its another wedding tml.... Everytime when i see people's wedding, i will wonder, will I ever get married? I know boy will read this post, but, dear, things are hard to determine la....
Went towning after my auto driving lesson with Adel. This pretty lady is heartbroken, and I finally met her after like, 9 mths? I missed her tons. We had a great time taking abt bfs, abt love, relationships, travellings etc. i would very much like to join them to their trip in bangkok, but, sorry girl, i cant la...
Ytd, i finally realised, she understands me so well. many people said, Eileen, you loves alvin more den he does to you. Yup, at times. But in most cases, my bf loves me more, for those friends who knows me very well... There was this saying, getting loved is much easier and better den loving someone.
Oh yes, the Minds Cafe, Kendrick and Weehoon team up to play taboo against Alvin n myself. Hahaz, their first word was "vibrate" and weehoon is supposed to describe it to ken. Hahaz, the way she described, alvin n myself laughed till crazy! Lol, oops, we know some of u guys secret! Wahahaz.
Happy girl!
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Festive mood
Haven blogged, due to me being so busy... Its the festive season, so, I had been equally busy!
In my previous post, I was still working. I ended work dat day at 12.30am, and reached home at almost 1am! Alamak! Adel called me dat day. She complaint that she hasnt seen me for almost a year. Girl, i missed u too. Not that I always push my bf to accompany u when u get heartbreaks, but I am always so busy. The little girlfriend just broke up, and is mending her heart.
Ray's son is so cute....
Then, on 23rd Dec, mahjong competition. After dat, we went to Riverside Indonesian Restaurant for dinner, 6pax mounts up to $99. Wow! Thereafter, we went to Ice Cold Beer Bar for drinking session. i guessed i was a little drunk dat night. Went home with Elizabeth. We spoke alot dat night... Reached home like ard 1am as well
24th Dec, I half day, went to work for only 2 hrs. Was told to attend to someone as instructed by the GM. Then I mit alvin, we had lunch at bugis, ma mansion. Nice place but quite ex. The night, we meet kendrick and weehoon at Taka, walked in town, had dinner at The Village at Heeren. After that, we walked to Paradise Centre to Minds Cafe. Played for 2 hrs, damn fun, esp Taboo! had the Rocher dou hua, yummy!!! We wished each other Merry Christmas, before going home.
This is the first yr, i get to go out so late, and count down with my friends... especially memorable.
I meet my boy at 12 noon today. Merry Christmas to all! We slpt, coz both of us unwell, and tired. Till 4pm, while we went to Bishan to have our meals, at Thai Express! Nice food! Spicy though.
I bought my contact lens, grey colour. Its festive season, so must be different.
We watched Alvin and the Chipmunks, my boyfriend is so happy! Nice show! Dear, loves u.
he is booking in tml to SISPEC. Hope everything goes well for him. I going for my auto driving tml, den meet my girlfriend adel.
I am in the festive mood!
In my previous post, I was still working. I ended work dat day at 12.30am, and reached home at almost 1am! Alamak! Adel called me dat day. She complaint that she hasnt seen me for almost a year. Girl, i missed u too. Not that I always push my bf to accompany u when u get heartbreaks, but I am always so busy. The little girlfriend just broke up, and is mending her heart.
Ray's son is so cute....
Then, on 23rd Dec, mahjong competition. After dat, we went to Riverside Indonesian Restaurant for dinner, 6pax mounts up to $99. Wow! Thereafter, we went to Ice Cold Beer Bar for drinking session. i guessed i was a little drunk dat night. Went home with Elizabeth. We spoke alot dat night... Reached home like ard 1am as well
24th Dec, I half day, went to work for only 2 hrs. Was told to attend to someone as instructed by the GM. Then I mit alvin, we had lunch at bugis, ma mansion. Nice place but quite ex. The night, we meet kendrick and weehoon at Taka, walked in town, had dinner at The Village at Heeren. After that, we walked to Paradise Centre to Minds Cafe. Played for 2 hrs, damn fun, esp Taboo! had the Rocher dou hua, yummy!!! We wished each other Merry Christmas, before going home.
This is the first yr, i get to go out so late, and count down with my friends... especially memorable.
I meet my boy at 12 noon today. Merry Christmas to all! We slpt, coz both of us unwell, and tired. Till 4pm, while we went to Bishan to have our meals, at Thai Express! Nice food! Spicy though.
I bought my contact lens, grey colour. Its festive season, so must be different.
We watched Alvin and the Chipmunks, my boyfriend is so happy! Nice show! Dear, loves u.
he is booking in tml to SISPEC. Hope everything goes well for him. I going for my auto driving tml, den meet my girlfriend adel.
I am in the festive mood!
Saturday, December 22, 2007
I am damn bored. Blogging from office? Haiz, coz I m still in office at this time, 8.37pm. And i supposed I will be working till 11pm today. Tat will be 12 hours of work, considering tml will be a major taskf ro me, coz I will be handling most of the things.Haiyo....
Someone just asked me, can I remember when is my first date? Interesting, I can say. Even my babes may not know abt my first date.
I called dear, and asked him the same question. He cannot remember. I forgive him. Y? Coz ours is a complicated case. If you asked me abt Royston and me firstd ate, I can clearly rememeber the day to Queensway when he first held my hand.
But taking about Alvin and I, we were together before we officially announced to the others. We held hands etc before we are together. Many of u say, I am putting a very big stake. What if the guy dont love me? Coz alvin was liking his partner at BAOC then. Lets put it this way, you may say that I wooed him to love me, but I was damn happy when he told others I am his Girlfriend. Sweets!
Getting his attention and his liking den was damn difficult then, coz he is a big popular boy, due to the Singapore Idol. I even had a classmate of mine, who questioned me that, You think he really loves u? Yayaz, that time, my polymate told me to ignore her, coz she is propbably jealous that a person like me can have a bf.
Ok enough to that question.
Someone just asked me, can I remember when is my first date? Interesting, I can say. Even my babes may not know abt my first date.
I called dear, and asked him the same question. He cannot remember. I forgive him. Y? Coz ours is a complicated case. If you asked me abt Royston and me firstd ate, I can clearly rememeber the day to Queensway when he first held my hand.
But taking about Alvin and I, we were together before we officially announced to the others. We held hands etc before we are together. Many of u say, I am putting a very big stake. What if the guy dont love me? Coz alvin was liking his partner at BAOC then. Lets put it this way, you may say that I wooed him to love me, but I was damn happy when he told others I am his Girlfriend. Sweets!
Getting his attention and his liking den was damn difficult then, coz he is a big popular boy, due to the Singapore Idol. I even had a classmate of mine, who questioned me that, You think he really loves u? Yayaz, that time, my polymate told me to ignore her, coz she is propbably jealous that a person like me can have a bf.
Ok enough to that question.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
KL Trip 2007
I enjoyed myself thoroughly! Thanks dear! Loves!
2 yrs plus, going 2 and a half years. Going to malaysia a few times, tis the first time, just the two of us, to KL. 16 Dec, after work, his mum came to fetch me from work, and we went to have Sakura Buffet for dinner. After dat, she sent us to Tanjong Pagar to board the train. I dint slp well...
We checked in to Melia Hotel on 17 dec. We reached KL at 6.30am. Thank goodness, they have vacant room, we checked in ard 9am, and slack till 11 plus. Hahaz... while people checked in ard 12 noon. After resting, we went shopping at Times Square. I seriously love the christmas decorations in KL, they are awfully pretty!
Darling brought me to Mines Wonderland. I dint know what is it abt. We had a tiff, but was over soon enough. I almost though he brought me to zoo, coz of the animals i saw there. But, when i saw the ice scupltures, i know, its my dreamland, that i had been wanting to go since young. Finally, i saw it, and they are damn nice. With all the colours and the nice designes, even have Olympics 2008.
18 Dec, we went to KLCC to shop. Bought my Mizuno shoes. Nice.... And then went to Times Square shop, and bought my Levis' Jeans. I bought alot of things over the two days. Gulity la boy. We also combed Sungei wang and BB Plaza.
19 Dec, slacked ard, bought boy's pants and off we go to KL Central to board our train at 2pm. We reached Singapore at 12 mid night. My butt went flat lah.
Tonnes of photos had been taken. Shall put them into a cd, and make into a video, for our memory to be kept intact.
Went to baby's hse to slp overnight, den went to work in the afternoon. Tml we are going to celeb huz n don's bdae. Sorri babes, i cant meet u guys,coz my colleagues bdae. Shall meet u gers soon.
2 yrs plus, going 2 and a half years. Going to malaysia a few times, tis the first time, just the two of us, to KL. 16 Dec, after work, his mum came to fetch me from work, and we went to have Sakura Buffet for dinner. After dat, she sent us to Tanjong Pagar to board the train. I dint slp well...
We checked in to Melia Hotel on 17 dec. We reached KL at 6.30am. Thank goodness, they have vacant room, we checked in ard 9am, and slack till 11 plus. Hahaz... while people checked in ard 12 noon. After resting, we went shopping at Times Square. I seriously love the christmas decorations in KL, they are awfully pretty!
Darling brought me to Mines Wonderland. I dint know what is it abt. We had a tiff, but was over soon enough. I almost though he brought me to zoo, coz of the animals i saw there. But, when i saw the ice scupltures, i know, its my dreamland, that i had been wanting to go since young. Finally, i saw it, and they are damn nice. With all the colours and the nice designes, even have Olympics 2008.
18 Dec, we went to KLCC to shop. Bought my Mizuno shoes. Nice.... And then went to Times Square shop, and bought my Levis' Jeans. I bought alot of things over the two days. Gulity la boy. We also combed Sungei wang and BB Plaza.
19 Dec, slacked ard, bought boy's pants and off we go to KL Central to board our train at 2pm. We reached Singapore at 12 mid night. My butt went flat lah.
Tonnes of photos had been taken. Shall put them into a cd, and make into a video, for our memory to be kept intact.
Went to baby's hse to slp overnight, den went to work in the afternoon. Tml we are going to celeb huz n don's bdae. Sorri babes, i cant meet u guys,coz my colleagues bdae. Shall meet u gers soon.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
KL trip is confirmed. Yeah! I am looking forward to it. Both of us are very happy these two days. Tml we are having a staff party at Yishun area, dear says he might come n fetch me. Thanks.
Hai, work tml.... Dun feel like going back work. :( The boy is having is guard duty now.. hope everything will be fine.
Hai, work tml.... Dun feel like going back work. :( The boy is having is guard duty now.. hope everything will be fine.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
I am Happy! Thanks. Sometimes, i just felt, did u read my blog? Hahaz... I felt so calm today, no frustation, no irritation. The day is filled with laughter, smiles, on me n alvin. Happiness.
His POP today! He is happy, coz i fulfilled his another wish, to have his gf beside him for the POP. Congrats dear! Thanks, u made my day today. Or maybe my mood is good.
I m ordering the colour contacts from Korea. Hahaz, Fadilah, my colleague, was asking me why I am not wearing contact lens le. hahaz, she was damn happy when i told her the yearly lens is more worth it.
he says, he going to throw in 1k, for out KL trip. WOW, i m spending ard $450 for our accomodation and transportation. I doubt we gonna spent o much over there.
I am enjoying my two days off!
His POP today! He is happy, coz i fulfilled his another wish, to have his gf beside him for the POP. Congrats dear! Thanks, u made my day today. Or maybe my mood is good.
I m ordering the colour contacts from Korea. Hahaz, Fadilah, my colleague, was asking me why I am not wearing contact lens le. hahaz, she was damn happy when i told her the yearly lens is more worth it.
he says, he going to throw in 1k, for out KL trip. WOW, i m spending ard $450 for our accomodation and transportation. I doubt we gonna spent o much over there.
I am enjoying my two days off!
Monday, December 10, 2007
Romance in the Air! My colleagues, my friends, are all happily in a rs, married or getting pregnant. My colleague at SCH is getting married, shall not say who here, coz i have to keep it a secret. Everyone is happy, but Eileen is not.
He asked me, when ever he asked me to pei him, i always need to go home early. I know you are reluctent to leave me, you want me to accompany you further. You think I do not wish to do so mahx? You asked me, y i go out with my colleagues can stay out late, but with you, i have to leave early. Whatever you want to think.
I wanted to go on off day with you, becoz i want to find back the deep love dat i had for you. I m happy, dat i have you, becoz you are a dream guy that any girl would want. But, I hope both of us will have a good time overseas.
I know i m rash, irrational, impatient, careless.... If you think, i m not worth being a good girlfrend, you can tell me straight, we can discuss. I m not as gentle as the girls out there. You made me feel so dejected last night.
I dont know how to tell u all these, coz i know we are bound to quarrel. Do you know you nvr think y i can go out with my colleagues late? becoz its after my work, so tis much easier for me to tell my mum. If i go out with u late, how am I going to tell her? like "mum, i m going dating today, so I m not going to accompany you tonight?" I dont know how to behave or how I should handle things.
I want to be happy, can I? Eileen is so unhappy..... :(
He asked me, when ever he asked me to pei him, i always need to go home early. I know you are reluctent to leave me, you want me to accompany you further. You think I do not wish to do so mahx? You asked me, y i go out with my colleagues can stay out late, but with you, i have to leave early. Whatever you want to think.
I wanted to go on off day with you, becoz i want to find back the deep love dat i had for you. I m happy, dat i have you, becoz you are a dream guy that any girl would want. But, I hope both of us will have a good time overseas.
I know i m rash, irrational, impatient, careless.... If you think, i m not worth being a good girlfrend, you can tell me straight, we can discuss. I m not as gentle as the girls out there. You made me feel so dejected last night.
I dont know how to tell u all these, coz i know we are bound to quarrel. Do you know you nvr think y i can go out with my colleagues late? becoz its after my work, so tis much easier for me to tell my mum. If i go out with u late, how am I going to tell her? like "mum, i m going dating today, so I m not going to accompany you tonight?" I dont know how to behave or how I should handle things.
I want to be happy, can I? Eileen is so unhappy..... :(
Friday, December 07, 2007
I hope the boyfriend will remeber to sort out our trip thingy. I gave up planning, and will leave the brain thinking part to him. Its good for the guys to make decision, so he will feel man, and will reduce the stress i m having.... *evil
Congratulations to Chee Yang, he finally got his dream girl. Hope things will work out perfectly well for them. i remember when I first saw him, and spoke to him, my impression was, is he a monk from the temple up the hills? 5 years w/o gf, how can dat be... Rare species, or maybe extinct. Opportunity costs, u gain some, u lose some. But this time, his gain is more than the lost, who knows, you might be back to Australia with the girl, which will probably makes you trip more worthwhile and memorable.
Maybe, my instinct is still working well after all. hahax, it depends if people are willing to listen or not la. Elaine, I told u before, kelvin is a good guy. You cant deny, that so many bfs u had, he is the one who can truly loves u, and treat u the best. Since things cant work out between you, i feel, friendship can still be maintained.
Don asked me today, for me to go sembawang. I immediately says i dont want. i hope they know, if they really post me to sembawang, i will serve my last mth there, and dats it. Coz i wont be happy there.
i want to watch the Golden Compass, and my dear wants to watch Alvin and the Chipmunk. Oh yes, talking abt the show, Jamie was laughing when i told her "alvin and the chipmunk", meaning, i m the chipmunk, coz my boyfriend is Alvin! haiyo... Not funny la, say i look like snoopy, den now chipmunk. I know I am getting fatter. Argh.
3 more days, to Mr Kok's POP.... Yeah! Finally. Happy and sad. Meaning no more going to Pasir Ris to fetch him, which seems like my weekly chore. Yet, happy coz he is done with his 3mths.....
Cab to his hse with his bunk mate and the girlfriend. I told him, i dont mind going out with his bunk mates, if their gfs are going. he told me, tml they going to play soccer, and the girlfriends are going, except me. :( okok, my fault again. Dats my job nature. I hope he can get used to it la...
Thanks dear, for sending me home. So long dint feel the special feeling le. :) Happy! I am an easily satisfied girl alright....
Congratulations to Chee Yang, he finally got his dream girl. Hope things will work out perfectly well for them. i remember when I first saw him, and spoke to him, my impression was, is he a monk from the temple up the hills? 5 years w/o gf, how can dat be... Rare species, or maybe extinct. Opportunity costs, u gain some, u lose some. But this time, his gain is more than the lost, who knows, you might be back to Australia with the girl, which will probably makes you trip more worthwhile and memorable.
Maybe, my instinct is still working well after all. hahax, it depends if people are willing to listen or not la. Elaine, I told u before, kelvin is a good guy. You cant deny, that so many bfs u had, he is the one who can truly loves u, and treat u the best. Since things cant work out between you, i feel, friendship can still be maintained.
Don asked me today, for me to go sembawang. I immediately says i dont want. i hope they know, if they really post me to sembawang, i will serve my last mth there, and dats it. Coz i wont be happy there.
i want to watch the Golden Compass, and my dear wants to watch Alvin and the Chipmunk. Oh yes, talking abt the show, Jamie was laughing when i told her "alvin and the chipmunk", meaning, i m the chipmunk, coz my boyfriend is Alvin! haiyo... Not funny la, say i look like snoopy, den now chipmunk. I know I am getting fatter. Argh.
3 more days, to Mr Kok's POP.... Yeah! Finally. Happy and sad. Meaning no more going to Pasir Ris to fetch him, which seems like my weekly chore. Yet, happy coz he is done with his 3mths.....
Cab to his hse with his bunk mate and the girlfriend. I told him, i dont mind going out with his bunk mates, if their gfs are going. he told me, tml they going to play soccer, and the girlfriends are going, except me. :( okok, my fault again. Dats my job nature. I hope he can get used to it la...
Thanks dear, for sending me home. So long dint feel the special feeling le. :) Happy! I am an easily satisfied girl alright....
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
When u like someone, u will do things willingly for him, and some things dat u do, you will not let him know. That one sweet kiss melted your beautiful soul...
There was this period of time, dat i love him alot, yet he likes other girls.... everything is so different then. Yeah, u can say is I auto first de, anything.
The magical moments. Those hurt dat i had, i will nvr forget. However, i will nvr forget the care that u has given me. Although so many things happened, its ur care and concern that makes me agree to walk on this NS life with u. I hope u will treasure these time, as what will happen in future, i really dont dare to think.
I was remebered telling him, about my kindergarden friend, derrick, of whom i still kept in contact thanks to Royston. He was unhappy, as he nvr knew I has this guy friend who exist. I am glad to have known Derrick. Thanks friend.
Off today, slack at home till 2.30, den went driving lesson. Stupid weather, i progress damn slowly. Haiz. Directional Change, damn difficult :(. Without him ard, i have slowly overcome my fear of the lightning and thunder. Which means I will no longer snugger up to him when it comes to the rainy season.
My eyes is itchy and reddish today. Duno isit of infection, or isit some itchness. Shldnt be infection,as I haven been wearing contact lens since last month, unless, i sway sway got it from someone else.
Sad la, tml i alone AGAIN! Hate it sia, damn boring de. I want to watch the Golden Compass, Alvin and the chipmunk.... I wanted to watch The heartbreak kid, but sadly, its for those 21 years old and above only. Alright, I m still not yet an adult, so, i am not entitled for this.
