls ard me, sth like xav.

Had family dinner just now, very yummy!

I saw a watch, that I was thinking to get for bf n myself, as couple watch. But that boy, got a very lucky brother who got him a nice watch on his 21st bdae. Hai..

My girlfriend PJ will be having her 21st birthday on 5th April. I hope i wont disappoint her, and got time to meet her on her important day. Praying Hard!

Next mth is gonna be a busy mth. Dear, please understand. pls... I know u will feel lonely, feel dejected, and tired. Sorry i might not be able to be beside you when u need me, but I will try my best to ok? Trust me...

It is raining cats and dogs, or I should say, having typhoon style of rain outside. I m wondering if the country will be flooded.

Off again today. Wanted to go bf's hse to get my warranty card for the camera, then to repair the camera, but looking at the situation, i think cuddling in bed with my Baby Pigotong (turtle) is an ideal situation.

The detox drink is nice. it is actually a mixture of fruit juice. My tummy gets smaller liaoz. Wanted to go gym, but everyday so tired. I hope the next few days is not tedious.

I just love my pedicure. Yippy! Cant wait to show my bf!

Was talking to cheeyang just now. He was telling me about the things on his desk, lucky dont have the files, else he will faint. Wonder, how will he feel if Bertram do Cpr for him? Hahaz.Interesting.

Happy birthday to gor. 27th year old liaoz. Faster get ur wife and get serious woah. He ar, so old liaoz still playful. Duno when can save enuf money to get married. He is lucky Erin is a nice lady.

Thinking of getting a tattoo. But i knwo, my dear sure have a big fuss over it. My piercing of ears alrd makes him unhappy. I intended to do naval ones as well. I m not an ah lian. Just an interest and hobby.

Tell me about saving money...Blehx. I can park my car vertically liaoz .... with a pole. lala...

After class, i went amk hub to walk, did full pedicure. Less den $30 only.... Nice nice......

Tired la. My driving makes my corn hot and painful. The pedicure soften the pain. Cant wait for my test to be over, den i can go settle this thing, after that, i can wear my nice heels again, I dislike being shorter den pple la. Then again, my bf's height, so i can only wear short heels. Lala.

Every relationship has its ups and downs, honeymoon period and critical situation. I want everyone happy. :) Beblah....

Finally, I have a perfect vision, thanks to my newly bought contact lenses! Today its the company retreat. Presentation, bowling, dinner.... What a day of work!

I totally suck at bowling. Shake heads! I think everyone find it amusing, that i throw the ball, turn around, cover my ears with both hands, and closed my eyes. Coz, i dont dare to see nor hear the results. OMG!

Dinner was fun. Laughter and laughter! I laughed so much.

Off for the next two days. Shall tidy up my room, decorate it nicely. And going for exercising. Need to change my lifestyle, no more slacking and slugging around.

I seriously need to exercise! I want to slim down. I m getting fat, fat, fat! Hahaz, my colleague is thinking that I m making him fat. Maybe, i dont like to see pple slimmer den me? Lol... Too bad!

My boyfriend just went in yesterday. Hai, y NS is 2 freaking long years? 7 months has just passed, damn slowly. I hope I can hang on. Although dear n me has been rather stable, but hope we can go overseas, to spice up the rs.

But, nevertheless, I still love him. Just that it is staling....

Every man's wish, is to have an ideal job they love, salary to be able to provide a shelter and to feed the family. When they are working, they hope to have peace. The lady of the house to be at home, maintaining the well being, cooking delicious meals for the Man, waiting from him to return from work....

I think, this is also my dearest boyfriend's wish. :) Dont say I dont understand you. I do, and I know very well.

I am no longer having the urge to dash like when i was still before my 20 year old. But, I wish you can understand, i prefer personal financial stability, and working a job that is easy and I like de.

The reason why both of us study business, is to give ourselves a chance, to explore into various aspects of this industry. Everyone deserves chances, in their life, to do what they wish to do.

Finally, I finished the "Romantic Princess" show. haha, my boyfriend always say, I am a chilli padi, and very "diao man gong zhu". Hahaz,dar, u spolit me lah... :) xin fu xiao nu ren

13th March, my virgin trip to tavern night. Quite ok la, if i m a heavy drinker. But i m not. :( Just finish 1 mug only.

