Help! All my fats are going to my face! I got damn so chubby cheeks now. Bee says I look like chip munk now. Idiot!

Went to watch Enchanted with Alvin just now. It is a highly recommended show by some of my colleagues, even huzaini says its nice. But i felt bad, not attending sharon's son's birthday celebration. I made up for it, by making some balloons for the boy as deco, and chip in with clara for the learning laptop. Hope he enjoys himself, coz don already dint fulfill his promise for this little boy. I dont wish that he feel neglected, as someone gave him a hope, yet accomplish nothing.

Enchanted is just alright to me. The girl is pretty, and boy hopes i can be as gentle as her. hahaz. wait lor. Maybe, happily ever after, is not something practical, so i dont really enjoyed it.

I hope I can tahan, to still love him as much, coz my mood swing is really getting into me, and we are quarrelling so much. Sori, but my health is getting weaker, so i get angry and pissed more easily. Sometimes, I just wish, everything could go back to our education days. but, that is past, i got to move on. We promised to try to walk through the 2 years, i will definately put in my best.

I asked you, did u treat any of ur ex as well as u treat me now? You asked me, what do i think?

When u told me about Lena, that u felt guilty abt the way u had treated her, i understand how u felt. Thats y, I have been having this feeling, she is a great girl, you had let her down. I can feel she still loves u dat time, dats y i wanted to walk away from you, so that you can make up for her, to the harm that u had imprinted on her. I know the pain she is going through, especially, all of us are related to each other. However, its you who chose not to choose her. You had made the decision, and we got to be responsible, so we wont create another regret again.

Its not abt the gifts u showered me with, its not abt the quantity of time we spent with each other. Its about understanding each other. These few days, u told me, u were rather surprised i understandand know what u were thinking, even b4 u wanted to tell me. Ya i know. Its becoz i understands u too well, dats y sometimes, i fear for our future.

I really fear that we will go back to the pre NS days, where I have to hide in corners, to hide my fears, tirdness everything to myself. I dont know, everything is making me so confused, including my present and our future.