My ibanking device finally arrived. This is my second time applying for it. I hope mummy dont throw it away again. She is still sick! :( I went home after driving,coz she is alone at home.
Time to wrap presents, for the wonderful christmas. Next up, its my sis and my mum's bdae on Jan. Haiyo, mummy's present I know wat to give her le. But sis de, I dont know yet.
Thinking thinking thinking..........
There was this period of time, dat i love him alot, yet he likes other girls.... everything is so different then. Yeah, u can say is I auto first de, anything.
The magical moments. Those hurt dat i had, i will nvr forget. However, i will nvr forget the care that u has given me. Although so many things happened, its ur care and concern that makes me agree to walk on this NS life with u. I hope u will treasure these time, as what will happen in future, i really dont dare to think.
I was remebered telling him, about my kindergarden friend, derrick, of whom i still kept in contact thanks to Royston. He was unhappy, as he nvr knew I has this guy friend who exist. I am glad to have known Derrick. Thanks friend.
Off today, slack at home till 2.30, den went driving lesson. Stupid weather, i progress damn slowly. Haiz. Directional Change, damn difficult :(. Without him ard, i have slowly overcome my fear of the lightning and thunder. Which means I will no longer snugger up to him when it comes to the rainy season.
My eyes is itchy and reddish today. Duno isit of infection, or isit some itchness. Shldnt be infection,as I haven been wearing contact lens since last month, unless, i sway sway got it from someone else.
Sad la, tml i alone AGAIN! Hate it sia, damn boring de. I want to watch the Golden Compass, Alvin and the chipmunk.... I wanted to watch The heartbreak kid, but sadly, its for those 21 years old and above only. Alright, I m still not yet an adult, so, i am not entitled for this.
My ibanking device finally arrived. This is my second time applying for it. I hope mummy dont throw it away again. She is still sick! :( I went home after driving,coz she is alone at home.
Time to wrap presents, for the wonderful christmas. Next up, its my sis and my mum's bdae on Jan. Haiyo, mummy's present I know wat to give her le. But sis de, I dont know yet.
Thinking thinking thinking..........
Monday, December 03, 2007
I m having all the negative feelings now, worried, unhappy, stressed, sad... My colleague just asked me, why I am having white hair at this young age. Partly, it is due to my chemically treated hair, and also the stress dat i been having.
Ok, i know i shldnt put all the blame on u, for educating me to have more responsibility. But, your words, made such a big impact on me, that i felt all the stress, for fear of making mistakes at work, fear of you being unhappy when i cant accompany you, fear of everything. its weighing on me. :(
Worried, coz mummy is very sick now. I m worried abt her health, coz i feel some negative thoughts abt this time she fell sick.
Unhappy and sad, coz he is at the 24km walk, coz his leg got injuries, den the stupid boy, went for soccer for 2 days during the weekend. I m unhappy coz he duno how to take care of himself. I nvr request u to pei me shop this week, even though i really wanted u to. Worried abt him, whther he can complete it safely or not.
I am stressed, i dont know how to plan for the days after ur POP. I know those 2 weeks are very precious to u, and i really want to accompany u, but, sometimes, i have no choice. I dont know how to put across to u, but, i m really feeling so stressed over everything.
Whats more stress was,Justin gave me a ring just now. I was surprised to see his name appearing on my phone. Haiz. he told me dat he has a gd news for me, but to me, its a bad news. He told me I will be promoted, coz he is resigning alrd. This is not a gd news! Meaning, i might be posted to sembawang! Just checked my email, omg, the woman, simply cant wait sia, sent me an email, asking me to reply a wedding enquiry. really got to be careful when handling with her. STRESSED!
I dont know what to do la, everything is so negative, my life is so down. Haiz. i want to be happy.
Sorry my ladies, if i cant go on 21st dec, pls understand ok, i will try.
Ok, i know i shldnt put all the blame on u, for educating me to have more responsibility. But, your words, made such a big impact on me, that i felt all the stress, for fear of making mistakes at work, fear of you being unhappy when i cant accompany you, fear of everything. its weighing on me. :(
Worried, coz mummy is very sick now. I m worried abt her health, coz i feel some negative thoughts abt this time she fell sick.
Unhappy and sad, coz he is at the 24km walk, coz his leg got injuries, den the stupid boy, went for soccer for 2 days during the weekend. I m unhappy coz he duno how to take care of himself. I nvr request u to pei me shop this week, even though i really wanted u to. Worried abt him, whther he can complete it safely or not.
I am stressed, i dont know how to plan for the days after ur POP. I know those 2 weeks are very precious to u, and i really want to accompany u, but, sometimes, i have no choice. I dont know how to put across to u, but, i m really feeling so stressed over everything.
Whats more stress was,Justin gave me a ring just now. I was surprised to see his name appearing on my phone. Haiz. he told me dat he has a gd news for me, but to me, its a bad news. He told me I will be promoted, coz he is resigning alrd. This is not a gd news! Meaning, i might be posted to sembawang! Just checked my email, omg, the woman, simply cant wait sia, sent me an email, asking me to reply a wedding enquiry. really got to be careful when handling with her. STRESSED!
I dont know what to do la, everything is so negative, my life is so down. Haiz. i want to be happy.
Sorry my ladies, if i cant go on 21st dec, pls understand ok, i will try.
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Looking at the website now, coz i m bored. I felt the urge, to further my studies in the University of Adelaide. They did a good extensive research on the accomodation, http://www.adelaide.edu.au/accommodation/consider/. Maybe, i should consider..... How how how... Got to persuade my parents, and my boyfriend. Haiz... what to do
Pissed off! My phone is making my blood boil. The new phone, used merely 2 mths, it went crazy. First, its the paint, so I got to spend extra money to buy a case for it, den it is the dat when pple call me i cant hear dem, after dat is, i cant even hear the ringing tone when i call people. Next, its the screen went black and blank, and the whole screen even went inverted! I am damn angry with it, till i want to threw it on the phone.
Now, i m using my bro's old phone. not bad la. Still usable. The Samsung people says will help me repair for 3 to 5 days, and offered to redo the paint for me first time free. I hope they do a good job.
Just logged in to my face book account, wow, i got 29 people to approve into friends list.
Boy, sorry, my mood swing was bad just now. Thanks for the ben n jerry ice cream, that u used to make me smile :) happy!
Now, i m using my bro's old phone. not bad la. Still usable. The Samsung people says will help me repair for 3 to 5 days, and offered to redo the paint for me first time free. I hope they do a good job.
Just logged in to my face book account, wow, i got 29 people to approve into friends list.
Boy, sorry, my mood swing was bad just now. Thanks for the ben n jerry ice cream, that u used to make me smile :) happy!
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Help! All my fats are going to my face! I got damn so chubby cheeks now. Bee says I look like chip munk now. Idiot!
Went to watch Enchanted with Alvin just now. It is a highly recommended show by some of my colleagues, even huzaini says its nice. But i felt bad, not attending sharon's son's birthday celebration. I made up for it, by making some balloons for the boy as deco, and chip in with clara for the learning laptop. Hope he enjoys himself, coz don already dint fulfill his promise for this little boy. I dont wish that he feel neglected, as someone gave him a hope, yet accomplish nothing.
Enchanted is just alright to me. The girl is pretty, and boy hopes i can be as gentle as her. hahaz. wait lor. Maybe, happily ever after, is not something practical, so i dont really enjoyed it.
I hope I can tahan, to still love him as much, coz my mood swing is really getting into me, and we are quarrelling so much. Sori, but my health is getting weaker, so i get angry and pissed more easily. Sometimes, I just wish, everything could go back to our education days. but, that is past, i got to move on. We promised to try to walk through the 2 years, i will definately put in my best.
I asked you, did u treat any of ur ex as well as u treat me now? You asked me, what do i think?
When u told me about Lena, that u felt guilty abt the way u had treated her, i understand how u felt. Thats y, I have been having this feeling, she is a great girl, you had let her down. I can feel she still loves u dat time, dats y i wanted to walk away from you, so that you can make up for her, to the harm that u had imprinted on her. I know the pain she is going through, especially, all of us are related to each other. However, its you who chose not to choose her. You had made the decision, and we got to be responsible, so we wont create another regret again.
Its not abt the gifts u showered me with, its not abt the quantity of time we spent with each other. Its about understanding each other. These few days, u told me, u were rather surprised i understandand know what u were thinking, even b4 u wanted to tell me. Ya i know. Its becoz i understands u too well, dats y sometimes, i fear for our future.
I really fear that we will go back to the pre NS days, where I have to hide in corners, to hide my fears, tirdness everything to myself. I dont know, everything is making me so confused, including my present and our future.
Went to watch Enchanted with Alvin just now. It is a highly recommended show by some of my colleagues, even huzaini says its nice. But i felt bad, not attending sharon's son's birthday celebration. I made up for it, by making some balloons for the boy as deco, and chip in with clara for the learning laptop. Hope he enjoys himself, coz don already dint fulfill his promise for this little boy. I dont wish that he feel neglected, as someone gave him a hope, yet accomplish nothing.
Enchanted is just alright to me. The girl is pretty, and boy hopes i can be as gentle as her. hahaz. wait lor. Maybe, happily ever after, is not something practical, so i dont really enjoyed it.
I hope I can tahan, to still love him as much, coz my mood swing is really getting into me, and we are quarrelling so much. Sori, but my health is getting weaker, so i get angry and pissed more easily. Sometimes, I just wish, everything could go back to our education days. but, that is past, i got to move on. We promised to try to walk through the 2 years, i will definately put in my best.
I asked you, did u treat any of ur ex as well as u treat me now? You asked me, what do i think?
When u told me about Lena, that u felt guilty abt the way u had treated her, i understand how u felt. Thats y, I have been having this feeling, she is a great girl, you had let her down. I can feel she still loves u dat time, dats y i wanted to walk away from you, so that you can make up for her, to the harm that u had imprinted on her. I know the pain she is going through, especially, all of us are related to each other. However, its you who chose not to choose her. You had made the decision, and we got to be responsible, so we wont create another regret again.
Its not abt the gifts u showered me with, its not abt the quantity of time we spent with each other. Its about understanding each other. These few days, u told me, u were rather surprised i understandand know what u were thinking, even b4 u wanted to tell me. Ya i know. Its becoz i understands u too well, dats y sometimes, i fear for our future.
I really fear that we will go back to the pre NS days, where I have to hide in corners, to hide my fears, tirdness everything to myself. I dont know, everything is making me so confused, including my present and our future.
Friday, November 30, 2007
He is coming out later... yeah! Somtimes, i wonder, his POP is not even over, I still have so many more lonely months to carry on myself. I hope I can be better.
Its Christmas soon, then I have to think about my trip in feb, my boy's birthday, Vdae presents... OMG, seriously, how am I going to think abt the presents for him. What to give him? Ya boy, i know u will want to know what I plan to give you.
So soon, its your 21st birthday. i promised u before, i will pei u for the birthday. Your 21st leh, can tell me what you want? Xbox 360? New Laptop? New Portable Harddisk? or what?
I hope to make urs a special unique one.
I just received an email, from NP Sch of BA, from the alumni, class 2007 graduates gathering. Cool, its on the 8th Dec. i shall plan to see if I can make it. Cross fingers, I hope i can. pray hard! Shall see if boy is going or not.
I am watching a show now, underage teenage girl pregnant with her bf, and they left home to keep the child. Its a nice sad story. At least she is brave enough. I always admire these girls, at least, they never regret their decision. But the girl is so poor thing, the boy left her alone, and still says she is troublesom. Guys are always lidat, b4 marriage say one thing, after is another.
Its Christmas soon, then I have to think about my trip in feb, my boy's birthday, Vdae presents... OMG, seriously, how am I going to think abt the presents for him. What to give him? Ya boy, i know u will want to know what I plan to give you.
So soon, its your 21st birthday. i promised u before, i will pei u for the birthday. Your 21st leh, can tell me what you want? Xbox 360? New Laptop? New Portable Harddisk? or what?
I hope to make urs a special unique one.
I just received an email, from NP Sch of BA, from the alumni, class 2007 graduates gathering. Cool, its on the 8th Dec. i shall plan to see if I can make it. Cross fingers, I hope i can. pray hard! Shall see if boy is going or not.
I am watching a show now, underage teenage girl pregnant with her bf, and they left home to keep the child. Its a nice sad story. At least she is brave enough. I always admire these girls, at least, they never regret their decision. But the girl is so poor thing, the boy left her alone, and still says she is troublesom. Guys are always lidat, b4 marriage say one thing, after is another.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Working is damn tiring....I want to enjoy life! Chee yang went overseas today, Don going tml. My poor weekend... Lucky, initally wanted me to go meeting, den in the end dun nid to go.
I also want go overseas also. Haiz... Its damn hard. Cant even go for my salsa dance.
I had gotten permission from don, to do my laser operation again, in Jan 2008. Xav is kind to lend me his crutches, but, got his arm pit smells, eeee! But thanks man. At least, i dont need to hop ard the club or walk bare footed on the road. :)
I shall got redang with jov in Feb. She has a new bf alrd. Glad u have moved on. :)
I want to watch Enchanted! Hope i have got time.
I want my operation soon. My corn is killing me.
I also want go overseas also. Haiz... Its damn hard. Cant even go for my salsa dance.
I had gotten permission from don, to do my laser operation again, in Jan 2008. Xav is kind to lend me his crutches, but, got his arm pit smells, eeee! But thanks man. At least, i dont need to hop ard the club or walk bare footed on the road. :)
I shall got redang with jov in Feb. She has a new bf alrd. Glad u have moved on. :)
I want to watch Enchanted! Hope i have got time.
I want my operation soon. My corn is killing me.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Although my boy dint celebrate with me, though i very much would like him to go through my 3rd birthday with him, but I still have an enjoyable day yesterday.
My besties, due to work and exams, are forgiven for not being able to make it. hey girls, u gers own me one.
My colleagues came, my sis's frenz came. Her frenz came, and lend me use the nintendo. Damn fun. I shall buy nintendo.
Thanks to those colleagues to attended:
Mr Sim, Ping, Clara, Rose, James Lim, Jamie, Chris, Huzaini, Jov, Don, Cheeyang, Uncle Stephen.
And my aunt, my parents who helped me in this. :)
Although Vin failed to give me a very big surprise, coz I guessed it, but my colleagues gave me some pleasant surprises. I love the camera vin gave me, though not the colour which I wanted, but, it is cool black.
Happy 28th mth, boy! Sorry, was damn busy ytd to talk to u very long on the phone. My birthday wish dat i made... was related to you. Hope it will come true.
Was browing friendster, saw comments from some friends wishing me. Thanks.
With all the food I ate, i felt so fat today. Ya, some people will sure tell me I m not fat, I just just meaty. With my girlfriends around, they always tell me, i m fat comparing to them. They weigh 40 to 41kg, height ard 154cm to 161cm lehx... i m surely fat in front of them. maybe its just the guy and lady defination of fat is different.
To a girl, meaty or with excess fats, is fat. For guy, meaty is just nice, excess fats is fat. my colleagues will sure say, i m not fat, when complain to them i want to go on diet. :( Hard to saw la. Even my boy says, i m fat. Ya, i m indeed fatter le, when i used to have flat tummy instead of bulging one, i used to have slimmed tighs and tonned arms.... Now i have thunder big ones and flabby arms. Sad
I shall replace my ibanking device, i really cant do without it, esp with all dat net shopping i do.
My besties, due to work and exams, are forgiven for not being able to make it. hey girls, u gers own me one.
My colleagues came, my sis's frenz came. Her frenz came, and lend me use the nintendo. Damn fun. I shall buy nintendo.
Thanks to those colleagues to attended:
Mr Sim, Ping, Clara, Rose, James Lim, Jamie, Chris, Huzaini, Jov, Don, Cheeyang, Uncle Stephen.
And my aunt, my parents who helped me in this. :)
Although Vin failed to give me a very big surprise, coz I guessed it, but my colleagues gave me some pleasant surprises. I love the camera vin gave me, though not the colour which I wanted, but, it is cool black.
Happy 28th mth, boy! Sorry, was damn busy ytd to talk to u very long on the phone. My birthday wish dat i made... was related to you. Hope it will come true.
Was browing friendster, saw comments from some friends wishing me. Thanks.
With all the food I ate, i felt so fat today. Ya, some people will sure tell me I m not fat, I just just meaty. With my girlfriends around, they always tell me, i m fat comparing to them. They weigh 40 to 41kg, height ard 154cm to 161cm lehx... i m surely fat in front of them. maybe its just the guy and lady defination of fat is different.
To a girl, meaty or with excess fats, is fat. For guy, meaty is just nice, excess fats is fat. my colleagues will sure say, i m not fat, when complain to them i want to go on diet. :( Hard to saw la. Even my boy says, i m fat. Ya, i m indeed fatter le, when i used to have flat tummy instead of bulging one, i used to have slimmed tighs and tonned arms.... Now i have thunder big ones and flabby arms. Sad
I shall replace my ibanking device, i really cant do without it, esp with all dat net shopping i do.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Loves!!! Wheet! So sorry dear, make u spent soooo much on my bdae gift. I dint ask for anything, yet u gave me something i wanted. Thank you.
My boy, gave me T70 for my bdae gift, though walking from 19 year old to 20 yr old is a very big step for me, esp without him beside me during the day, he gave me his best. Thanks. I dint want it, esp from u, coz its damn ex... I rmb my 18th birthday, u gave me the handphone. This year, the phone gave up on me, and u gave me a camera. You told me you wish that we can take many pictures together, leaving the footsteps and footpaths we had walked through together.
Tml the ladies are all damn so busy, sad. Haiz... nvm, shall enjoy myself with the siblings in the day after my driving, den i shall enjoy myself...
Was arguing with boy abt the material for a wife. he wans to overwork his wife! He expects her to cook uper nice food, look after her kids herself without maid or nanny, maintain the hse clean n tidy.... Oh well, get an overseas maid lor... easier still. We had swesens today. Saw Eric n Zulia at White Sands... Everyone is there, to send their bfs in, so i m one of the poor girls who has to deposit the bf with the govt for 1 week, to learn how to be a man and protect his country.
My colleagues will be coming down. lets see... and my aunts... Nights. Cheers to my last hour of my 19th year. I will grow up.
My boy, gave me T70 for my bdae gift, though walking from 19 year old to 20 yr old is a very big step for me, esp without him beside me during the day, he gave me his best. Thanks. I dint want it, esp from u, coz its damn ex... I rmb my 18th birthday, u gave me the handphone. This year, the phone gave up on me, and u gave me a camera. You told me you wish that we can take many pictures together, leaving the footsteps and footpaths we had walked through together.
Tml the ladies are all damn so busy, sad. Haiz... nvm, shall enjoy myself with the siblings in the day after my driving, den i shall enjoy myself...