My mum did a very pro thing today, she threw away my dad's laptop by mistake. lol.... Lucky its a very cheap 2nd hand laptop, $300. Useless. Discard also good. My sis got her new laptop for Poly, so dad can use her current one, which is less den 1 yr old.

My sis is applying for scholarship. Her sch offers her to dat.

Tired. Very tired. Did a major set up. My own dept colleagues are not there to help. I m alone, having to beg and ask other departments to lend me manpower to complete the set up. The whole set up starts from 10am to 4pm, with 45 min break in between. If today, I cant get any manpower to help me, i will just ask my boss to come back n do himself, or I will just quit, coz it is mission impossible. Hai, but what to do?

Off tomorrow. Driving lesson. Will take a good long rest...

Rain rain rain... its getting into my nerves! Duno y, i m getting more frustrated these days. I need him by my side more.

I was researching on the net. And came across this...

Hormone imbalance symptoms can be any one or more of the following:

Allergy symptoms
Depression, fatigue and anxiety (have)
Endometriosis
Fibrocystic breasts
Hair loss and facial hair growth
Headaches, dizziness and foggy thinking (have)
Low sex drive
Osteoporosis
PMS (have)
Urinary tract infections and incontinence
Uterine fibroids
Weight gain, water retention and bloating (have)
Wrinkly skin

HORMONE IMBALANCE causes PREMENOPAUSE and MENOPAUSE SYMPTOMS!

I hope i wun have this, but the doctor has told me, my condition is this. This is part of the reason as to my sudden severe outbreak on my skin.

Premenopause and menopause sounds scary. i m barely 21 year old. What if my period stops? What if i cant give birth to kids for my love man?

I dont know. I haven't tell Alvin about all these. Dont know if he can take it or not. Or will it be the cause of our future breakups? Argh! Looking at the list, others might just have one, but my conditions is more den one.

I duno. My life is in a mess now.

Today I m off.... Went for a new experience in my life. Enjoyed so much... Thanks to adel for the recommendation :)

My bf went in to unit alrd. I hope he is doing fine in there...

This week, so many things happened... Pregnancy, abortion etc... everything seemed so sudden. Dun worry, its not me, it is my frens ard me. Glad for those who delivered their babies smoothly, for those who has to go thru abortion, i hope they will be safe and sound.

I fell down ytd at work, again, due to floor slippery.

I want to get Oriental Silk Kimono.... Nice nice. The dried craisins are yummy!

1st March, we celebrated my dear's 21st birthday. though it came late, but, it is something that i believe he enjoyed. Instead of just a speech, I m had to do a dance with him. I think everyone love the cake and the bbq.

Thanks to all the frenz who came, and my dearest princess, Adel, who came to accompany me. She is such a pretty darling... Taught me so much...

I will buy my contact lens tml...

A good news that, my dear is booking out tml... Yeah! After his POP, everything is goin back to track. I hope he will be happier.

went to work from 9 to 12 today, den jamie, GM, Huz and myself, too "rainbow" from Changi to Sembawang. 6 hours of sailing... I was having seasick initially... thereafter, quite ok, we had a fantastic picinic session. Got hands on experience on the Corporate sailing. Cool!

Then we had dinner at Thomson, den Don sent me back home. Can I strike lottery? Haiz... So many things to get. After speaking to Adelaide over the past 2 days, it make me wonder, shld I leave for a better paying job, and better prospect?

Haiz... shall leave this question unanswered, until june. I will consider then.

I m missing him now.... I hope u will complete ur route march safely.... Jia you...

Baby just went back to camp after 5 days of mc... Misses him. Been working hard at work, accompanying him and then working at night again.

I hope i can finish the banner on time. So tired. I m very very tired. Sick, tired....

So nice of Uncle Steven n Jacklyn, to treat me nice dishes last few days. Except for boy, everyone has been treating me very nice. :)

I bought a new jacket at $20, usual at $40 ytd, and a tube dress at $18, usual $69. Ytd went his hse after my last dance class, told him abt my new purchase, he just shoot me, y spend money again.... I dint buy much clothes for cny, now sale buy oso cannot. :(

Den, wh, ken they all cant help me, coz i forget to ask them. So what, i will accomplish dem myself ok. I m helping u, becoz u r my bf. Usually, taking the service, will cost you $400 alright...

Dear, please understand lor. Your 21st birthday, i want u to be happy. But, i m not oblighed and a not MUST to do as you say. I m helping you as much as I can, but, i got my own work to do.

I know u gonna say, i m very serious abt my work. Pls, they are paying me, my future, of course la.

Helping you, yet i all i got was a scolding from you... A SCOLDING!!! :(

In just like... 1 and a half hour, it will be 26th of the mth again, which also means, 2 years and 7th mth.. With alvin...

Hai... I m so worried for him now. His speeding, he has to appear at court... I hope he will be alright, and will be able to go through the whole situation soon.

Kaiyan wans a divorce, but i cant help her. Seriously, I m tired of everything. I misses him... :) So happy to see him just now, coz... he is such a lucky boy, his parents set aside $1k for a necklace and pendent.

Finally, I submitted my first uni application, next is the other two unis, hope i can go in either of them, coz dun wish to spend my parents cash.

Praying hard, I need more luck...

Darling, please save up. Next year the travel fair, we will go and get the package for our destination! Looking forward!

Its my boy's 21st birthday ytd.... Slpt over at his hse, and i bet he must be the happiest ytd. :)

He is given 5 days MC, due to the eye problem he has. Good also, meaning he can accompany me. Bad is, lesser time for me to prepare his things. :( Haiz.

Told him about my head injury. He dint blame me for hiding from him. I will be his eyes if his eyes are injured, just like promised of take care of me if my head injury worsen.

Went to see doctor today after breakkie at Mac Donalds with dear. The doctor says not a very major head injury. The ba lu ku will dissolve soon. The worst of the head injury, will probably be head spinning and giddiness. So he gave me some medicine on that.

Today we celebrated my grandma's 80 years old. Just a simple dinner, and realised, everyone has grown older. :) Happy thing, as we matures.

Today is an unplanned off day... Coz I was sick ytd. Fainted, and i think my head hit the wall. Now when i walk, i cant seem to walk straight. Hope I will be alright.

Thinking that I still got to buy baby's bdae decoration things, and all the preparation, and my own events... Haiz. I wanted to go hospital to do an xray on it, but no time.

I hope he wun see this post.. I dint tell him I fainted. Dun want him to worried, as he got field camp for the next few days....

Cant wait to see him, hope my health will get better.

Tired.... Argh, tml is the last day, before i have an off day, counting down sia. I got an ang pow today! hahaz... it cover my taxi fare for the day alright...

Ytd went to boy's hse after work, slack with him after pepper lunch at amk. Haiz... we quarrelled. i dun wan to slp on his parents bed, but his bed is occupied by some idiotic pple. Hai, they even used his blanket and keep our tortise into the storeroom, poor pet.

When slping, i was suddenly awaken by sth... So frightened.I shaked him awake, but he refused to bludge. :( so we had a big quarrel and fight. Haiz...

I dint get to slp well, coz nightmares throughout, but the quarrel. But he is nice to sms me in the morning to apologise for it. So we made up.

Just ended work at ard 7 today,coz competition. Went to tampines and took a cab to hub to get diiner before proceeding to his hse. He promised me not to leave me alone like last night again, and gave me his hand made bouquet of chocolates and a cute lil bear. Thanks dear! I know he dint slp as he had to make this present. Thanks. I m really surprised this time, dint thought of it!

It is the company dinner tml, haiyo, so far away. This coming sat is boy's 21st bdae. Was thinking to make sth for him, but i m like so lack of slp alrd hur...

I want my beauty slp.... I have kapo my bf's psp and creative mp3, so together with my camera, I have so many technogy items in my baggie, so heavy. :(

Its our 3rd time celebrating Valentine's Day with Alvin. Thank you for the nice pink rose. I love u!

:) I m a happy girl, and i hope to stay this way. Ytd when he told me he got nights out, i went to JP to see him. He was late, so I queued for Fish n Co myself, so long queue, for half an hr,and everyone is looking at me, y i m alone?