Was arguing with boy abt the material for a wife. he wans to overwork his wife! He expects her to cook uper nice food, look after her kids herself without maid or nanny, maintain the hse clean n tidy.... Oh well, get an overseas maid lor... easier still. We had swesens today. Saw Eric n Zulia at White Sands... Everyone is there, to send their bfs in, so i m one of the poor girls who has to deposit the bf with the govt for 1 week, to learn how to be a man and protect his country.
My colleagues will be coming down. lets see... and my aunts... Nights. Cheers to my last hour of my 19th year. I will grow up.
Friday, November 23, 2007
He is finally out tml. I hope they can let him out earlier, like ard 1pm, pls pls.... He has been very sweet, giving me nice smses, and my inbox is flooded with uber sweet stuffs. See, girls are easy to coax ok...
My eyes are sore red now, i hope it will be alright. And my stupid corn beneath my feet, pain sia. M right feet has abrasion. Pain lor... now i walk like a penguin, wobbling.
Elaine, u got to move on. Hope u r doing fine. We will be there for u, if u need us, dun keep everything to yourself. Rmb Andrew, when both of u ended, its he chose his ex over u. Jeffery with his ridiculous requests? Dont ever go back to him again. You will meet ur Mr Right soon.
Haiyo... I keep getting the same question the whole day today, from my kind colleagues. What you want fo your birthday. I seriously appreciate their offer, it is damn nice of them to have such thought, so but I only hope they will come and accompany me, thats all. i am a simple girl ok.
A couple of days more, to my 20th. the big 2. Dreadful. I want to remain as 19. :(
Ytd went concourse to buy stuffs with my colleagues, and we had steamboat from 8 to 10. Nice food alright. Nice companionship with Clara, ping, rose and don. Surprisingly, the ladies ate sooo much. Fat la, tell me abt dieting.
Haiz, look like to got to give up my salsa dance on 15th dec. :( But i scared i do not have time to go for the rest of my classes... I dont wish to drag my time, it has been my passion.
My eyes are sore red now, i hope it will be alright. And my stupid corn beneath my feet, pain sia. M right feet has abrasion. Pain lor... now i walk like a penguin, wobbling.
Elaine, u got to move on. Hope u r doing fine. We will be there for u, if u need us, dun keep everything to yourself. Rmb Andrew, when both of u ended, its he chose his ex over u. Jeffery with his ridiculous requests? Dont ever go back to him again. You will meet ur Mr Right soon.
Haiyo... I keep getting the same question the whole day today, from my kind colleagues. What you want fo your birthday. I seriously appreciate their offer, it is damn nice of them to have such thought, so but I only hope they will come and accompany me, thats all. i am a simple girl ok.
A couple of days more, to my 20th. the big 2. Dreadful. I want to remain as 19. :(
Ytd went concourse to buy stuffs with my colleagues, and we had steamboat from 8 to 10. Nice food alright. Nice companionship with Clara, ping, rose and don. Surprisingly, the ladies ate sooo much. Fat la, tell me abt dieting.
Haiz, look like to got to give up my salsa dance on 15th dec. :( But i scared i do not have time to go for the rest of my classes... I dont wish to drag my time, it has been my passion.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
I am a lucky girl, with lots of food to eat. Yeah, if there is a heavyweight championship, i will top the female category. What i ate today:
Morning: bread with nutella, bun, calcium drink
Lunch: Mui fan (3/4), chicken soup, tibits, potong ice cream, turkey meat (thanks Steven)
Dinner: BBQ at downtown east with 2 chicken wings, 3 satays, soft drink, beehoon
How to not fat, when i eat so much. I will go on strict diet. 2 meals a day, breakfast and dinner. I hope i can do so sia, coz i will end up having lunch with my colleagues, coz they sure say i m not fat. But my face is seriously getting so meaty and rounder. :( super upset.
I want to sign up the salsa course on 15th dec, but, we have a family day on the date. Thinking to go on half day, but, not sure if my boss will allow or not. I really want to learn. Haiz.
Its nice to hear from frens whome u seldom met, telling you, hey i miss you! Thanks girls. These ladies had been very sweet.
My birthday list, ended up with most of my colleagues. Coz it is a monday, my aunts are invited, but they cant attend, coz, of my cousin's wedding the following day. Maybe i shall not go back work on 27th, since i m being told to work on 24th, hmph! My colleagues age range from 23 to 50 plus, whereby 40s and 50s are higher, so, i guess daddy is going to have a shock with pple of his age. Hahahz.
My pretty ladies are probably coming. Do come girls, i misses u gers, though we just met a couple of days ago. You girls got to show my colleagues, that i m fat, while the 3 of u are the perfect figure. Yes!
The list goes:
- Ping
- Clara
- Rose
- Steven
- Chris
- Jamie
- Don
- Chee yang
- Mr Sim
- Kristen
- Elaine
- Michelle
- Xavier
I m planning for my food now. Dont know which package to take. As usual, the indecisive me.
Oh yes, just now at downtown east, Jamie, Chris and I got hooked on a machine, that gives sweets and soft toy. Chris is a pro, she won 2 Stitch with less than a $50, while pple spent $35, but nvr get anything. And she also got more and 1 kg worth of sweets and biscuits. Damn fun!!!
Boy passed is IPPT today. Finally! So meaning no more RT, and he can accompany me longer in Sundays. But, he signed up for the drill competition, which means he cant call me in these few days. Asked him y he joined it, he says, for the coy, and the pride, and the balls. Basket la!
Whatever. Since his POP is on 12 Dec, i am planning for a short trip overseas or getaway with him.
Morning: bread with nutella, bun, calcium drink
Lunch: Mui fan (3/4), chicken soup, tibits, potong ice cream, turkey meat (thanks Steven)
Dinner: BBQ at downtown east with 2 chicken wings, 3 satays, soft drink, beehoon
How to not fat, when i eat so much. I will go on strict diet. 2 meals a day, breakfast and dinner. I hope i can do so sia, coz i will end up having lunch with my colleagues, coz they sure say i m not fat. But my face is seriously getting so meaty and rounder. :( super upset.
I want to sign up the salsa course on 15th dec, but, we have a family day on the date. Thinking to go on half day, but, not sure if my boss will allow or not. I really want to learn. Haiz.
Its nice to hear from frens whome u seldom met, telling you, hey i miss you! Thanks girls. These ladies had been very sweet.
My birthday list, ended up with most of my colleagues. Coz it is a monday, my aunts are invited, but they cant attend, coz, of my cousin's wedding the following day. Maybe i shall not go back work on 27th, since i m being told to work on 24th, hmph! My colleagues age range from 23 to 50 plus, whereby 40s and 50s are higher, so, i guess daddy is going to have a shock with pple of his age. Hahahz.
My pretty ladies are probably coming. Do come girls, i misses u gers, though we just met a couple of days ago. You girls got to show my colleagues, that i m fat, while the 3 of u are the perfect figure. Yes!
The list goes:
- Ping
- Clara
- Rose
- Steven
- Chris
- Jamie
- Don
- Chee yang
- Mr Sim
- Kristen
- Elaine
- Michelle
- Xavier
I m planning for my food now. Dont know which package to take. As usual, the indecisive me.
Oh yes, just now at downtown east, Jamie, Chris and I got hooked on a machine, that gives sweets and soft toy. Chris is a pro, she won 2 Stitch with less than a $50, while pple spent $35, but nvr get anything. And she also got more and 1 kg worth of sweets and biscuits. Damn fun!!!
Boy passed is IPPT today. Finally! So meaning no more RT, and he can accompany me longer in Sundays. But, he signed up for the drill competition, which means he cant call me in these few days. Asked him y he joined it, he says, for the coy, and the pride, and the balls. Basket la!
Whatever. Since his POP is on 12 Dec, i am planning for a short trip overseas or getaway with him.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Working for almost 12.5hrs on a sunday, is absolutely crazy, esp when i was working OT almost everyday for the past few days.... siao sia. Monday, ytd, was finally my off day. Went driving, almost had leg cramp, coz i walk too much during work, and went to thaiexpress with my ladies, den the birthday girl, kristen, want to drink, so we went to Kandi Bar, walking from esplanade to clarke quay, in boots. Drank Abosulte Vodka Kurrunt, and i got seh.... I left in an hrs time, while the ladies continued, coz the girls got no work n sch, while i got to drag my ass out of my bed the next day. Talk abt financial freedom ar, but i lost my precious freedom.
Elaine, your rs is the first case my instinct fail me. Maybe, we are not mature enough to handle the rs, or maybe, he is not good enuf tow at u deserve. Whatever the case, so long as u r happy. :)
I want to learn salsa. I told vin abt it, and he is jealous, coz i m goign to dance with other guys. Dancing is my fave since young, but due to my back problem, i stopped. I want to get rid of my fats and big bum, so dancing back for me again. I had signed up alrd, just hoping, my work load wun pull me too be too tired to dance. i want to dance when i m still young.
I need some exercise to keep myself fit again, yet lazy me, dont like to run, so, i shall dance. besides, i can wear the heels dat i love.
Damn tired today, i did a set up for a school with my poor colleague, coz the whole office only have 2 guys, other den the boss. my boss is down with cough, and he is damn shag, and the other one has exams. Oh well, i have nth to comment, just do what i shld do, den relax my day. My feet and back hurts. Alamak, i must have walked too much.
Argh, i getting fatter....Yoga for me please.
Elaine, your rs is the first case my instinct fail me. Maybe, we are not mature enough to handle the rs, or maybe, he is not good enuf tow at u deserve. Whatever the case, so long as u r happy. :)
I want to learn salsa. I told vin abt it, and he is jealous, coz i m goign to dance with other guys. Dancing is my fave since young, but due to my back problem, i stopped. I want to get rid of my fats and big bum, so dancing back for me again. I had signed up alrd, just hoping, my work load wun pull me too be too tired to dance. i want to dance when i m still young.
I need some exercise to keep myself fit again, yet lazy me, dont like to run, so, i shall dance. besides, i can wear the heels dat i love.
Damn tired today, i did a set up for a school with my poor colleague, coz the whole office only have 2 guys, other den the boss. my boss is down with cough, and he is damn shag, and the other one has exams. Oh well, i have nth to comment, just do what i shld do, den relax my day. My feet and back hurts. Alamak, i must have walked too much.
Argh, i getting fatter....Yoga for me please.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Before i forget, 26th Nov...
Add ins
- Huz
- Ping
- Rose
- Clara
Looks like, most of my colleagues going. Haiz, who ask my friends to be overseas, studying and working. Den my gor and his gf too shy to come.
I am tired. Hai. Dear, can u do guard duty for till the end of Decemeber. Its not dat i dun wan to see you, but, I really felt tired at times, having to meet u after work, den take a stupid 1.5hr bus to ur hse for u to change, den pei u half an hour, before i take a 30 min bus home. Pei u half an hr, and u will complain i spend too little time wif u, when i need to go home to rest, recharge. Haiz... I dun wish to quarrel with u always. Its straining between us, with my life and your NS life, making us mood swing, angry, uphappy etc. I just wish to be a happy girl.
Elaine n kelvin patched. Good news. The monsoon season is here, but my silly girlfriend, elaine, was saying that she wans to go Redang in these 2 mths. Crazy. I told her i m going, and we said that, the four of us will go there together someday.
Knowing each other since 13 yrs old, 7 yrs of perfect friendship, yet we dint go overseas together before. Mich, convince your daddy la, if not xavier go oso can. The most, the 8 of us go together, just ask kristen to get a bf lor. All of us love the sea, calm sea. I am lucky to be able to see it almost everyday. But, looking at sth nice, yet not with the ones I love, it is still nothing special.
I was reading a primary sch fren's blog just now, her sister, whom i knew, and doted her before, was sent to girls home. Haiz. Cant they just treasure their youth, and dun do funny things, dat you will regret, like how i have spent my past away.
Slping time. Cheers to better skin.
Add ins
- Huz
- Ping
- Rose
- Clara
Looks like, most of my colleagues going. Haiz, who ask my friends to be overseas, studying and working. Den my gor and his gf too shy to come.
I am tired. Hai. Dear, can u do guard duty for till the end of Decemeber. Its not dat i dun wan to see you, but, I really felt tired at times, having to meet u after work, den take a stupid 1.5hr bus to ur hse for u to change, den pei u half an hour, before i take a 30 min bus home. Pei u half an hr, and u will complain i spend too little time wif u, when i need to go home to rest, recharge. Haiz... I dun wish to quarrel with u always. Its straining between us, with my life and your NS life, making us mood swing, angry, uphappy etc. I just wish to be a happy girl.
Elaine n kelvin patched. Good news. The monsoon season is here, but my silly girlfriend, elaine, was saying that she wans to go Redang in these 2 mths. Crazy. I told her i m going, and we said that, the four of us will go there together someday.
Knowing each other since 13 yrs old, 7 yrs of perfect friendship, yet we dint go overseas together before. Mich, convince your daddy la, if not xavier go oso can. The most, the 8 of us go together, just ask kristen to get a bf lor. All of us love the sea, calm sea. I am lucky to be able to see it almost everyday. But, looking at sth nice, yet not with the ones I love, it is still nothing special.
I was reading a primary sch fren's blog just now, her sister, whom i knew, and doted her before, was sent to girls home. Haiz. Cant they just treasure their youth, and dun do funny things, dat you will regret, like how i have spent my past away.
Slping time. Cheers to better skin.
Monday, November 12, 2007
I enjoyed my off day throughly today. Yeah! I went for driving at 10.30, my fave instructor, so i enjoyed the lesson, despit of the stupid weather or rain and shine throughout the whole lesson. Den went to taka to meet my dearest elaine. She just changed her hp. It has been so long, since we went to town together, which was last christmas. And i have not been towning since so long.
Both of us, shopped like no tomorrow. I spent ard $100 today, she, spend ard $500, the shopping queen! I bought a book, costing $16.80 from kinokuniya, Holiday for Couples. I love the graphics in it. looking forward to travel, to all the wonderful places featured in the book. I shall carry this book whereever i go. Bought kris's present, shall not reveal yet, in case she read it here, but, the original price was $115 woah. Hope that lady will love it.
I lost my Romeo and Juliet book, and the Abraham's Promise. Was talking wif elaine abt our literature days, we are still loving it so much, and we nvr regret taking it as our major subject instead of Geography. Literature is such a nice culture, and she makes me feel regretful, dat i dint go for the Phantom of the Opera last yr. Haiz. Debra tan taught us well, and both of us did well, writing queen in our poly days, where we can write damn fast, every single word of what the lecturer said.
Mich and xav came to find us after xav's check up. Nice to meet again! I realise, when we try to arrange a timing, it wont work, if we have last mintue calling, it works. Elaine quarrel with kelvin, and he called me, after elaine refused to pick up his calls. Y is it that he cant understand wat she wans, instead of insisting that she wans a break up, was due to her intake of medication. I know elaine got mental health problem, which was partially caused by her ex bf. If u treasure her, u shld not presurrize her.
Dont feel like going work tml. I enjoyed myself today so much.
Updates to the birthday chalet:
- Jamie
- Mr Sim
- Cheeyang
- Don
- Justin (pending)
- Kristen (pending as Bryan is coming back)
- Xav and Mich (depending on their scheldue, likely to be on)
- Elaine (depending on her work, likely to be on)
- WH and Ken (pending)
- Pamela (pending)
hey people, let me know if u guys want to stay over, so i can make arrangements la. 2 weeks away, to my BIG 2. Rahimah's Bachlorette party upcoming.... Fun fun fun!
Although i misses u at times, but, when i say i hope dat u can do more guard duties now, it does not mean dat i dont wish to see u, It so happens i m too busy to accompany u, I do not want both of us to quarrel, to be unhappy or feeling damn tired, which will do us no good. Also, if u do the guard duty now, when u take ur block leave, we can enjoy, instead of u having to report back to camp. U might not understand y i m doing so.
Both of us, shopped like no tomorrow. I spent ard $100 today, she, spend ard $500, the shopping queen! I bought a book, costing $16.80 from kinokuniya, Holiday for Couples. I love the graphics in it. looking forward to travel, to all the wonderful places featured in the book. I shall carry this book whereever i go. Bought kris's present, shall not reveal yet, in case she read it here, but, the original price was $115 woah. Hope that lady will love it.
I lost my Romeo and Juliet book, and the Abraham's Promise. Was talking wif elaine abt our literature days, we are still loving it so much, and we nvr regret taking it as our major subject instead of Geography. Literature is such a nice culture, and she makes me feel regretful, dat i dint go for the Phantom of the Opera last yr. Haiz. Debra tan taught us well, and both of us did well, writing queen in our poly days, where we can write damn fast, every single word of what the lecturer said.
Mich and xav came to find us after xav's check up. Nice to meet again! I realise, when we try to arrange a timing, it wont work, if we have last mintue calling, it works. Elaine quarrel with kelvin, and he called me, after elaine refused to pick up his calls. Y is it that he cant understand wat she wans, instead of insisting that she wans a break up, was due to her intake of medication. I know elaine got mental health problem, which was partially caused by her ex bf. If u treasure her, u shld not presurrize her.
Dont feel like going work tml. I enjoyed myself today so much.
Updates to the birthday chalet:
- Jamie
- Mr Sim
- Cheeyang
- Don
- Justin (pending)
- Kristen (pending as Bryan is coming back)
- Xav and Mich (depending on their scheldue, likely to be on)
- Elaine (depending on her work, likely to be on)
- WH and Ken (pending)
- Pamela (pending)
hey people, let me know if u guys want to stay over, so i can make arrangements la. 2 weeks away, to my BIG 2. Rahimah's Bachlorette party upcoming.... Fun fun fun!
Although i misses u at times, but, when i say i hope dat u can do more guard duties now, it does not mean dat i dont wish to see u, It so happens i m too busy to accompany u, I do not want both of us to quarrel, to be unhappy or feeling damn tired, which will do us no good. Also, if u do the guard duty now, when u take ur block leave, we can enjoy, instead of u having to report back to camp. U might not understand y i m doing so.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Damn it! I almost almost almost want to lodge a police report, for the lost of my little green driving book. Thanks to her, she still can say, my impt stuff duno how to put properly. Hello! My last driving class was when u told me to start packing. And I put everything into a basket. Its U! Who starts to touch my things when i was working. Idiot la. Lucky sis told her, i usually put my driving book into the LuLu Australia pouch that i bought, and that woman, happily took it out from my sister's bag, which was thrown to a hole where only she, will know where it is. Damn it la.
So, the poor me, instead of having two driving classes tml, will have 1 lesson only. Wasting my time AGAIN! Nvm, i shall go shopping in town alone tml after driving. I need to destress. Retail therapy always works. Talking abt that, that woman told me, since u so rich now, can lose your book, so go do the police report and start all over again la! Starting all over again leh! She still says, my sis and i, inherited the mental problem, which was running in my family blood. Ok, i know my grandmother has it, a few of my cousins have it, if i have it, u will have it oso lor. So are u saying, all of us are mad? This is crazy. u made me panic like hell lor, imagine the effort i put in, was almost all gone.
Haiya, enough of venting. past few days had been fruitful, despite being busy and tired. 8th Nov is Kristen's birthday, 9th Nov was Jov's Birthday. Happy birthday, ladies!
10th Nov, Project Lighthouse, we worked till late. My back was killing me, damn pain like hell. But i got to keep on going. The fun part was, the end where everyone had a bit of toasting to the success of the whole event. Den, the guys got to help the guests to push a manual car, coz the battery went flat. First time to see such thing. Huz was funny, to explain y he dint run, coz he do not own a bludging tummy. Justin ran 2 rounds, Cheeyang go 1 round, huz went half round, don went 1 round. GM the best, he drove the car. Smart man! Justin send me home, but i brought him to went around. Haha, went the wrong way. Sorry sorry.
Today was damn tiring. After reaching home at 11pm for the project lighthouse, Mr Kok requested me to go his hse for breakfast with him at 7pm. As usual, I cant wake up, plus i got his sickness of cough, sore throat. I felt so feverish. So, i cabbed down to his hse, reaching ard 8am. We slpt for a while, eat while dat lazy bum pack his stuffs, den we cabbed to pasir ris, coz he is a slow coach in packing la. Stupid boy. Forever so slow.I felt so tired, due to my almost break out fever, so i took bus 88 home, slpt for an hr, den went to work without lunch. I told him, he is the luckiest guy in the world sia, gf sick oso go to his hse, accompany him, and i always pick him up when he books out, sends him in when he books in.
I popped 2 panadol extra strong today, to prevent the fever from breaking out, but my muscles and back are damn pain. Fantastic. Work was ok, doing calling. Don asked me, y i came work today. Alamak. Sometimes, i ask for half day, he will ask me, schldued ar. Today i dint request, he come asking me, why i report to work. Sian, shld have taken time off. but i have tons of stuffs to do.
I had 2 bottles of honey lemon today, which i bought from chinese medicine shop, coz my hse run out of the two ingredients, lemon and honey. My sore throat is better, and my cough is healed. But my fever is threatening to break out. So, i m drinking ginseng now, i hope i dun have fever.
Mich has been asking me, to celebrate kris belated bdae. yaya, i know. But i m dead beat, and no time la. Mummy has been asking me to go overseas, i oso want. But i dun wan to go wif the family, coz i know the outcome.
Don asked me ytd, if he resigns, what will i do. He told me, the other two, said they will leave. My answer to him is, since u are leaving, den y shld i stay. Isnt dat a direct answer? The reason y i m staying with this hectic job, is the envirnoment and the people here. If the happy pple are gone, happy days are gone too.
Mr Kok was saying abt my previous blog entry, of wanting a new bf for bdae present. I know he very sad la. Dint expect u to read my blog la. It was a joke. As long as u dont try sth funny, and dont say break up, my principle still applies. I dont break with people de. Yup, unless u want to break my heart for watever reason lor. So far, since army u had been gd and nice to me. But i hope, this will continue after NS. The boy, lost his gun in field camp, so confinement is expected la. So, u learn ur lesson.
I want to do eyelash extension. Yup, wait till i get permission from him first. I think i look nice is dresses, but, i m fat and i m not a gentle lady. So, shall build up on dat first.
I am getting weaker, keep getting sick, think its my lack of exercise, and shag, dats y my body is getting from bad to worst.
Today is a special day, everyone in the office, knocks off at 6pm. Exactly. Cool huh. Its seldom the case. I had Aijisen with family, our family dinner since ages.
I hope tml will be a better day. My hair is starting to curl. I am considering to cut it short. But when i look back at my secondary school photo, i look damn horrible den. Shld i? Or shld i cut short, den reborn it? Recommendation?
So, the poor me, instead of having two driving classes tml, will have 1 lesson only. Wasting my time AGAIN! Nvm, i shall go shopping in town alone tml after driving. I need to destress. Retail therapy always works. Talking abt that, that woman told me, since u so rich now, can lose your book, so go do the police report and start all over again la! Starting all over again leh! She still says, my sis and i, inherited the mental problem, which was running in my family blood. Ok, i know my grandmother has it, a few of my cousins have it, if i have it, u will have it oso lor. So are u saying, all of us are mad? This is crazy. u made me panic like hell lor, imagine the effort i put in, was almost all gone.
Haiya, enough of venting. past few days had been fruitful, despite being busy and tired. 8th Nov is Kristen's birthday, 9th Nov was Jov's Birthday. Happy birthday, ladies!
10th Nov, Project Lighthouse, we worked till late. My back was killing me, damn pain like hell. But i got to keep on going. The fun part was, the end where everyone had a bit of toasting to the success of the whole event. Den, the guys got to help the guests to push a manual car, coz the battery went flat. First time to see such thing. Huz was funny, to explain y he dint run, coz he do not own a bludging tummy. Justin ran 2 rounds, Cheeyang go 1 round, huz went half round, don went 1 round. GM the best, he drove the car. Smart man! Justin send me home, but i brought him to went around. Haha, went the wrong way. Sorry sorry.
Today was damn tiring. After reaching home at 11pm for the project lighthouse, Mr Kok requested me to go his hse for breakfast with him at 7pm. As usual, I cant wake up, plus i got his sickness of cough, sore throat. I felt so feverish. So, i cabbed down to his hse, reaching ard 8am. We slpt for a while, eat while dat lazy bum pack his stuffs, den we cabbed to pasir ris, coz he is a slow coach in packing la. Stupid boy. Forever so slow.I felt so tired, due to my almost break out fever, so i took bus 88 home, slpt for an hr, den went to work without lunch. I told him, he is the luckiest guy in the world sia, gf sick oso go to his hse, accompany him, and i always pick him up when he books out, sends him in when he books in.
I popped 2 panadol extra strong today, to prevent the fever from breaking out, but my muscles and back are damn pain. Fantastic. Work was ok, doing calling. Don asked me, y i came work today. Alamak. Sometimes, i ask for half day, he will ask me, schldued ar. Today i dint request, he come asking me, why i report to work. Sian, shld have taken time off. but i have tons of stuffs to do.
I had 2 bottles of honey lemon today, which i bought from chinese medicine shop, coz my hse run out of the two ingredients, lemon and honey. My sore throat is better, and my cough is healed. But my fever is threatening to break out. So, i m drinking ginseng now, i hope i dun have fever.
Mich has been asking me, to celebrate kris belated bdae. yaya, i know. But i m dead beat, and no time la. Mummy has been asking me to go overseas, i oso want. But i dun wan to go wif the family, coz i know the outcome.
Don asked me ytd, if he resigns, what will i do. He told me, the other two, said they will leave. My answer to him is, since u are leaving, den y shld i stay. Isnt dat a direct answer? The reason y i m staying with this hectic job, is the envirnoment and the people here. If the happy pple are gone, happy days are gone too.
Mr Kok was saying abt my previous blog entry, of wanting a new bf for bdae present. I know he very sad la. Dint expect u to read my blog la. It was a joke. As long as u dont try sth funny, and dont say break up, my principle still applies. I dont break with people de. Yup, unless u want to break my heart for watever reason lor. So far, since army u had been gd and nice to me. But i hope, this will continue after NS. The boy, lost his gun in field camp, so confinement is expected la. So, u learn ur lesson.
I want to do eyelash extension. Yup, wait till i get permission from him first. I think i look nice is dresses, but, i m fat and i m not a gentle lady. So, shall build up on dat first.
I am getting weaker, keep getting sick, think its my lack of exercise, and shag, dats y my body is getting from bad to worst.
Today is a special day, everyone in the office, knocks off at 6pm. Exactly. Cool huh. Its seldom the case. I had Aijisen with family, our family dinner since ages.
I hope tml will be a better day. My hair is starting to curl. I am considering to cut it short. But when i look back at my secondary school photo, i look damn horrible den. Shld i? Or shld i cut short, den reborn it? Recommendation?
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Happy Deepavali! And Happy Birthday to my dearest sister, best friend and buddy, Kristen! Happy 20th Birthday! After her birthday, it will be mine. I am the youngest among the four of us. Kristen and I know each other for 10 yrs le. We are only 20 yr old leh. See, we treasure our friendship.
Took half day today. Wore the expensive dress, went town meet boy. He made me pissed off with his dressing. T-shirt and shorts again, almost with slipper. If he wears slipper, i am going home. We watched "Game plan". Super nice! Lots of learning point, boy and i enjoyed it.
Had ben and jerry ice cream, yummy. Oh yes, I had fish and chip in the cinema. Out first trip to watch movie at The Cathay Cineplex. So kukoo.
After dat, he wans me to have dinner with his family, at Fish and Co at PS. Reluctantly, i joined them. Before dat, my heels are killing me. So, i bought the haivanas sandals, for $49.90. The one i have in the office, is turning yellow, so the new pair, i got it as black. I joined dem, and i ate very little. Sea Monkey freeze is not as nice as Jungle freeze. The bill comes up to $89. Uncle said its cheap. Whatever. Talking abt business again during dinner. Haiz, forever. But now, not abt the shoes only, also abt investing in Indonesia, and maybe Vietnam and Philipines for Bird Nest.
Tml, I m not going home. Going to spend the night with him. Coz he is very unhappy that i dun have time for him. Not like i want to. He even told me, he wished that i can quit my job now, to accompany him all day long. What to do. Haiz....
Took half day today. Wore the expensive dress, went town meet boy. He made me pissed off with his dressing. T-shirt and shorts again, almost with slipper. If he wears slipper, i am going home. We watched "Game plan". Super nice! Lots of learning point, boy and i enjoyed it.
Had ben and jerry ice cream, yummy. Oh yes, I had fish and chip in the cinema. Out first trip to watch movie at The Cathay Cineplex. So kukoo.
After dat, he wans me to have dinner with his family, at Fish and Co at PS. Reluctantly, i joined them. Before dat, my heels are killing me. So, i bought the haivanas sandals, for $49.90. The one i have in the office, is turning yellow, so the new pair, i got it as black. I joined dem, and i ate very little. Sea Monkey freeze is not as nice as Jungle freeze. The bill comes up to $89. Uncle said its cheap. Whatever. Talking abt business again during dinner. Haiz, forever. But now, not abt the shoes only, also abt investing in Indonesia, and maybe Vietnam and Philipines for Bird Nest.
Tml, I m not going home. Going to spend the night with him. Coz he is very unhappy that i dun have time for him. Not like i want to. He even told me, he wished that i can quit my job now, to accompany him all day long. What to do. Haiz....
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
It is soo sweet, to receive replies from people whom I have msged abt my birthday. Whether or not you are going, thanks for the effort to reply me.
Received an sms from Adelaide, asking me wat prezzie i want, and dat she misses me. Woah! Dats damn sweet! I miss u too girl, we have not been towning together for very long. I hope dec will pass soon, so i will have my weekends back to see my girlfriends.
So sad i cant see her on my birthday, coz its monday. Damn it! Argh, i wishes to see her soon. Missing her like nuts. Ok, i m a lesbian alright!
Boy also put a smile on my face today. i was tired at work, staring at the computer, answering phone calls with people screaming into my ear (just dun understand y some pple cannt talk softly over the phone). His sms goes like this "If cant meet then I'll stalk u lor =p Go pop while u meeting client and disturb u while u doing set ups=D So... i think u better be able to pei me ah... If not u sure mah fan liaoz"
Sori la, i very busy mahx. Lucky I m not studying part time, arbo i sure go bonkers.
I was clearing my hp inbox... Since i m in good mood today, I was uber happy, when i read thru a poem he wrote " Baby ah... U damn cute sia... I Cant forget ur looks... Deeply engraved in my mind... Will use that memory to push myself thru the upcoming challenges. I'm ur star guiding u, and u're my fuel pushing me on. Only tgt, i think, can we move on in life =p" This was sent to me before he went to field camp. Although it is rather mushy, but it is very nice of him.
"Late at night when all the world is slping I stay up and think of u And i wish on a star that somewhere u are thinking of me too, yes I do..... Coz I'm dreaming of u tonight, till tml and for all of my life, And there is no where in the world i'd rather be, than thinking of u, dreaming abt u n me.."
Sometimes, when i really wanted to give up in this relationship, coz of all the orderal i have to go thru, all these msges keep me going on. He has grown up. He finally understands what i want. I need new memories of our rs, not just the old ones. And he did it. Thanks.
lala... I am a happy little girl for now. I hope this will last. no more tearing for me please!
Adds on to my birthday list:
- Kristen (pending)
Just log in to Erin's blog (gor's girlfriend), this is what she has wrote:
answer to eileen's question in her blog
hey ger ,i can only reply in my blog cuz yr have no tagboards!
haha ...you posted a qn in yr entry :"There was a saying that i heard before, a person with a strong front, is actually weaker in the interior. Is that true?"
well... i guess its true haha... well .. i've seen such ppl ... they put on a strong front because they dun wan ppl to see their weakness...on the exterior...
he/she may look so strong, so confident and all..ppl envy them but actually deep down its not like tt at all... they may have even lower self-esteem than others!
i guess they are just very particular abt how ppl will judge them... tt's y they put up a strong front ...they dun want ppl to look down on them ...more or less a psychological obstacle i guess ..wat's most important is ..
just be who you r ...nobody is perfect anyway..
I guess, I m like what she said. Someone weak in disguise. but i dont care. I will protect my friends and family from those who bully them. Lala, come confront me if you are not happy. Blahx!
Anyway, Erin, my blog has no tagboards, becoz so few of u know my blog address. If i put in tagboard, spammers will come and disturb. Nono, i want to have a peaceful little place for myself.
Received an sms from Adelaide, asking me wat prezzie i want, and dat she misses me. Woah! Dats damn sweet! I miss u too girl, we have not been towning together for very long. I hope dec will pass soon, so i will have my weekends back to see my girlfriends.
So sad i cant see her on my birthday, coz its monday. Damn it! Argh, i wishes to see her soon. Missing her like nuts. Ok, i m a lesbian alright!
Boy also put a smile on my face today. i was tired at work, staring at the computer, answering phone calls with people screaming into my ear (just dun understand y some pple cannt talk softly over the phone). His sms goes like this "If cant meet then I'll stalk u lor =p Go pop while u meeting client and disturb u while u doing set ups=D So... i think u better be able to pei me ah... If not u sure mah fan liaoz"
Sori la, i very busy mahx. Lucky I m not studying part time, arbo i sure go bonkers.
I was clearing my hp inbox... Since i m in good mood today, I was uber happy, when i read thru a poem he wrote " Baby ah... U damn cute sia... I Cant forget ur looks... Deeply engraved in my mind... Will use that memory to push myself thru the upcoming challenges. I'm ur star guiding u, and u're my fuel pushing me on. Only tgt, i think, can we move on in life =p" This was sent to me before he went to field camp. Although it is rather mushy, but it is very nice of him.
"Late at night when all the world is slping I stay up and think of u And i wish on a star that somewhere u are thinking of me too, yes I do..... Coz I'm dreaming of u tonight, till tml and for all of my life, And there is no where in the world i'd rather be, than thinking of u, dreaming abt u n me.."
Sometimes, when i really wanted to give up in this relationship, coz of all the orderal i have to go thru, all these msges keep me going on. He has grown up. He finally understands what i want. I need new memories of our rs, not just the old ones. And he did it. Thanks.
lala... I am a happy little girl for now. I hope this will last. no more tearing for me please!
Adds on to my birthday list:
- Kristen (pending)
Just log in to Erin's blog (gor's girlfriend), this is what she has wrote:
answer to eileen's question in her blog
hey ger ,i can only reply in my blog cuz yr have no tagboards!
haha ...you posted a qn in yr entry :"There was a saying that i heard before, a person with a strong front, is actually weaker in the interior. Is that true?"
well... i guess its true haha... well .. i've seen such ppl ... they put on a strong front because they dun wan ppl to see their weakness...on the exterior...
he/she may look so strong, so confident and all..ppl envy them but actually deep down its not like tt at all... they may have even lower self-esteem than others!
i guess they are just very particular abt how ppl will judge them... tt's y they put up a strong front ...they dun want ppl to look down on them ...more or less a psychological obstacle i guess ..wat's most important is ..
just be who you r ...nobody is perfect anyway..
I guess, I m like what she said. Someone weak in disguise. but i dont care. I will protect my friends and family from those who bully them. Lala, come confront me if you are not happy. Blahx!
Anyway, Erin, my blog has no tagboards, becoz so few of u know my blog address. If i put in tagboard, spammers will come and disturb. Nono, i want to have a peaceful little place for myself.
Monday, November 05, 2007
I am a happy girl today! Ok, after 26th, i shall no longer be a little girl. But like wat Yvonne said, being 20 yr old, will let the adults listen to you recommendations and all. I will grow up soon....
I am happy, because I bought myself a very nice dress for birthday present. Hahaz, sounds crazy, but, its seldom i can get such a nice dress, with the correct length, given my so short height. Total damage for today $100.
The dress can be used for office wear, if i decides to change my job. Hahaz, I am doing some planning le...Or for high class dining, or the dinner function. Yeah!Its just a simple sexy dress, that wont reveal my flabby arms, thighs or tummy.
Another thing that made me a very happy girl, is that my dearest called me. I was so surprised to see that I got missed call from him, so i returned his call immediately. His field camp is over, and he will be out on thurs... I thought his field camp till tml. Yippee, but i m very busy this week. I hope he can understand. Sorry dear, please understand, can? I also wish to accompany you as much as I can, but, sometimes, please dont give me pressure, if not it will not work for us.
This whole week, i understand y, girls will want to leave their bf when they are in NS. Its not because they do not love them anymore, but the feeling of waiting, and loneliness, makes everything change.
Current list of goers to my birthday celebration who had confirmed with me:
- Mich Chua
- Jamie
- Chee Yang
- Mr Sim
- Adelaide (pending)
- Junie (pending)
Jovelle said she working late. People executive woah. Justin is working also, so he probably wont be coming.
Dear, I am not sure if i shld call Pamela, WH, Tian Chai, Allen mah? Maybe u can tell me the answer. Coz i usually not very close to dem, i m only with them, when you are ard. Tell me please....
I want to get the colour contact lens, but fear that my new colleagues will get a shock. My besties and my poly mates are damn used to me wearing big eyes contact lens or colour contact lens when i was still schooling. Shall I?
Sister first day work. Hope she will be more independent.
I am such a pig. Planned to go towning today, ended up slacking at home. hahaz. My sprain in my ankle hurts. Haiz. I hope i can recover soon, if not I will have to take mc for a period of time.
I went to Hougang Mall shop, felt my head spin. I almost black out. Dint tell Vin about it. I hope he dont blame me from keeping from him. Just dont want him to worry, coz he is alrd very worried abt my sprain. The sprain is an old injury, so I kinda expected it. I am getting old la...
I finally get my 9 hrs of beauty slp. Though still not enough, but i think it is still better den nth. Got a compliment from a client today. Another happy thing, when i access the 'email'. :) Woohoo!
My dark circles and dark rings are getting worst, pimples popping out, lack of exercise makes me feel fat. i think i m in the worst state ever.
I am happy, because I bought myself a very nice dress for birthday present. Hahaz, sounds crazy, but, its seldom i can get such a nice dress, with the correct length, given my so short height. Total damage for today $100.