At least, I m happy. :) Thanks. I hope u like the boxer. Cheez!

Work today is so tedious, i bet i must have walked ard the club for 15 times. My feet is damn hurtful.

He is booking out tml. Yeah!

Say I am wasting my money... Hopefully not, praying hard.... Uni application is opened. And I have just applied for NTU. Ok, i know my GPA sux, but, just for fun ok?

Happy Chinese New Year. This is the fourth day. I am a happy girl this new year. His parents gave me such a big ang pows, I gave his family yu sheng for prosperity.

His aunty, Aunty May, recommended me a job, with better prospect, $300 higher den my current pay. But i just turned it down. Becoz, firstly, I like my current colleagues, den, I going back to school, dun want to waste pple's time. Also, it will be stressful to work with his relatives, and on first day, I went temple to pray, the pray turns out that my efforts will be paid off this year. Hope so. I hope I made the right decision. :)

My 6th aunt's son, my baby cousin is so cute.... Seriously cute....

Yesterday, 9th Feb, baby finally sees my parents. He came my hse to bai nian with my parents. hahaz, he says he is not happy. :( bad la u....

Work starting tml... Haiz. Hope my work will be more fun. :)

Ytd went to my gf's hse bai nian. Ok, I m going to be the first to get married ok? Hahaz, see how la... If my bf has the career and money, I dun even mind engaging now.... coz love already exist between us, just the lack of ability to start a family.

He just booked in, I hope he will be fine.

My Happiest Moments in these two days... Even though I got to work late yesterday, Vin is nice to come to Tanah Merah MRT to meet me. We took cab to Hougang with Clara, den to Boy's hse. He got our second couple rings from PS before meeting me, and when i was talking to Clara, he slipped it on my finger. Sweets! I was damn tired, that i fell aslp on the cab.

When reaching his hse, i head for the bed immediately. Hahaz... baby says I was mumbling the whole night, slp talking. He dint get to slp well, coz he was massaging me to make me relax from the nightmares I am having. Thank you!

He just booked in, but he will be booking out tml evening! Yeah! I am a happy girl. I m looking forward to the cny. Smiles*

No quarrels for us these two days, just smiles and hugs! We just eat, and slp. The only place for shopping is NTUC, coz it was a rainy day. How i wish our meeting time will always be like this, so much better. :) Hoping that Vdae he can have timeout. *please please.....

I m getting so fat, like an elephant! Boy, stop feeding me la. I m like a FAT ass now. :( Super sad. Shall target at my 42kg.

Tml is monday, I shall slp early now, den tml go tampines for eyebrow after work, come home do some packing... Tues is class again, and then, Wednesday is New Year's Eve.... Tata

Bread or Love?

Bread... i need to be gan en tu bao. Although i m no longer happy like i used to be, but I learn many things there before.

Love... This morning, i received an sms from him, he says " feel our time tgt not enough, feel machiam I'm single lidat'...

" the thoughts of having u spurs me on...the thoughts of wanting to support u drives me on. But i really got to make it clear and truthful to u now, coz last night cant slp n kept thinking... realised I cant take it anymore.. I seriously dun mind if u have to work on weekends or have sth on, but i just feel we are seriously not spending enough time tgt... Maybe my fault, maybe your, i duno.. Just know I m having that very lonelyfeeling even on weekends."

I dont know how to tell u this. but, u think i like to work in weekends instead of accompanying u? U think i like to make u feel lonely? When u are not ard in weekdays becoz u have no choice, do u know how i felt, how time passed so slowly for me? U think I like to make our rs turn out this way?

Bread or love, they affect my future. Without u in my life, i felt sth is out of place. But, my career now determines my future. Not as in I m going to work there forever, but the testimonials and all.

U rmb, i told u before, before i work for this job, i gave u 2 options, the PR one, or the events one. u told me to choose for myself. I did, but now, u are giving me pressure on this.

Alvin, arent the relationship suppose to be compromising... I duno how to explain to u, how difficult this whole year has been for me? The weekends are just 2 days a week, the rest of the fives days, its difficult for me, very difficult.