The dress can be used for office wear, if i decides to change my job. Hahaz, I am doing some planning le...Or for high class dining, or the dinner function. Yeah!Its just a simple sexy dress, that wont reveal my flabby arms, thighs or tummy.
Another thing that made me a very happy girl, is that my dearest called me. I was so surprised to see that I got missed call from him, so i returned his call immediately. His field camp is over, and he will be out on thurs... I thought his field camp till tml. Yippee, but i m very busy this week. I hope he can understand. Sorry dear, please understand, can? I also wish to accompany you as much as I can, but, sometimes, please dont give me pressure, if not it will not work for us.
This whole week, i understand y, girls will want to leave their bf when they are in NS. Its not because they do not love them anymore, but the feeling of waiting, and loneliness, makes everything change.
Current list of goers to my birthday celebration who had confirmed with me:
- Mich Chua
- Jamie
- Chee Yang
- Mr Sim
- Adelaide (pending)
- Junie (pending)
Jovelle said she working late. People executive woah. Justin is working also, so he probably wont be coming.
Dear, I am not sure if i shld call Pamela, WH, Tian Chai, Allen mah? Maybe u can tell me the answer. Coz i usually not very close to dem, i m only with them, when you are ard. Tell me please....
I want to get the colour contact lens, but fear that my new colleagues will get a shock. My besties and my poly mates are damn used to me wearing big eyes contact lens or colour contact lens when i was still schooling. Shall I?
Sister first day work. Hope she will be more independent.
I am such a pig. Planned to go towning today, ended up slacking at home. hahaz. My sprain in my ankle hurts. Haiz. I hope i can recover soon, if not I will have to take mc for a period of time.
I went to Hougang Mall shop, felt my head spin. I almost black out. Dint tell Vin about it. I hope he dont blame me from keeping from him. Just dont want him to worry, coz he is alrd very worried abt my sprain. The sprain is an old injury, so I kinda expected it. I am getting old la...
I finally get my 9 hrs of beauty slp. Though still not enough, but i think it is still better den nth. Got a compliment from a client today. Another happy thing, when i access the 'email'. :) Woohoo!
My dark circles and dark rings are getting worst, pimples popping out, lack of exercise makes me feel fat. i think i m in the worst state ever.
My Christmas wish: That I can be taller... I was looking at dresses, for my cousin's wedding. but all the dresses are damn long. haiz.
Vin is 165cm, and i m 155cm. Difference only 10cm. If 1 inch is 2.54 cm, i can only wear heels dat is 4 inch. Haiz... Boy, can u grow taller too?
Slacking at home... Gor and his gf will not be coming to the chalet, and they said they will treat me to a meal. Well, lets see if i have the time.
Erin was right that i put everything abt what i felt here. There was a saying that i heard before, a person with a strong front, is actually weaker in the interior. Is that true?
Vin is 165cm, and i m 155cm. Difference only 10cm. If 1 inch is 2.54 cm, i can only wear heels dat is 4 inch. Haiz... Boy, can u grow taller too?
Slacking at home... Gor and his gf will not be coming to the chalet, and they said they will treat me to a meal. Well, lets see if i have the time.
Erin was right that i put everything abt what i felt here. There was a saying that i heard before, a person with a strong front, is actually weaker in the interior. Is that true?
Sunday, November 04, 2007
3 more days, and he will be out. I m very very very tired. OMG, nvr felt this tired before. Lucky he has field camp, and dint come out, if not i will be more tired looking after his demands to meet me.
Since the beginning of the week, except monday, i had been working OT and OT. Buying and buying, from puffs to stationeries, and working earlier or working later. Tired sia. Everyday is work and slp.
Nov is almost a dead period. Haiz. Sent out the smses to my invited guest list for my birthday. Hope that they can revert back to me by 15th Nov.
Watched "Rendition" with Don, Jamie and Cheeyang 2 days ago. Nice show, but it takes time to understand. Next show to target, "The Game Plan".
Body is aching badly. And i sprained my leg badly today. Again! So, i have to cancel my driving tml. Sad la. I intend to finish it asap de. Jamie was saying, how come these few days, when i was having 2 events a day, I seemed to be the only one who is doing. Well, we have our reasons. We do help each other, just dat liasing and all, the one in charge will know better. Everything was ok, except the walking around and stuffs, was terrible.
Today have project lighthouse. I reached my workplace at 7am, ended work at 6pm. Justin came over. Had a chat with him while the kids went out for sail. He claimed that he is the "Coffee Making Executive" at Sembawang. Apparently, he does the same as me. When he has an event, he goes in earlier, to make coffee and tea for them, receiving weird requests for hot, cold and room temperature water. Just like me. So, he was joking that he wans to make me the "Coffee Making Officer", coz this is what i had been doing for this whole week. He is equally tired, or more tired, as he had his assignments. Understand....
The kids are cute and adorable. They reminded me of Peijin's brother, who is one of these special children. And also, my primary school friend, yixuan's sister. When i was young, i was wondering, why the mum always bring the sister to school in a babychair, and she cant walk. I admire her perservance to study, despite her illness and being slow. However, when i heard abt the failure in the operation when i was Secondary 3, i was very sad. Yixuan hated her sister, for taking away her mum's time and love for her, but i remembered, at her sister's wake, she was crying, and i believe, she loved her sister.
Just now, when i saw these kids drawing, they reminded me of her, my eyes went watery. I admire those parents, who have the courage to give birth to them, loving them and caring for them. I can see their tiredness, yet their love for their children.
I admire the kids who have these children as their siblings, still loving and taking care of them, even though their parent's love have been given away.
Some of my dear friends and colleagues (ex and present), are asking me what i want for my birthday. Actually, what i want, you guys cant give. I wish that my family can understand me better, my sister and bro to be mroe sensible, and my parents to be less demanding and bias. I hope to have a friend, who can understand me. So, for those who are thinking, let me tell u the answer, just take care of yourself, and treasure what you have, and it will be a nice present for me.
Haha, my colleague asked me, when i went to have Mac with them at Tampines, what i want for birthday. He suggested a boyfriend. Hahaz. Maybe i should. Damn tired at times, but very tired of waiting for my bf to come out, to vent my unhappines with him. Whenever he is out, we will end up slping, I will tell him abt work, my family problems and all, while he tell me his NS life and all. Boring and no life.
The chalet, was my dream. I think my sis told my parents before. I remeber when i was 16 yr old, my cousin invited me to her chalet. She purposly chose my birthdate, when her birthday was 3 days later. I was damn unhappy that time. I told myself, i will have a chalet when i am 21, on her birthdate. Now, i dont see the need, as both of us had fell out. My siblings and i, dislike her.
For those who feel I am lucky to have my family planning for my birthday for me, I admit I am luckier than many people. But, the things that i went through about them, you guys will nvr understand. I appreciate their effort for this, but you guys will nvr understand, why i cant love my parents. I wish to hug them, or kiss them before i slp. But, i cant make make myself do that. I wish to talk to them abt my worries, troubles and problems. I wish to cry to them, instead of putting a strong front. For 20 years, my life is much luckier than many. At least i have a complete family, but the tears that i had in my heart, no one will knows how much.
Oh yes, i quarrelled with Aziz ytd. Over the two stupid tanks. I am damn tired, seriously tired. He asked whether he can put them in function room 1, i told him to call my boss. Calling is easier, den quarrelling with me. I was dead beat, and i have another room to set up, running out of time. A call from him, will settle his problem. He threw his tantrum at me, and change the place he wans to put it. He can always do it later, not like the Angels are closing at 4pm. F**k. And the function room was not ready that time, he just dont understand. I dont have time, dont have space, not enough manpower.
Dont irritate me when i m very tired. I went to Jimmy and start to tell him everything. He saw me being so pissed and i guessed he must be damn shocked.
Whenever i see kids, i feel like having one of my own. But when i see naughty ones, i feel like strangling them. Hahaz, guess, its safer that i dont have any kids. I used to hate kids, but now, i m neutral. I understand how the parents felt, after kaiyan had jorin. Jorin can be so adorable, yet very naughty. Sometimes, being parents, they love, yet have to educate, which is very tough.
But I also understand the kids feeling. Believe it or not, I used to hate my family so much, that i felt like running away from home, or even have suicide when i was very young. I cant take it dat time. Imagine, since 7 years old, i will have to experience such a thing. I have grown up now, i understand everything. But, 20 yrs of thing, you cant expect me to forget everything, of what they had done. I nvr felt love frm them, until these 2 years. I have been very much alone, keeping everything to myself. I even hated myself for my presence when i was younger.
I wish, tomorrow will be a better day. And those kids that i saw today, can recover, and get acceptance by the society, for them to feel more independent, and more love from the rest.
Since the beginning of the week, except monday, i had been working OT and OT. Buying and buying, from puffs to stationeries, and working earlier or working later. Tired sia. Everyday is work and slp.
Nov is almost a dead period. Haiz. Sent out the smses to my invited guest list for my birthday. Hope that they can revert back to me by 15th Nov.
Watched "Rendition" with Don, Jamie and Cheeyang 2 days ago. Nice show, but it takes time to understand. Next show to target, "The Game Plan".
Body is aching badly. And i sprained my leg badly today. Again! So, i have to cancel my driving tml. Sad la. I intend to finish it asap de. Jamie was saying, how come these few days, when i was having 2 events a day, I seemed to be the only one who is doing. Well, we have our reasons. We do help each other, just dat liasing and all, the one in charge will know better. Everything was ok, except the walking around and stuffs, was terrible.
Today have project lighthouse. I reached my workplace at 7am, ended work at 6pm. Justin came over. Had a chat with him while the kids went out for sail. He claimed that he is the "Coffee Making Executive" at Sembawang. Apparently, he does the same as me. When he has an event, he goes in earlier, to make coffee and tea for them, receiving weird requests for hot, cold and room temperature water. Just like me. So, he was joking that he wans to make me the "Coffee Making Officer", coz this is what i had been doing for this whole week. He is equally tired, or more tired, as he had his assignments. Understand....
The kids are cute and adorable. They reminded me of Peijin's brother, who is one of these special children. And also, my primary school friend, yixuan's sister. When i was young, i was wondering, why the mum always bring the sister to school in a babychair, and she cant walk. I admire her perservance to study, despite her illness and being slow. However, when i heard abt the failure in the operation when i was Secondary 3, i was very sad. Yixuan hated her sister, for taking away her mum's time and love for her, but i remembered, at her sister's wake, she was crying, and i believe, she loved her sister.
Just now, when i saw these kids drawing, they reminded me of her, my eyes went watery. I admire those parents, who have the courage to give birth to them, loving them and caring for them. I can see their tiredness, yet their love for their children.
I admire the kids who have these children as their siblings, still loving and taking care of them, even though their parent's love have been given away.
Some of my dear friends and colleagues (ex and present), are asking me what i want for my birthday. Actually, what i want, you guys cant give. I wish that my family can understand me better, my sister and bro to be mroe sensible, and my parents to be less demanding and bias. I hope to have a friend, who can understand me. So, for those who are thinking, let me tell u the answer, just take care of yourself, and treasure what you have, and it will be a nice present for me.
Haha, my colleague asked me, when i went to have Mac with them at Tampines, what i want for birthday. He suggested a boyfriend. Hahaz. Maybe i should. Damn tired at times, but very tired of waiting for my bf to come out, to vent my unhappines with him. Whenever he is out, we will end up slping, I will tell him abt work, my family problems and all, while he tell me his NS life and all. Boring and no life.
The chalet, was my dream. I think my sis told my parents before. I remeber when i was 16 yr old, my cousin invited me to her chalet. She purposly chose my birthdate, when her birthday was 3 days later. I was damn unhappy that time. I told myself, i will have a chalet when i am 21, on her birthdate. Now, i dont see the need, as both of us had fell out. My siblings and i, dislike her.
For those who feel I am lucky to have my family planning for my birthday for me, I admit I am luckier than many people. But, the things that i went through about them, you guys will nvr understand. I appreciate their effort for this, but you guys will nvr understand, why i cant love my parents. I wish to hug them, or kiss them before i slp. But, i cant make make myself do that. I wish to talk to them abt my worries, troubles and problems. I wish to cry to them, instead of putting a strong front. For 20 years, my life is much luckier than many. At least i have a complete family, but the tears that i had in my heart, no one will knows how much.
Oh yes, i quarrelled with Aziz ytd. Over the two stupid tanks. I am damn tired, seriously tired. He asked whether he can put them in function room 1, i told him to call my boss. Calling is easier, den quarrelling with me. I was dead beat, and i have another room to set up, running out of time. A call from him, will settle his problem. He threw his tantrum at me, and change the place he wans to put it. He can always do it later, not like the Angels are closing at 4pm. F**k. And the function room was not ready that time, he just dont understand. I dont have time, dont have space, not enough manpower.
Dont irritate me when i m very tired. I went to Jimmy and start to tell him everything. He saw me being so pissed and i guessed he must be damn shocked.
Whenever i see kids, i feel like having one of my own. But when i see naughty ones, i feel like strangling them. Hahaz, guess, its safer that i dont have any kids. I used to hate kids, but now, i m neutral. I understand how the parents felt, after kaiyan had jorin. Jorin can be so adorable, yet very naughty. Sometimes, being parents, they love, yet have to educate, which is very tough.
But I also understand the kids feeling. Believe it or not, I used to hate my family so much, that i felt like running away from home, or even have suicide when i was very young. I cant take it dat time. Imagine, since 7 years old, i will have to experience such a thing. I have grown up now, i understand everything. But, 20 yrs of thing, you cant expect me to forget everything, of what they had done. I nvr felt love frm them, until these 2 years. I have been very much alone, keeping everything to myself. I even hated myself for my presence when i was younger.
I wish, tomorrow will be a better day. And those kids that i saw today, can recover, and get acceptance by the society, for them to feel more independent, and more love from the rest.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Its his first day to the field camp. I know him to well, he will not clear his bowels in the field camp. Hahaz. My dirty pigotong.
Tml is the Hari Raya party for the staff. Ironically, i heard most of the muslim friends are not going. Well, well. My colleague helped me borrowed a costume, which i dont know if i will fit, coz i m utterly fat now.
Busy busy busy. Running an event with losta of proposals is enuf, not to mention 2 at a time, with no guys to help, and with tons of telephone calls, problems here and there. Its damn freaking tired! There is no guy in the office today! Its like omg, how am I going to do the set up? Siao, but i survived la. I have got 3 more days to go, and my battery is half dead. Thanks to my family. I shall not talk to dem. Keep away from me!
From Erin: "to me..blogging is a form of releasing my feelings..... be it happy things.. or sad things.. or even things tt make me angry..blog abt happy things..is cuz i wanted to share it with my friends out there who r reading..i wan to share my happiness with them...as for angry stuffs.. i juz need a place to vent out all my frustrations.. sometimes things just cant be told..it will be disastrous...if were to say out certain things....it'll be like spilled milk... can't get it back...n i dun wan it to happen.. so.... i'll blog hahaha.."
I agreed with you, girl. I do that there do. Glad that gor made u a happy girl on your birthday night. My sad thing is, my wish to have my bf with me on my bdae night will not be fulfilled, as he has his NS. Haiz. I know you r reading this, so when am I going to receive the red envelope from u n gor? He is 26 alrd, time to get married la. Den i can call u sister-in-law. Hahaz.
My muscles ache, not to mention those backaches that i had. I guess my spinal cord has problem, since the fall when i was working last time, from the stairs. I shld have heed my manager's advice to see the doctor. Since secondary sch, every year I got to do checkup at hospital for my spinal cord till i was sec 4. Or is it, I am getting old?
Jov and i was chatting, and we wan to go Redang in Feb next year. Den i shall got china in April, and Japan soon.... I was quite surprised, both of us kick off well, understanding each other. Yippee... i hope the trip will turn out well, coz the girl had tension headache, and huz had alrd given her a false promise b4, i do not wish to disappoint my friend. She says $500 shld be enuf. Dats easy la, meaning for my China trip, i will have more to spend. Hope all these can be fulfilled.
I shall get my sony camera next mth.
Tml is the Hari Raya party for the staff. Ironically, i heard most of the muslim friends are not going. Well, well. My colleague helped me borrowed a costume, which i dont know if i will fit, coz i m utterly fat now.
Busy busy busy. Running an event with losta of proposals is enuf, not to mention 2 at a time, with no guys to help, and with tons of telephone calls, problems here and there. Its damn freaking tired! There is no guy in the office today! Its like omg, how am I going to do the set up? Siao, but i survived la. I have got 3 more days to go, and my battery is half dead. Thanks to my family. I shall not talk to dem. Keep away from me!
From Erin: "to me..blogging is a form of releasing my feelings..... be it happy things.. or sad things.. or even things tt make me angry..blog abt happy things..is cuz i wanted to share it with my friends out there who r reading..i wan to share my happiness with them...as for angry stuffs.. i juz need a place to vent out all my frustrations.. sometimes things just cant be told..it will be disastrous...if were to say out certain things....it'll be like spilled milk... can't get it back...n i dun wan it to happen.. so.... i'll blog hahaha.."
I agreed with you, girl. I do that there do. Glad that gor made u a happy girl on your birthday night. My sad thing is, my wish to have my bf with me on my bdae night will not be fulfilled, as he has his NS. Haiz. I know you r reading this, so when am I going to receive the red envelope from u n gor? He is 26 alrd, time to get married la. Den i can call u sister-in-law. Hahaz.
My muscles ache, not to mention those backaches that i had. I guess my spinal cord has problem, since the fall when i was working last time, from the stairs. I shld have heed my manager's advice to see the doctor. Since secondary sch, every year I got to do checkup at hospital for my spinal cord till i was sec 4. Or is it, I am getting old?
Jov and i was chatting, and we wan to go Redang in Feb next year. Den i shall got china in April, and Japan soon.... I was quite surprised, both of us kick off well, understanding each other. Yippee... i hope the trip will turn out well, coz the girl had tension headache, and huz had alrd given her a false promise b4, i do not wish to disappoint my friend. She says $500 shld be enuf. Dats easy la, meaning for my China trip, i will have more to spend. Hope all these can be fulfilled.
I shall get my sony camera next mth.
Monday, October 29, 2007
I dont care if you are interested to know what i wrote in here. This is a place for me to vent my anger and stuffs. I know both of u took hard pains to bring me up, I understand, and I know the feeling of being a mum.
But, dont think i will need to rely on you for the whole of my life. Of all your kids, i m the most sensible. Who talks back to you the least? Who study through with you worrying?
Everything that i did, is all wrong in ur mind. Alright then, den u go ahead with your "fine" thinking, and forget abt my presence then.
Ytd, the two person, make us all clear up the room. it was agreed to be done in dec, not now. Please, it is just a couple of days, to my dreaded mth, Nov. I need my rest, and she keeps yaking away. Clearing is no issue, but her talking, oh, SHUT UP! You want to beat people, come la. Lets see who beat who. Fuck sia. Is not that i m filial, if you have this kind of freaking parents and family, it can really drive people crazy.
I dont like to scold vuglarities. But, i really felt like leaving home ytd, leaving everything behind, maybe i shld just leave this world, if not for a person, who loves me so much. Can you imagine, me crying for 2 whole days, just for the stupid family dat i have. Dont blame sis, if she ended up like me, not wanting to go home. At least, i have another home, if i want to run to.
I am off for 2 days, yet i got pissed for two days. The two fuckers idiot people. its really idiotic. Its not abt just my moodswing, but try irritating me. I m the most neutral and best attitude person in my family, but dun make use of my patience.
Went driving today, and i really enjoy the thrill. Actually I had two lessons, but due to ytd's night stuffs, it makes my eyes red and puffy, and my back problem comes back again. so i cancelled the morning lesson. Its getting more fun. I want to complete soon.
Vin and I have agreed, to start saving to tour Japan for 2 weeks when he finish his NS. he says he will pay for my air ticket, and I am suppose to pay for the expenditure there. Its like, i rather the other way, hahaz.
And i will go taiwan with him. So, for march and april next yr, I will be going China in the Summer. Which part, let me do some reading first bahx.
Working tomorrow.... So boring.
But, dont think i will need to rely on you for the whole of my life. Of all your kids, i m the most sensible. Who talks back to you the least? Who study through with you worrying?
Everything that i did, is all wrong in ur mind. Alright then, den u go ahead with your "fine" thinking, and forget abt my presence then.
Ytd, the two person, make us all clear up the room. it was agreed to be done in dec, not now. Please, it is just a couple of days, to my dreaded mth, Nov. I need my rest, and she keeps yaking away. Clearing is no issue, but her talking, oh, SHUT UP! You want to beat people, come la. Lets see who beat who. Fuck sia. Is not that i m filial, if you have this kind of freaking parents and family, it can really drive people crazy.
I dont like to scold vuglarities. But, i really felt like leaving home ytd, leaving everything behind, maybe i shld just leave this world, if not for a person, who loves me so much. Can you imagine, me crying for 2 whole days, just for the stupid family dat i have. Dont blame sis, if she ended up like me, not wanting to go home. At least, i have another home, if i want to run to.
I am off for 2 days, yet i got pissed for two days. The two fuckers idiot people. its really idiotic. Its not abt just my moodswing, but try irritating me. I m the most neutral and best attitude person in my family, but dun make use of my patience.
Went driving today, and i really enjoy the thrill. Actually I had two lessons, but due to ytd's night stuffs, it makes my eyes red and puffy, and my back problem comes back again. so i cancelled the morning lesson. Its getting more fun. I want to complete soon.
Vin and I have agreed, to start saving to tour Japan for 2 weeks when he finish his NS. he says he will pay for my air ticket, and I am suppose to pay for the expenditure there. Its like, i rather the other way, hahaz.
And i will go taiwan with him. So, for march and april next yr, I will be going China in the Summer. Which part, let me do some reading first bahx.
Working tomorrow.... So boring.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
My Guardian Angel
My Guardian Angel.... is the turtle. it is suppose to accompany me, for me to hug, and cry to, when i need someone beside me. Although it is not alive, at least the feeling of the hug, will be much better den nth.
Was at his hse after the movie, I finally broke down and cry like a tap. My nose is known for being a tap, dint noe my eyes oso can do such a good job in this. It just such a nice cry, coz i dint cry for very long le, and I have been controlling myself for so damn long.
he made me promised ytd, dat when i send him in today, i will not cry. So, i was strong enough to not think abt anything else, but my turtle dats lying on my bed.
Just went to chinatown with family. Its a damn freaking long time since we last went out, as a family. And daddy bought me a pair of slippers! Yeah! Hmmz... Simple things makes me feel so contented. But somehow, i feel his attitude towards mei mei has changed...
He is going for field camp soon, and i m rather worried. Coz of the monsoon season, rainy days made the training tougher. Hope he does not fall sick or injure himself.
Just told mummy i intend to go overseas. She said ok, and so, i just need to inform her dat i m going away. Yippy! But i m not going to tell her i m going alone, arbo she sure dont allow.
Was at his hse after the movie, I finally broke down and cry like a tap. My nose is known for being a tap, dint noe my eyes oso can do such a good job in this. It just such a nice cry, coz i dint cry for very long le, and I have been controlling myself for so damn long.
he made me promised ytd, dat when i send him in today, i will not cry. So, i was strong enough to not think abt anything else, but my turtle dats lying on my bed.
Just went to chinatown with family. Its a damn freaking long time since we last went out, as a family. And daddy bought me a pair of slippers! Yeah! Hmmz... Simple things makes me feel so contented. But somehow, i feel his attitude towards mei mei has changed...
He is going for field camp soon, and i m rather worried. Coz of the monsoon season, rainy days made the training tougher. Hope he does not fall sick or injure himself.
Just told mummy i intend to go overseas. She said ok, and so, i just need to inform her dat i m going away. Yippy! But i m not going to tell her i m going alone, arbo she sure dont allow.
Finally, his field camp period is here, meaning, i cant contact him for the whole week... Sianz.
I took time off ytd, to accompany him. We watched Mr Woodcock, dont think it is as nice as Balls of Fury though. He was nice, he got me the first soft toy since we had been together for the 27th mth, on the 27th oct. It is a very big soft toy, a turtle. Boy got one for himself too. Total damage he made: $49.90 x 2. I also got a blanket free. Nice and soft. Happy!
He booked in this morning. I sent him to pasir ris in his dad's car. Today off, going to beach with family. I hope everything will be alright. Off tml again, shall got for 2 driving lessons. Stop being lazy, and get my bum to the driving centre.
Insomia and stress recently, from my family, really made me feel physcially and mentally weak. How to survive in nov lidat?
Told boy that I am going to Osaka in April. He asked me whom i m going with. The fact is, I am going alone. Too troublesome to go asking around who wants to go. So i rather go alone. But, he rather I dont go Japan or Taiwan first. Coz he wants to go with me. Haiyo....
Thailand is a fun place to go, but the situation there is very messy, mummy wont allow me to go alone. HK had been there b4, though dint realli walk around.
Maldives island, is my dream place to go, same as Miami. Those places are my nice and peaceful. China is nice with their scenery. May be i will go before school starts, get away for 3 weeks there.
Right now, in Jan, I will go to...
I took time off ytd, to accompany him. We watched Mr Woodcock, dont think it is as nice as Balls of Fury though. He was nice, he got me the first soft toy since we had been together for the 27th mth, on the 27th oct. It is a very big soft toy, a turtle. Boy got one for himself too. Total damage he made: $49.90 x 2. I also got a blanket free. Nice and soft. Happy!
He booked in this morning. I sent him to pasir ris in his dad's car. Today off, going to beach with family. I hope everything will be alright. Off tml again, shall got for 2 driving lessons. Stop being lazy, and get my bum to the driving centre.
Insomia and stress recently, from my family, really made me feel physcially and mentally weak. How to survive in nov lidat?
Told boy that I am going to Osaka in April. He asked me whom i m going with. The fact is, I am going alone. Too troublesome to go asking around who wants to go. So i rather go alone. But, he rather I dont go Japan or Taiwan first. Coz he wants to go with me. Haiyo....
Thailand is a fun place to go, but the situation there is very messy, mummy wont allow me to go alone. HK had been there b4, though dint realli walk around.
Maldives island, is my dream place to go, same as Miami. Those places are my nice and peaceful. China is nice with their scenery. May be i will go before school starts, get away for 3 weeks there.
Right now, in Jan, I will go to...
Friday, October 26, 2007
Tired
It is 26th October. it is out 27th mth together. The rocky months... I dont know what lies in front of us.
He told me, he will book out early afternoon tml, and book in on sunday morning. He hopes that i can stay over. As usual, I cant, esp my recent family problems... He says, if he is single, he dont mind not booking out. If i m single, i wont even bother to arrange to claim time off to accompany you tml.
I hope he can understand. It is reali tiring, to see that he is sad. I know and can feel he is unhappy, but i m oso. Cant he hide it, so as not to presurize me?
He will not be booking out next week, coz field camp. I have decided my travel trip. Either Shanghai or Japan Osaka or China Sheng zhen, in January. Who wants to join me? Its either backpack journey (i really want to try it), if not the usual travelling.... Shall start saving more...
Tried my first new working experience today. Good feedback in the seminar, but bad for the part 2. Lucky its not my fault. hee.
Mr Yik called me today. Shocked. Thanks for remembering me, Sir! I guess, i will give the offer of Marketing Executive a miss. Though the position sounds appealing, and the place is of quality, but i feel, i am not one who loves too much of change. I prefer calm and stable sea, instead of rocky sea. The workplace i m currently having, is peacful and easy going for me. At least for now. I hope i wont regret rejecting the offer.
Got another offer of Sales Executive by the other company i had interviewed earlier before I joined this current company. Same thing, I want to experience sth, learn enough, before I leave. To make me leave, not just the finance factor, but also the character of the colleagues.
I think i m sterotyped by my colleagues, that i m a small chili ger who is damn fierce. Got meh? Alright la. I dont beat people. I talk sense to them.
My dear friends who got access to this blog, which i think, its less then 10 of you, you are invited to my birthday chalet at Pasir Ris Coasta Sands on 26th Nov. Please drop me an email or comment, if you are able to attend. Thanks.
He told me, he will book out early afternoon tml, and book in on sunday morning. He hopes that i can stay over. As usual, I cant, esp my recent family problems... He says, if he is single, he dont mind not booking out. If i m single, i wont even bother to arrange to claim time off to accompany you tml.
I hope he can understand. It is reali tiring, to see that he is sad. I know and can feel he is unhappy, but i m oso. Cant he hide it, so as not to presurize me?
He will not be booking out next week, coz field camp. I have decided my travel trip. Either Shanghai or Japan Osaka or China Sheng zhen, in January. Who wants to join me? Its either backpack journey (i really want to try it), if not the usual travelling.... Shall start saving more...
Tried my first new working experience today. Good feedback in the seminar, but bad for the part 2. Lucky its not my fault. hee.
Mr Yik called me today. Shocked. Thanks for remembering me, Sir! I guess, i will give the offer of Marketing Executive a miss. Though the position sounds appealing, and the place is of quality, but i feel, i am not one who loves too much of change. I prefer calm and stable sea, instead of rocky sea. The workplace i m currently having, is peacful and easy going for me. At least for now. I hope i wont regret rejecting the offer.
Got another offer of Sales Executive by the other company i had interviewed earlier before I joined this current company. Same thing, I want to experience sth, learn enough, before I leave. To make me leave, not just the finance factor, but also the character of the colleagues.
I think i m sterotyped by my colleagues, that i m a small chili ger who is damn fierce. Got meh? Alright la. I dont beat people. I talk sense to them.
My dear friends who got access to this blog, which i think, its less then 10 of you, you are invited to my birthday chalet at Pasir Ris Coasta Sands on 26th Nov. Please drop me an email or comment, if you are able to attend. Thanks.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Ok, its friday tomorrow, 26th Oct, exactly one month to my 20th birthday. Anyway... Happy Birthday to Erin... She is my gor's gf. I know u are reading.. Hope gor can understand u better, and mend his ways, treasure u, and you will stay happy and pretty always!!!
Gor complained ytd, that his gf knows my situation now, much better den he does. Hahaz, gers talk mah. Gor always go drinking session with his friends, seldom on msn. No point I meet him oso, partly coz i m busy, and also, meet him oso nth to do, see him smoke n smoke only.
I ended my work at 6pm, I reached home at 10pm. I dint want to go home, if not for my body clock, i would have stayed out.I need a home, not just a house. Boy is alrd in NS, no body taking care of me, nobody to love me as much alrd. With my family current situation, it makes me feel, my house is just a shelter for the night.
Tired of going through everything. Going home just to see black faces, rantings, scoldings, stupid house rules. Argh, cant u just shut up? What is done is done. And it is seriously not my business to what happened. Just spare my ears, and let me have a good night rest la. You wanted me to speak to her, i did. Dad ask me to help her find sch, I did. What the hell does both of u want.
I am her elder sis. But i learnt all these things on my own. i can help her now, but she has to learn.
Every since graduation, boy went to malaysia to work, i have grown independent again. But i will need my support when i m tired. This family of mine, is nvr stable. I think, my besties are still the most reliable. When we were in polys, when i dun feel like going home, i will just stay at his hse, and cry over to him. He will understands and comfort me. Now, no one knows and no one dat i can cry to. My weekends is either burn with work, or when spending time with him, we will end up quarrelling. I need some peace and quiet. Can my better days come soon?
Watched a show ytd. A woman, not only must possess gd character, soft spoken, must also know how to cook. Good character, i think i 30% pass, soft spoken, depends who and situation. Cooking.... erm, i think i got 40% la, but still not as gd. Therefore, in all, I am not a woman. This explains y, I am only 19 going 20.
A woman shld not always cry. I wont cry in front of others, except my bf. My besties nvr saw me cry b4, even after so many years.
I remembered telling Vin, I want to get married on 20102010... Which is like, 3 yrs from now, when i m 22 going 23. So young right? But dats the date i like. I told him, whether its with u, or another guy, i want to have my wedding on dat date. Hahaz.
That was just a dream la. I hope can fulfilled though. Lets see.... Maybe i shld be single, less troubles for myself.
Gor complained ytd, that his gf knows my situation now, much better den he does. Hahaz, gers talk mah. Gor always go drinking session with his friends, seldom on msn. No point I meet him oso, partly coz i m busy, and also, meet him oso nth to do, see him smoke n smoke only.
I ended my work at 6pm, I reached home at 10pm. I dint want to go home, if not for my body clock, i would have stayed out.I need a home, not just a house. Boy is alrd in NS, no body taking care of me, nobody to love me as much alrd. With my family current situation, it makes me feel, my house is just a shelter for the night.
Tired of going through everything. Going home just to see black faces, rantings, scoldings, stupid house rules. Argh, cant u just shut up? What is done is done. And it is seriously not my business to what happened. Just spare my ears, and let me have a good night rest la. You wanted me to speak to her, i did. Dad ask me to help her find sch, I did. What the hell does both of u want.
I am her elder sis. But i learnt all these things on my own. i can help her now, but she has to learn.
Every since graduation, boy went to malaysia to work, i have grown independent again. But i will need my support when i m tired. This family of mine, is nvr stable. I think, my besties are still the most reliable. When we were in polys, when i dun feel like going home, i will just stay at his hse, and cry over to him. He will understands and comfort me. Now, no one knows and no one dat i can cry to. My weekends is either burn with work, or when spending time with him, we will end up quarrelling. I need some peace and quiet. Can my better days come soon?
Watched a show ytd. A woman, not only must possess gd character, soft spoken, must also know how to cook. Good character, i think i 30% pass, soft spoken, depends who and situation. Cooking.... erm, i think i got 40% la, but still not as gd. Therefore, in all, I am not a woman. This explains y, I am only 19 going 20.
A woman shld not always cry. I wont cry in front of others, except my bf. My besties nvr saw me cry b4, even after so many years.
I remembered telling Vin, I want to get married on 20102010... Which is like, 3 yrs from now, when i m 22 going 23. So young right? But dats the date i like. I told him, whether its with u, or another guy, i want to have my wedding on dat date. Hahaz.
That was just a dream la. I hope can fulfilled though. Lets see.... Maybe i shld be single, less troubles for myself.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Guys nvr seem to treasure things that are in front of them. Was talking to Jov, Huz had admitted that he is with the other ger, and both huz n jov has spilted. But, they still behave like couple. The status is not clear, and Huz dun want to talk abt it.
She changed alot for him, her dressing, her behaviour, her habit and everything....She intended to wait, till he gets married. Even if he wans a patch, she will not consider. Where in the world to find such a nice ger?
The reason is, both of them has different religion. Yet, love is too strong between them. The restrictions...
Guys nvr treasures. Serious. When things are gone, they regret. But, they will nvr know how much hurt has been put in, and how the ger has been living when he hurts her heart.
Lucky, he makes amendments. But, he will nvr know, she will nvr be hers again. Even if so, the pure feeling, will not be there again. Just like undergoing a surgery, even if it makes one recovers, the scar will remain...
A simple sms, or a call, to tell us where you are, or that you remember, bring a smile to a girl, warmth to her heart... I seriously hates guys who hurts gers. Coz of their stupid ego, they nvr admit they are wrong. And they will nvr try to make things right.
I really pity her. Before I was with my first bf, i always hear abt such things, and i feel guys are idiots. Dats y i always scold dem. Their brains, i always thought, grow in their butt. Hahaz. Seriously stupid.
If i m a guy, i will treasure her, coz she is a hard to come by lady. It beats better, to have a play girl, who hurts guys. Gers always looks at guys, who love dem more them she loves him. But, this idea, is nvr understood by my opposite sex.
She changed alot for him, her dressing, her behaviour, her habit and everything....She intended to wait, till he gets married. Even if he wans a patch, she will not consider. Where in the world to find such a nice ger?
The reason is, both of them has different religion. Yet, love is too strong between them. The restrictions...
Guys nvr treasures. Serious. When things are gone, they regret. But, they will nvr know how much hurt has been put in, and how the ger has been living when he hurts her heart.
Lucky, he makes amendments. But, he will nvr know, she will nvr be hers again. Even if so, the pure feeling, will not be there again. Just like undergoing a surgery, even if it makes one recovers, the scar will remain...
A simple sms, or a call, to tell us where you are, or that you remember, bring a smile to a girl, warmth to her heart... I seriously hates guys who hurts gers. Coz of their stupid ego, they nvr admit they are wrong. And they will nvr try to make things right.
I really pity her. Before I was with my first bf, i always hear abt such things, and i feel guys are idiots. Dats y i always scold dem. Their brains, i always thought, grow in their butt. Hahaz. Seriously stupid.
If i m a guy, i will treasure her, coz she is a hard to come by lady. It beats better, to have a play girl, who hurts guys. Gers always looks at guys, who love dem more them she loves him. But, this idea, is nvr understood by my opposite sex.
Fat ass me! I had been eating so much lately. Hai... Furthermore Jamie is going away till 28th, that will mean no one to share my lunch with me.
Was talking to mei mei just now, she was asking me abt her poly courses. I find NP Business studies still quite appealing, with an additonal option to major in International Business. I used to take a module on it, and i scored my AD in it. Haiya, if i am give the chance again, i will choose that as my major, instead of torturing myself in Marketing. However, marketing is one of the best in my year. So i nvr regret my choice.
Sis is looking at SP's new diploma Human Resource Management with Psychology.
I would rather she takes that, then to do some other rubbish course. Although the distance is further den NP, but taking a train beats taking a bus, esp when BKE always jam like there is no tomorrow. Both Polys is good for slimming, as their hills are very steep.
She is not considering other Polys, though they are nearer to our hse. Maybe she got influenced by me, if want to do, do the best, and dont regret.
Boy hasnt called me for 2 days. i hope he is doing fine. Off day tml, and this means, driving lessons. I am seriously a slow turtle la. But i dont have time and energy to learn.
The Year end sales are coming. Shall plan what I want to get. Levis' Jeans, Mango or Zara top?
Plans for tomorrow: Trim eyebrow, finish a stupid proposal my client insist me to give her by tml, driving, meet a friend....
Was talking to mei mei just now, she was asking me abt her poly courses. I find NP Business studies still quite appealing, with an additonal option to major in International Business. I used to take a module on it, and i scored my AD in it. Haiya, if i am give the chance again, i will choose that as my major, instead of torturing myself in Marketing. However, marketing is one of the best in my year. So i nvr regret my choice.
Sis is looking at SP's new diploma Human Resource Management with Psychology.
I would rather she takes that, then to do some other rubbish course. Although the distance is further den NP, but taking a train beats taking a bus, esp when BKE always jam like there is no tomorrow. Both Polys is good for slimming, as their hills are very steep.
She is not considering other Polys, though they are nearer to our hse. Maybe she got influenced by me, if want to do, do the best, and dont regret.
Boy hasnt called me for 2 days. i hope he is doing fine. Off day tml, and this means, driving lessons. I am seriously a slow turtle la. But i dont have time and energy to learn.
The Year end sales are coming. Shall plan what I want to get. Levis' Jeans, Mango or Zara top?
Plans for tomorrow: Trim eyebrow, finish a stupid proposal my client insist me to give her by tml, driving, meet a friend....
Monday, October 22, 2007
Mummy is yaking away again... Shit! I m just home for barely 1 hrs, and she is nagging and nagging. Cant u just SHUT UP! Haiyo, my sister is old enuf for her to think. Let her decide for her own future. It is pointless for us to help her, when she dont want to help herself. Give up on this family sia. Dont know what the hell they are thinking.
Boy just msg me this evening. He managed to do the 1st pull up in his life! Yippy, no more grumbles from him for this failure. Shall encourage him to head towards 3, den to 6. Hope he can do it. Jia You!
Haiyo, many people has been telling me, i m very fierce. Yes, I may be fierce, to protect myself and the people around me. I will only be soft to the peopl I am very close with, or when I am very sick. Dats y boy likes me the most when i am sick. hahaz, coz i wont shout at him. Count yourselves lucky for all the guys that I know recently. The past me will just scold the guy for no reason, and he will just end up getting my scolding with question marks in the brain.
When i first know my ex, and Vin, I oso scolded them, before I got closer with them.....
The world is so small, and I dont know where should I go for the break... I need to escape, from everything... To start myself afresh!
My birthday is coming soon. Argh, the thought of being 20, seriously makes me feel old. No offence to my friends who are already 20, but I cant accept that I am turning with the BIG 2 so soon....
Diet Diet Diet.... i had been eating so much ytd. I shall take 2 meals a day, instead of the usual 3 meals. The third meal shall be some soup or fruits.
Boy just msg me this evening. He managed to do the 1st pull up in his life! Yippy, no more grumbles from him for this failure. Shall encourage him to head towards 3, den to 6. Hope he can do it. Jia You!
Haiyo, many people has been telling me, i m very fierce. Yes, I may be fierce, to protect myself and the people around me. I will only be soft to the peopl I am very close with, or when I am very sick. Dats y boy likes me the most when i am sick. hahaz, coz i wont shout at him. Count yourselves lucky for all the guys that I know recently. The past me will just scold the guy for no reason, and he will just end up getting my scolding with question marks in the brain.
When i first know my ex, and Vin, I oso scolded them, before I got closer with them.....
The world is so small, and I dont know where should I go for the break... I need to escape, from everything... To start myself afresh!
My birthday is coming soon. Argh, the thought of being 20, seriously makes me feel old. No offence to my friends who are already 20, but I cant accept that I am turning with the BIG 2 so soon....
Diet Diet Diet.... i had been eating so much ytd. I shall take 2 meals a day, instead of the usual 3 meals. The third meal shall be some soup or fruits.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
I had been neglecting my family members. Friday I m was busy and celebrate the girl's birthday. Sat I stayed over at work, for some wedding stuffs. Slpt at 1am, wake at 5 plus. Alamak! I growing older soon at this rate.
Damn tired, in the end, instead of working the whole day, I went off in the afternoon, went to accompany the boy. Lunch at AMK Hub, eat like a pig. My tummy is bulging out! Den went to his hse for a small nap, before goingtt o Pasir Ris for Dinner at HongKong Cafe! Thereafter, his mum sent me to Ade's house.
Hmmz... GM's birthday. And alot of staffs turned up. Its good to see so many people there. Her kids are so cute and have sharp features. Saw the previous colleague, a lady which my boss dun like. Well, no personal preference, but maybe she is a little too obvious that she dont like him, by wishing everyone, except him. She even wished me, when she dont know who i am.
My boss sent me home, with 3 other women, coz he was on the way to Hougang as well.
Boy, Thanks! I know I have been very ridiculous, and bad tempered, but i am very tired. Its time for me to go on a break for recharge. Hope you can do well for your training, and your little toe to recover soon. I want you to piggyback me!!! Waiting, waiting, waiting...
I m behaving like a little kid, not like a mature ger that I used to be. Coz, i am almost 20. Soon. So, let me enjoy some last childhood, before I move on to my 20th, the big 2.
Damn tired, in the end, instead of working the whole day, I went off in the afternoon, went to accompany the boy. Lunch at AMK Hub, eat like a pig. My tummy is bulging out! Den went to his hse for a small nap, before goingtt o Pasir Ris for Dinner at HongKong Cafe! Thereafter, his mum sent me to Ade's house.
Hmmz... GM's birthday. And alot of staffs turned up. Its good to see so many people there. Her kids are so cute and have sharp features. Saw the previous colleague, a lady which my boss dun like. Well, no personal preference, but maybe she is a little too obvious that she dont like him, by wishing everyone, except him. She even wished me, when she dont know who i am.
My boss sent me home, with 3 other women, coz he was on the way to Hougang as well.
Boy, Thanks! I know I have been very ridiculous, and bad tempered, but i am very tired. Its time for me to go on a break for recharge. Hope you can do well for your training, and your little toe to recover soon. I want you to piggyback me!!! Waiting, waiting, waiting...
I m behaving like a little kid, not like a mature ger that I used to be. Coz, i am almost 20. Soon. So, let me enjoy some last childhood, before I move on to my 20th, the big 2.
Friday, October 19, 2007
This is the 300th post that I have entried, with my old blog posts.
Elaine, happy 20th Birthday. Hope we can celebrate more of your birthdays. I love you. Hahaz. So les right? Mich, Kris, Elaine... U gers will nvr be forgotten by me. My best sisters.
Went to Vivo after work, rushing all the way, to meet the gers, and had dinner at Swensens, spending around $40. Ok la, I am working, comparing to them.
Dint take any pictures with them today, wasted.
Anyway, when i was on the MRT to vivo today, I saw this couple. The ger was explaining sth to the guy, but this guy tried to agrue, thereafter, he put on his earpiece and tried to study. The ger continue to talk, explaining herself, however, the guy put his earphone to full blast, and refused to listen. The ger got frustrated, and starts to irritate him. And they starts to quarrel. The ger began to keep quiet, i look at her eyes, its teary. She has given up hope, and I can feel the pain in the heart. However, the guy is not attentive tot he ger at all. After 5 mins, when he realise the ger is keeping quiet, he starts talking to her, but she ignored him.
Sometimes, I wonder, whose fault is it? I dont know. The ger's encounter, is sth i always felt, when i was with him. He never knew what I wanted, and what I am thinking. When I tried telling him, he simply brush it off. I may seem like nth, someone unimportant, as always, but when u need a ger beside you, you try to sweet talk. Is girls' purpose of survival in this world, is to entertain you guys?
He just called, to persuade me to meet him tomorrow night. I shall try, but feel bad leaving jamie behind. But, he says, he might have guard duty next week, thereafter got field camp. Ya, hard work, but i m oso feeling difficult to make my decision over here. I hope he can just understand, but i understand he badly wants to see me. Hai... Seriously, i dont know how. He always put me in such situations, that I dont like.
Then when i came home from Serangoon on MRT, there was this weird guy who left his bag behind. Funny, and some teenagers run after him with the bag. So dramatic.
Not coming home tomorrow. I cant make up my mind which country I wan to visit in January.
Elaine, happy 20th Birthday. Hope we can celebrate more of your birthdays. I love you. Hahaz. So les right? Mich, Kris, Elaine... U gers will nvr be forgotten by me. My best sisters.
Went to Vivo after work, rushing all the way, to meet the gers, and had dinner at Swensens, spending around $40. Ok la, I am working, comparing to them.
Dint take any pictures with them today, wasted.
Anyway, when i was on the MRT to vivo today, I saw this couple. The ger was explaining sth to the guy, but this guy tried to agrue, thereafter, he put on his earpiece and tried to study. The ger continue to talk, explaining herself, however, the guy put his earphone to full blast, and refused to listen. The ger got frustrated, and starts to irritate him. And they starts to quarrel. The ger began to keep quiet, i look at her eyes, its teary. She has given up hope, and I can feel the pain in the heart. However, the guy is not attentive tot he ger at all. After 5 mins, when he realise the ger is keeping quiet, he starts talking to her, but she ignored him.
Sometimes, I wonder, whose fault is it? I dont know. The ger's encounter, is sth i always felt, when i was with him. He never knew what I wanted, and what I am thinking. When I tried telling him, he simply brush it off. I may seem like nth, someone unimportant, as always, but when u need a ger beside you, you try to sweet talk. Is girls' purpose of survival in this world, is to entertain you guys?
He just called, to persuade me to meet him tomorrow night. I shall try, but feel bad leaving jamie behind. But, he says, he might have guard duty next week, thereafter got field camp. Ya, hard work, but i m oso feeling difficult to make my decision over here. I hope he can just understand, but i understand he badly wants to see me. Hai... Seriously, i dont know how. He always put me in such situations, that I dont like.
Then when i came home from Serangoon on MRT, there was this weird guy who left his bag behind. Funny, and some teenagers run after him with the bag. So dramatic.
Not coming home tomorrow. I cant make up my mind which country I wan to visit in January.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Today is the 18th, and tml, will be 19th, the date that the girls will meet up, to celebrate dearest Elaine's 20th Birthday. Since secondary school, we will nvr fail to celebrate hers. I miss my girlies, and the fun we had. Ok, I am the youngest among them, but i m definately the most mature of all.
Facebook is another kind of friendster. My friends had been adding me in it, but, i m not as active there yet. Work is quite alright, but sad that I got to work tml. Nvm, it will be fun, just like these few days. I will be positive.
The boy booked out ytd, as he hurts his toe. Met him just now to send him in. I seriously sent him in lor, to SAF ferry terminal. I will be damn busy this weekend, hopefully my flu can recover soon, I dun wan to be classified as the number 1 flu virus carrier, as 2 of my colleagues have kena. Lucky the person sitting next to me has strong immune, if not, i guess if there is a third person who kena, I might as well go see doctor and take MC.
Why am I always so weak... Why why why...
Had dinner at Hongkong cafe, as Mr Kok says he wans to eat sth gd, before going back Tekong, and he paid for it. Haiya, as usual lor. I m not a spolit girlfriend, but my bf wants it, so i m usually ok with his plans.
I have set my mind. I will concentrate on my driving now, den take financial lessons, while waiting for 21st birthday to come, before I decide which Uni i want to enrol myself in.
I want to watch the movie Rendition, it is a M18 show, now under sneak preview. Anyone wants to watch?
What shall I wear for the girl celebration tml?
Facebook is another kind of friendster. My friends had been adding me in it, but, i m not as active there yet. Work is quite alright, but sad that I got to work tml. Nvm, it will be fun, just like these few days. I will be positive.
The boy booked out ytd, as he hurts his toe. Met him just now to send him in. I seriously sent him in lor, to SAF ferry terminal. I will be damn busy this weekend, hopefully my flu can recover soon, I dun wan to be classified as the number 1 flu virus carrier, as 2 of my colleagues have kena. Lucky the person sitting next to me has strong immune, if not, i guess if there is a third person who kena, I might as well go see doctor and take MC.
Why am I always so weak... Why why why...
Had dinner at Hongkong cafe, as Mr Kok says he wans to eat sth gd, before going back Tekong, and he paid for it. Haiya, as usual lor. I m not a spolit girlfriend, but my bf wants it, so i m usually ok with his plans.
I have set my mind. I will concentrate on my driving now, den take financial lessons, while waiting for 21st birthday to come, before I decide which Uni i want to enrol myself in.
I want to watch the movie Rendition, it is a M18 show, now under sneak preview. Anyone wants to watch?
What shall I wear for the girl celebration tml?
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Mummy is doing her rants now, on my sis's results. Hai, that girl,high possibility that she is going to fail her J1 again. Mummy just went.... Eileen, u r the oldest of all. With the saying that " Eldest acts a parent when the parents are away", so I should handle my sister. She wants me to tell speak to her about her future.
I dont see the point. They are my siblings, and since young, I am very jealous about their cleverness. Now, my parents are getting so proud of me of passing my Poly smoothly. I dont need my parents to worry for me, and I know what I want. But, my siblings being so much cleverer den me, can think for themselves. What can i do? Counsel them? They have to face that they have done, not within my control.
I may not be a gd sister, but, i have shown to them, that me being not intelligent like them, can work my way up. Its just up to them whether they want to work hard for what they want.
I cant be bothered to nag. And i hate to nag at people. I just leave her to do what she likes, as long as she dont regret her decision.
In the past, my parents cant be bothered with how i fare in my results, so long that i can pass. I am always a sidekick. But now, my siblings failed, then they starts to treasure me. I look at the past, to the present.
I was reading Cleo just now. There was this test that i did, on Paranoid. The stress expert said that " Paranoia is a natural part of the human psyche", but it depends on individual on how paranoid each person is.
From the test, it shows that I am quite a paranoid person. Quite. Its true that my ex's impact on my relationships matters alot, and i dont trust people easily. I can get suspicious easily, unless you can convince me. I trust my instinct and 6th sense alot. Vin has become the victim of my past relationship. But he himself, is probably getting a karma, coz he used to be a playboy mahx.
Loyalty and faithfulness is my perfect vision in what I want to have from people around me. Heart to heart talk with me? Wait till u know me very well, like my best friends who had been with me for more than 7 years.
Hai, 19th I got to work. meaning I cant enjoy myself as much for Elaine's birthday. I miss the darling gers, the times we had in secondary school. Its not easy, for us to move on from being so close everyday, to the times where all four of us went to different courses in 2 polys, to now where one of us doing degree in govt uni, one is private uni, and the other two working. Thanks girls, for all the support. :) They are the ones who know me better then anyone in this world, not even Alvin.
Chatted with my ex colleague, Yvonne on my future studies. I m looking at some degree that is joint major, Bachelor of Commerce with Double Majors, Hospitality and Tourism Management and Marketing, OR Bachelor of Arts with Double Major -Psychology and Marketing Management of some private institution.
Not Psychology again. But the prospect of Tourism industry dont sound too good for me. I m intending to have 2 paths for me choose in future. So i would like to have 2 majors as back up. UniSIM has a limit for me to be 21 year old before I can make my application, which is 2 yrs later.
I dont like to do things that i will regret. I shall listen to more advices to see how I want to continue. Maybe before I turn 21, after i get my driving license, i shall proceed to getting a private financial degree first, then to go for better degrees. Looks like I am doing a bit in every field.
There are more votes for PSP den DS.... But, I still cant make up my mind. Or maybe I shall just save up, and go to the States to find Yvonne, since she is having her holidays soon.
I dont see the point. They are my siblings, and since young, I am very jealous about their cleverness. Now, my parents are getting so proud of me of passing my Poly smoothly. I dont need my parents to worry for me, and I know what I want. But, my siblings being so much cleverer den me, can think for themselves. What can i do? Counsel them? They have to face that they have done, not within my control.
I may not be a gd sister, but, i have shown to them, that me being not intelligent like them, can work my way up. Its just up to them whether they want to work hard for what they want.
I cant be bothered to nag. And i hate to nag at people. I just leave her to do what she likes, as long as she dont regret her decision.
In the past, my parents cant be bothered with how i fare in my results, so long that i can pass. I am always a sidekick. But now, my siblings failed, then they starts to treasure me. I look at the past, to the present.
I was reading Cleo just now. There was this test that i did, on Paranoid. The stress expert said that " Paranoia is a natural part of the human psyche", but it depends on individual on how paranoid each person is.
From the test, it shows that I am quite a paranoid person. Quite. Its true that my ex's impact on my relationships matters alot, and i dont trust people easily. I can get suspicious easily, unless you can convince me. I trust my instinct and 6th sense alot. Vin has become the victim of my past relationship. But he himself, is probably getting a karma, coz he used to be a playboy mahx.
Loyalty and faithfulness is my perfect vision in what I want to have from people around me. Heart to heart talk with me? Wait till u know me very well, like my best friends who had been with me for more than 7 years.
Hai, 19th I got to work. meaning I cant enjoy myself as much for Elaine's birthday. I miss the darling gers, the times we had in secondary school. Its not easy, for us to move on from being so close everyday, to the times where all four of us went to different courses in 2 polys, to now where one of us doing degree in govt uni, one is private uni, and the other two working. Thanks girls, for all the support. :) They are the ones who know me better then anyone in this world, not even Alvin.
Chatted with my ex colleague, Yvonne on my future studies. I m looking at some degree that is joint major, Bachelor of Commerce with Double Majors, Hospitality and Tourism Management and Marketing, OR Bachelor of Arts with Double Major -Psychology and Marketing Management of some private institution.
Not Psychology again. But the prospect of Tourism industry dont sound too good for me. I m intending to have 2 paths for me choose in future. So i would like to have 2 majors as back up. UniSIM has a limit for me to be 21 year old before I can make my application, which is 2 yrs later.
I dont like to do things that i will regret. I shall listen to more advices to see how I want to continue. Maybe before I turn 21, after i get my driving license, i shall proceed to getting a private financial degree first, then to go for better degrees. Looks like I am doing a bit in every field.
There are more votes for PSP den DS.... But, I still cant make up my mind. Or maybe I shall just save up, and go to the States to find Yvonne, since she is having her holidays soon.
Monday, October 15, 2007
Time passes so fast, especially after I left school. Hai, pple grow old so soon. I was hoping, my 20th year will not come.. Since young, i have been wanted to grow up, and acting mature. Maybe being young is good.
Work is alright la, times passes damn fast today. But i m very slpy, coz my running nose tap drip from 8am till now, at 9pm.Gosh! I used alot of tissues lor.
I dont know if i shld buy psp slim or nintendo... Haiz. 19th i got 2 driving lessons, den go to elaine's bdae celebration! My bestie is 20 yr old. Soon it will be kris's den mine. So soon.
My back problem is getting more problem. Hai. I m not happy! Maybe my goal in life has not been identified yet. We shall see, maybe i shall see my plans soon.
Hahaz, I have nvr seen a guy so stupid la. Gers like guys to be frank, not beat about the bush. Hahaz. Cant stand them for being so blockhead. I shall remain blur, since he is so anxious about his ego.
Work is alright la, times passes damn fast today. But i m very slpy, coz my running nose tap drip from 8am till now, at 9pm.Gosh! I used alot of tissues lor.
I dont know if i shld buy psp slim or nintendo... Haiz. 19th i got 2 driving lessons, den go to elaine's bdae celebration! My bestie is 20 yr old. Soon it will be kris's den mine. So soon.
My back problem is getting more problem. Hai. I m not happy! Maybe my goal in life has not been identified yet. We shall see, maybe i shall see my plans soon.
Hahaz, I have nvr seen a guy so stupid la. Gers like guys to be frank, not beat about the bush. Hahaz. Cant stand them for being so blockhead. I shall remain blur, since he is so anxious about his ego.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
So sorry for the mood swings that I had been having these few days, especially to the victim to my nonsense, vin....
He just booked in. We went Sentosa today, dint tan,coz the young boss says he has enuf of the sun in Tekong, so we just did fish reflexology and we went off.... I shall buy Nintendo DS lite... White or Pink.... Can anyone tell me, which colour is better? Or shall I buy PSP Slim? Yes, I know I am very indecisive. I need some suggestions.
Spoke to him abt the trip i want to make, he objects me leaving alone, but gave his consent to allowing me to go with guys. Hmmz, who shall i go with den? Shall pick my list soon.
Daddy booked a chalet for my birthday, so dat means I will have to plan for my off days. It has been damn long, since the whole family go out together.
Vin makes me a happy girl today. Thanks. Shall miss u soon. I shall give u another chance to our relationship. Sorry for flaring up at you. I am really sick of those stupid pple, jaming up places.
I m unhappy abt his dad. Idiot la. Went to his hse from Sentosa, his dad says they will be leaving home at 7pm to send him to camp. So, we went amk... at 6.15, dat idiot called and want us back immediately. We were delayed awhile, and boy's hp is not working. His dad flare up, and my boy got angry. The first time i see him got so angry. Hmmz... His dad is ridiculous. Its him who says 7pm, yet the person who called at 6.15 to disturb his beauty slp is not us. He puts all the blame and anger on us for nth. I shld have scolded him back.
Another thing is, when i arrived at his hse and boy is doing his packing, his dad came out of the room. I dint expect him to be in. He was naked with just a towel wrapped ard. I greeted him, and he says sorry. Den he starts wandering ard in the hse. Allen told him oei oei, got ger leh. And Allen added, Anyway is daughter-in-law. Stupid la. Notty Allen.
Hai.. Tml i m working alone, its monday! Monday blues and all. I want to go Miami. But that is my future goal. For now.... I shall plan to go overseas in January or Feburary, just dislike going overseas during school holidays, when i have to squeeze in the crowds. I am too impatient for crowds. I shall pick somewhere that is slow paced with scenery.
Maybe I shld learn some yoga, to cultivate my patience. My meditation and reflection today, reflect my bad endurance. I need to be more patient.
Oh yes, Alvin says, teachers are kind hearted pple, with lots of patience. So i told him, go back to Lena then. His ex is a Teacher. She is very soft hearted, unlike me, with chili temper. Instead, he wans me to be a teacher. I guess I will go bersak with all the little kids. I used to hate kids, and animals. Now I m alright with both, but, i dont really love them yet.
I did some tutoring 2 yrs back, when i first know Alvin, and when we were doing underground dating...Dat little kid is damn irritating, yet I cant resist teaching him, coz he is so cute n innocent, but very naughty. Thats the nature of all kids. Dats also why I love to see Jorin too, she is so adorable yet she is naughty, she can be obedient whenever I tell her nicely.
But when I saw a kid screaming at the top of the voice, I told Alvin, if he is mine, I sure slap him. Alvin says, he too. Hahaz, we are horrible people. Vin still claims he loves kids. Maybe when I have my own kids, I will love them. Dont know.
Alvin told me, my softness to him, should applies to him only. I told him, its for my boyfriends only. Not boy-friend. So those boy-friends, will still enjoy getting tortured by me.
He just booked in. We went Sentosa today, dint tan,coz the young boss says he has enuf of the sun in Tekong, so we just did fish reflexology and we went off.... I shall buy Nintendo DS lite... White or Pink.... Can anyone tell me, which colour is better? Or shall I buy PSP Slim? Yes, I know I am very indecisive. I need some suggestions.
Spoke to him abt the trip i want to make, he objects me leaving alone, but gave his consent to allowing me to go with guys. Hmmz, who shall i go with den? Shall pick my list soon.
Daddy booked a chalet for my birthday, so dat means I will have to plan for my off days. It has been damn long, since the whole family go out together.
Vin makes me a happy girl today. Thanks. Shall miss u soon. I shall give u another chance to our relationship. Sorry for flaring up at you. I am really sick of those stupid pple, jaming up places.
I m unhappy abt his dad. Idiot la. Went to his hse from Sentosa, his dad says they will be leaving home at 7pm to send him to camp. So, we went amk... at 6.15, dat idiot called and want us back immediately. We were delayed awhile, and boy's hp is not working. His dad flare up, and my boy got angry. The first time i see him got so angry. Hmmz... His dad is ridiculous. Its him who says 7pm, yet the person who called at 6.15 to disturb his beauty slp is not us. He puts all the blame and anger on us for nth. I shld have scolded him back.
Another thing is, when i arrived at his hse and boy is doing his packing, his dad came out of the room. I dint expect him to be in. He was naked with just a towel wrapped ard. I greeted him, and he says sorry. Den he starts wandering ard in the hse. Allen told him oei oei, got ger leh. And Allen added, Anyway is daughter-in-law. Stupid la. Notty Allen.
Hai.. Tml i m working alone, its monday! Monday blues and all. I want to go Miami. But that is my future goal. For now.... I shall plan to go overseas in January or Feburary, just dislike going overseas during school holidays, when i have to squeeze in the crowds. I am too impatient for crowds. I shall pick somewhere that is slow paced with scenery.
Maybe I shld learn some yoga, to cultivate my patience. My meditation and reflection today, reflect my bad endurance. I need to be more patient.
Oh yes, Alvin says, teachers are kind hearted pple, with lots of patience. So i told him, go back to Lena then. His ex is a Teacher. She is very soft hearted, unlike me, with chili temper. Instead, he wans me to be a teacher. I guess I will go bersak with all the little kids. I used to hate kids, and animals. Now I m alright with both, but, i dont really love them yet.
I did some tutoring 2 yrs back, when i first know Alvin, and when we were doing underground dating...Dat little kid is damn irritating, yet I cant resist teaching him, coz he is so cute n innocent, but very naughty. Thats the nature of all kids. Dats also why I love to see Jorin too, she is so adorable yet she is naughty, she can be obedient whenever I tell her nicely.
But when I saw a kid screaming at the top of the voice, I told Alvin, if he is mine, I sure slap him. Alvin says, he too. Hahaz, we are horrible people. Vin still claims he loves kids. Maybe when I have my own kids, I will love them. Dont know.
Alvin told me, my softness to him, should applies to him only. I told him, its for my boyfriends only. Not boy-friend. So those boy-friends, will still enjoy getting tortured by me.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Gers can be blur at hints sometimes, but sometimes, we choose to ignore. If one were to tell us direct, we either catch it or we dun. So, this is a tricky qn, where it comes to question and answer.
Ego, is something everyone has. It is just whether the person's is stronger then others. Some pple, have strong ego, will nvr be able to achieve what they want to do, coz they are afraid of failure. Failure at times, can improvise you, its a learning journey.
Shall I watch David Copperfield? Like Sabbi said, he is old le, and the previous time he came was 6 yrs ago. Its a rare opportunity, and it might be the last as well.... Hmmz, hard to decide, coz the dates and the timing dun suits me. But den again, I hate to regret. Shall make my decision soon, and just leave it behind me..... Go or dun go....
Ego, is something everyone has. It is just whether the person's is stronger then others. Some pple, have strong ego, will nvr be able to achieve what they want to do, coz they are afraid of failure. Failure at times, can improvise you, its a learning journey.
Shall I watch David Copperfield? Like Sabbi said, he is old le, and the previous time he came was 6 yrs ago. Its a rare opportunity, and it might be the last as well.... Hmmz, hard to decide, coz the dates and the timing dun suits me. But den again, I hate to regret. Shall make my decision soon, and just leave it behind me..... Go or dun go....
Thanks. I dont know what else to say to u, but, i duno who else will be able to tone me down as much as u can..... But I still must say, I am sorry. The feelings, i tried very hard to search back, but i am still in the trying mode.
Okok, i admit I am a chilli padi. But at least, I am very nice to you. The dinner was nice. We met for a while, den he sent me home, before going to CHIJMES to meet his bunk mates. I dun understand la, he told me he is tired from soccer, but still can go CHIJMES, when i told him i wan go Sentosa tml. Guys, are always guys, loyalty and faith comes first.
Well, maybe thats good oso, I hope nxt time when i ask him abt Love or Bread, he can have the same idea as me...
Where shall i go for holiday? Taiwan? New Zealand? Australia? I want to go somewhere with nice natural scenery, leaving all worries behind, just enjoy myself. . I might be going alone, since noboday can go with me, 6 months I have been staying in Singapore, I will need some break soon. I like nature. But, my back problem, i cant travel much with heavy bags. Sianz... Shall plan for alternatives.
Did some receptionist duties today, its damn difficult. We did all those stupid stunts, and i sucks la... Ok, i know someone is unhappy abt me again.
For those of my frenz who knows me well enuf, will know my instinct and the words i said,are usually accurate. Just because u r a lady, doesnt mean u dun need to heed the advice dat, dun mess with ladies! I can predict my own O levels results, can u? Mind u, my results figure are exactly the ones i told my besties, before the results are released.
Pardon me, i really cant stand those pple. Maybe like what i told Jamie, i m very nice to pple i m close with, but i m not on gd relations with pple like others. Those pple shld not judge pple with colours, and i will not do likewise to dem. I tot after dat event, everything could have gone back to normal, but after what i saw today, it is not settled.
Gossips... Now i know how it spread le. Sitting there for the whole day, I oso get to hear some things dat i dont know, and i dont wish to know.
Vin will not be happy to see i m so notorious. I tried toning down, but i really hate those pple, who tried to put words into my mouth, telling me off for things that i did not do. Just becoz i m not pretty like u, just becoz i m just a small ger, doesnt mean i can accept all these nonsense without arguing back , and just accept everything as it is, but i want peace, i dont want enemies.
Damn! I shall not be upset about all these pple. I must be happy, so that pple ard me will be happy as well. Sometimes, no matter how unhappy i m, I should remain positive. :) For the sake of the others, i shall forgive and forget....
Okok, i admit I am a chilli padi. But at least, I am very nice to you. The dinner was nice. We met for a while, den he sent me home, before going to CHIJMES to meet his bunk mates. I dun understand la, he told me he is tired from soccer, but still can go CHIJMES, when i told him i wan go Sentosa tml. Guys, are always guys, loyalty and faith comes first.
Well, maybe thats good oso, I hope nxt time when i ask him abt Love or Bread, he can have the same idea as me...
Where shall i go for holiday? Taiwan? New Zealand? Australia? I want to go somewhere with nice natural scenery, leaving all worries behind, just enjoy myself. . I might be going alone, since noboday can go with me, 6 months I have been staying in Singapore, I will need some break soon. I like nature. But, my back problem, i cant travel much with heavy bags. Sianz... Shall plan for alternatives.
Did some receptionist duties today, its damn difficult. We did all those stupid stunts, and i sucks la... Ok, i know someone is unhappy abt me again.
For those of my frenz who knows me well enuf, will know my instinct and the words i said,are usually accurate. Just because u r a lady, doesnt mean u dun need to heed the advice dat, dun mess with ladies! I can predict my own O levels results, can u? Mind u, my results figure are exactly the ones i told my besties, before the results are released.
Pardon me, i really cant stand those pple. Maybe like what i told Jamie, i m very nice to pple i m close with, but i m not on gd relations with pple like others. Those pple shld not judge pple with colours, and i will not do likewise to dem. I tot after dat event, everything could have gone back to normal, but after what i saw today, it is not settled.
Gossips... Now i know how it spread le. Sitting there for the whole day, I oso get to hear some things dat i dont know, and i dont wish to know.
Vin will not be happy to see i m so notorious. I tried toning down, but i really hate those pple, who tried to put words into my mouth, telling me off for things that i did not do. Just becoz i m not pretty like u, just becoz i m just a small ger, doesnt mean i can accept all these nonsense without arguing back , and just accept everything as it is, but i want peace, i dont want enemies.
Damn! I shall not be upset about all these pple. I must be happy, so that pple ard me will be happy as well. Sometimes, no matter how unhappy i m, I should remain positive. :) For the sake of the others, i shall forgive and forget....
Friday, October 12, 2007
I m sorry, this is something dat i m not able to tell u when i see u. When i met u, i felt more tired and irritated. I know u have been trying to make me happy.
Sorry...
We tried our best, i know. U r the bf that most gers would want, but, i really feel very stress with u. U know when you told me to stay over at ur hse tonight, i tried rejecting. Then u told me to send u home, i understand ur meaning, but i find it hard to reject u. I tried explaining my reasons, but u kept telling me to do as u want, until u unhappily told me u accepted my reasons.
Y is it so difficult for us to communicate...
Sometimes, I just feel like crying in front of u when u cant understand, but this time, no tears came out, to make u soft heart on me, maybe i have given up hope... I dun wish to close my heart on u, just like what i did to royston. Coz u are the one, who opened it again. Yet, u r oso the one, who gave me more scars den what he gave me...
I know you love me alot, but like i told u before, the past affects the present. I know u will tell me that, i should not be bothered abt the past.
But, have u thought how much u hurt me in the past? Both of us tried so much, and i dont want to hurt u. I dont know how to put across to u, just hope, u can be like what u used to be, the guy who understands me the most.
U told me i m too busy for u. Where were u when i need u so much? I understand u have ur responsibility for the country, i understand u love ur family, and the business, u want to outshine and have a company of your own. i know when u dont have time for me, i kept quiet. When i m busy, u complained...Have u thought of what I want....
You told me to be independent when u r not around. yet u want me to be the little ger who rely and listens to u when u r ard. Wow, how to achieve that? Maybe u can teach me?
Before I know u, and roy, i was an independent ger, who shield my sisters, my best friends... Everything changed me. I am not the ger whom I was 3 years ago.
Ok, enought of my rantings for him... I had been busy today. Work in morning, driving in afternoon, den wait for the boy for 2 hrs... great Yeah! Travelling form Tanah Merah to Yio Chu Kang in rain, and tried driving on slope in rain. Then went all the way back to Pasir Ris... How to not be tired...While waiting for him, i bought reader digest to accupy myself...
Y am I always waiting for u? Cant u do the other way round? Like ur mom said, asking me to call u always, will only make me feel more tired of the rs when time passes.....
Singlehood is not sth i desire, but, when things cant work, maybe thats the last solution. I m seriously tired of everything. Shall plan for a trip overseas soon. Even if it meant that I go on my own. I just want to have a break from all these troubles and worries... I don't know who else can understand what i m going through, but i hate myself now. Hai, my hair is going white with all these problems.
Sorry...
We tried our best, i know. U r the bf that most gers would want, but, i really feel very stress with u. U know when you told me to stay over at ur hse tonight, i tried rejecting. Then u told me to send u home, i understand ur meaning, but i find it hard to reject u. I tried explaining my reasons, but u kept telling me to do as u want, until u unhappily told me u accepted my reasons.
Y is it so difficult for us to communicate...
Sometimes, I just feel like crying in front of u when u cant understand, but this time, no tears came out, to make u soft heart on me, maybe i have given up hope... I dun wish to close my heart on u, just like what i did to royston. Coz u are the one, who opened it again. Yet, u r oso the one, who gave me more scars den what he gave me...
I know you love me alot, but like i told u before, the past affects the present. I know u will tell me that, i should not be bothered abt the past.
But, have u thought how much u hurt me in the past? Both of us tried so much, and i dont want to hurt u. I dont know how to put across to u, just hope, u can be like what u used to be, the guy who understands me the most.
U told me i m too busy for u. Where were u when i need u so much? I understand u have ur responsibility for the country, i understand u love ur family, and the business, u want to outshine and have a company of your own. i know when u dont have time for me, i kept quiet. When i m busy, u complained...Have u thought of what I want....
You told me to be independent when u r not around. yet u want me to be the little ger who rely and listens to u when u r ard. Wow, how to achieve that? Maybe u can teach me?
Before I know u, and roy, i was an independent ger, who shield my sisters, my best friends... Everything changed me. I am not the ger whom I was 3 years ago.
Ok, enought of my rantings for him... I had been busy today. Work in morning, driving in afternoon, den wait for the boy for 2 hrs... great Yeah! Travelling form Tanah Merah to Yio Chu Kang in rain, and tried driving on slope in rain. Then went all the way back to Pasir Ris... How to not be tired...While waiting for him, i bought reader digest to accupy myself...
Y am I always waiting for u? Cant u do the other way round? Like ur mom said, asking me to call u always, will only make me feel more tired of the rs when time passes.....
Singlehood is not sth i desire, but, when things cant work, maybe thats the last solution. I m seriously tired of everything. Shall plan for a trip overseas soon. Even if it meant that I go on my own. I just want to have a break from all these troubles and worries... I don't know who else can understand what i m going through, but i hate myself now. Hai, my hair is going white with all these problems.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Went out wif Roy ytd, a juggy i met at expo working.... after my driving lesson... He is quite an ok guy, i know dear will not be happy to know i met him, but i m really bored la.
Went to "buckaroo bbq and grill" at Sembawang. Its a nice ambience place. Went wif my colleagues, CY, Don, James, Aaron, Justin after a meeting. Me, a lonely girl among the guys, what they chat about, are question marks for me.
I had been talking wif Jovelle lately, dint know some pple can treat girls in such a way. He is a perfect guy, but, maybe not the perfect one for matters of heart. I hope this poor girl can pick herself up.
Tml i am having driving again, slope. Gosh! Dont know how m i going to survive it. Driving is getting fun, and i m less afraid, at least, my biting point is no problem now.
Hai, I am tired of everything. Tml he is coming out again. He ask me to stay over at his place for the weekends, but i had told him i cant. Hope he can understand. I need a big tree in my life. I m tired. I want to escape at times, but, there are so many things i cant let go.
Went to "buckaroo bbq and grill" at Sembawang. Its a nice ambience place. Went wif my colleagues, CY, Don, James, Aaron, Justin after a meeting. Me, a lonely girl among the guys, what they chat about, are question marks for me.
I had been talking wif Jovelle lately, dint know some pple can treat girls in such a way. He is a perfect guy, but, maybe not the perfect one for matters of heart. I hope this poor girl can pick herself up.
Tml i am having driving again, slope. Gosh! Dont know how m i going to survive it. Driving is getting fun, and i m less afraid, at least, my biting point is no problem now.
Hai, I am tired of everything. Tml he is coming out again. He ask me to stay over at his place for the weekends, but i had told him i cant. Hope he can understand. I need a big tree in my life. I m tired. I want to escape at times, but, there are so many things i cant let go.
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